Roll Call 82

The first few days are really hard but then it gets easier. Are you gonna quit without any help? (Vape, patches, gum). One thing that kept me motivated was to read up on how smoking affects your body and the benefits of giving up. Good luck!

So my son was supposed to be home by 6. He called at 540 from at least 45 minutes away. He have me a load of **** about staying out and I said no. Then he hung up on me. He's obviously late too. I'm trying to decide on a fitting punishment. I hate this part of parenting. He's definitely become a teenager. He even gave me a "Jesus Christ mom". Ugh. What to do what to do.

Ground him. It worked when my generation did similar stuff. :/

Although right now, you can simply say that next time he doesn't do as you say or agree, he will be grounded.

I'm gonna try cold turkey

Just smoked my last cig. I'm downloading an app to help me in quitting. My 2 big reasons are money and health. Being sick has really made me realize things. Also I get signs and messages from the Internet telling me I need to quit for the past few days. So I am listening to them and DOING IT

Good morning. Hope everyone has a good day.

Good morning all.

I hope everyone has a good day.

Morning guys, hope everyone has a good day.

#3timesforluck

Hi everyone.
Today I'm going to call counseling services to find a new treatment team.

Wow that a big step....what's wrong with your current team?

hi guys i broke my goal of 190, today i weighed myself this morning, i'm 188.5, my new goal is 180, and i have been eating mcdonals, just goes to show its not what you eat, its what you do... work is brutal..

That's great! Doesn't it just lift you up to see such good progress? I need to lose a ton of weight but I'm having trouble with it because of what's going on here.

I hope you'll have a lot of good luck with that. I also wonder what is bad with your current team?

I don't have a therapist and my prescriber is a nurse practitioner that doesn't know a lot about...well.. anything. If I go in there with moderate anxiety, she'll ask if I need to be hospitalized and when I say no she doesn't do anything to help keep that anxiety from getting severe. Everytime I start noticing some early warning signs I go to the psychiatrist in a group I used to attend and take his suggestions to my NP, who just goes along with it.
I called the counseling center and they said it's likely I can get a therapist, but if I want a prescriber I'll have to get on the waiting list.
And I walked 9.4 miles today

The walking sounds great! I walked a lot before my back got so bad, loved it.

I know what you mean about a NP not knowing much. At the clinic I go to, I've had at times catastrophic "care". And they rotate people out, so if you have someone you really like, they're going to disappear.

I hope you will get someone with more experience and knowledge.

I am feeling weird since 1h or so.. tomorrow psychiatrist appointment and returning to day hospital.

This depression is kicking my ***. I'm already on the max dose if Effexor. I hate the idea of coming off it and going through withdrawal. I don't know what to do. I'm such a mess. I just wait all day for my kids to get home. I alternate between being in tears and trying to sleep. I need to start doing stuff. I need to get my mind off of the bad stuff.
I guess I missed my pnp appt so now I need to reschedule. I didn't think it was time to see her yet. Seems like I just went. I don't even want to go. I know she's going to put me back on zyprexa.

Can't seem to get motivated in school. Oh can't manage my time well and it's overwhelming me

I'm sorry things are rough for you right now, could this depression be due to a recent med change----I know the APs affect my moods. Have you tried any cbt techniques? I like to keep a box of fun stuff beside my bed----stuff like new PJs, bath salts, soaps, coloring books, nutella etc. a note to buy new music off the itunes store. Find three things you like and do them all at once, ie music, some food and something visual, old pictures on facebook or whatever. I think fake it until you make it applies here-----you have to go through the motions but you'll get a slight mood lift which is sometimes all you need to keep going.

are you still in the day program even with classes? For me classes were a full time job...

Yeah I'm sill going to my day treatment program , it's hard to balance. I just feel like sleeping and sleeping

I'm taking 5 classes, I was also going to be taking a 2 hour class at my church once a week in addition to that but my NP was like no you can't do that it's too much lol

5 classes is a lot---have you considered doing fewer at a time? I think since you're trying to balance a day treatment program it's almost like trying to balance a job with school----It's great to have high expectations of yourself but not great when they become impossible to carry out.

The only thing is if I drop even one of my classes I lose 1500 dollars in grants and won't get the left over financial aid in October which I really need because I'm struggling with money

It really hit me today how unhappy I am with my life. Things have been bad for a while now. I feel stuck. It's hard to deal with and I obsess about it a lot