Roll call 81

Hi, Loial. Are you OK?

I don't know! Mood is a bit up & down. I feel like all this Pokemon stuff was/is a great distraction but there's still stuff going on.

Wondering if my SSRI is pooping out on me. I mean it wasn't as effective as last time I was on it for my anxiety but since my mood was better I just persevered but I feel like it's not helping enough. Feeling like I'm slipping backwards again.

I mean, what with starting college in a month (induction in 3 weeks), I'd say I've got reason to be a little anxious but still. Just my overall mood could be better.

Morning. Today is the doctor appointment from hell. I'm hoping my anxiety isn't too bad. I don't like to take a prn when I'm driving somewhere I'm unfamiliar with.
What's everyone up to today? I hope you all have a great day.

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Good morning. Woke up to find out I got a 100 on my paper, so I still have a 100 in my computer maintenance class.

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Going to see my peer support specialist who is in the hospital today. we are gonna have group at her physical rehab center.

then therapy after

Went to my college today to take the English/writing placement test. Scored an 85% and got registered for classes. I start in September. Really excited.

These are the classes I will be taking this semester:

.First Year Seminar
.Intro to Psych
.Sociology
.College Composition
.Intro to social work

Nice! What's your major?

I hope the anxiety will go away and you'll feel better soon. I think you are so much braver than me, i couldn't go anywhere at all. So tell yourself you're doing well.

How did it go? I hope it wasn't too bad.

It went okay. I always dread it but then I go and wonder why I was so stressed. I'm one step closer to getting an appt with my pnp . I called when I got home but their computers were down. I'll call again in the morning. Pretty happy overall. Now I just have to wait for the results of my pap.

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I'm really glad you got it over with, and that it wasn't so bad. I hope the results are fine (I'm sure they are!).

Missed my DBT group because of a headache, but got.therapy tomorrow, going to maybe bring in my latest journal entry which is titled roughly as.an example of my thinking, to.show.my therapist why I have trouble.jounaling or writing without subjects.or.prompts, and how disorganized my thoughts actually are. Might write another entry tonight idk, hopefully my therapist doesn't lecture me tomorrow about missing group today...

I hope you don't get lectured and the journal entries help.

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Thanks, I.actually wrote.another jumbled mess.of an entry about how.Ive been feeling lately.to show.my therapist, so hopefully we get.to them tomorrow, and I'm not just told to "use my DBT skills"...

It's quiet in here.
Nothing much going on here tonight. Just watching tv and reading here. I'm really bored lol.
I hope everyone is enjoying their night.

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ive been gone from home since 8am. just got back at 8pm. summer vacation woo...im beat!

I took another nap before going to sleep. Not sure if I'll go to sleep right away or stay up awhile.

I took half my sleep potion and substituted benadryl for the vistaril because I get such horrible restless leg lately. I miss using the vistaril though. It's a brilliant combo for sleep, but if something wakes you, you'll be very weakened in your body, and you could have some scary amnesia.

I like taking tiz regardless of whether I take the benadryl or vistaril. I think it's better with the vistaril, but the vistaril is useless for restless leg.

Good morning =]

My psych nurse/psychologist isn't here to give me the injection so someone else that doesn't have experience with it is going to do it which is scary o.o

I hope it will go well.

Human services. I want to be a psychiatric social worker

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Still in hospital. Got started on abilify and I fainted this morning. Doctor's don't believe the faint had anything to do with the meds.

It's officially the start of a moderate dieting phase. I can't believe how much weight I gained. I'm so stupid, when it's so hard to lose it, imprisoned in my apartment here.

when will everyone stop waking me up before 8!!!

i Fd up and texted my T too much one night. he basically said it was too much. i said im sorry. he said its ok and he understands that i am struggling right now. that hes not mad and he does care. i cried a lot that night. but i had to wait til i went to bed to do it BC i was at my mom's house. he keeps saying that its understandable bc i am struggling a lot right now. i feel guilty and bad for doing it, and stupid, and embarrassed. i am going to back off from the texting. i know hell want to discuss it but i dont. cant we just like pretend it never happened and i wont do it again? lol.... avoiding things--- my number 1 skill. he told me it isnt a big deal but it feels like one to me. i guess i took it as a rejection. anyway, we have a game night tonight. i want to go but im nervous. i will probably go... but feel shy and reserved and timid around him.