Roll Call 82

Husband noticed I'm down. I'm usually better at masking these kinds of days.
I wonder if you're right SP about the APs. I've been bouncing around from ap to ap for months I think for close to a year now. I am willing to bet that is contributing.

I'm sorry

ALWAYS SOMETHING THERE TO REMIND ME!

blue-bird I understand how hard it is. I have to go to a day hospital and have pharmacology, chemical pharmacy, nutrition, organic chemicstry II, analytical chemistry and microbiology II this semester. What I do is going on Friday -I don't have lessons on friday- and going to the day hospital those days I don't feel well enough to attend lessons -some hours two time a weeks-. I also volunteer at the red crox and have to do some courses on weekends -200h in total, 5 courses-, and then the english group on tuesday night and kinball on wendensday.

People always say it's like a suicide but I don't care, what's important is trying and trying and keep going and going.

Mega hug

Good morning all.

I hope everyone has a good day.

Good morning everyone. I hope you all have a good day.

Only had 1 class today. It went well. I'm happy about the ADA transition services, they notified my professors about my issues with test taking and presentations and they are working with me. My English professor said there's only 1 presentation and I can either just do it in front of him only if I want or I could videotape myself and hand it in. That's not till the end of the semester though. Most of my teachers are doing this, it takes a lot of stress off of me.

i found school hard for me too, i try to have fun, then i dread the homework and end up trying to have fun more to escape the dread of school work, then i try to cram on the work and end up in tears cause i dont have enough time to finish the work

yeah i find if you make your illness know to the teachers or councelors, they will make your school work much easier and will make exceptions for you, good luck in school, i hope you succeed.

I really like that, sounds kind of like Depeche Mode! Good listening Erti!

Anyone here ever hear morse code randomly throughout the day? Its going too fast I can't write it down quick enough to translate it. Don't think it's coming from the chip, think it might be something else, maybe it's another signal coming through. Hmmmm.

I was really suicidal this week, but I got through it. Good to know in future.

Got an email from Jeremy Corbyn, just a mass email not a personal one. However it ended with 'In friendship, ' instead of 'regards' or something like that. Isn't that lovely? I wish we had a politician like Mr Corbyn over here. I'd certainly vote for him.

I feel sick today. Doesn't help that my son is sleeping out. That makes my anxiety shoot to astronomical levels. Anyway I feel sick. I hope it passes.

The weekend is here! Done with school for the day, now I get a few days off

I had a bad day tooo but i took 8mg of klonopil at once hours ago and I am better.

I sleep early and wake up early too lately. It's nice to finally have a normal sleep schedule

I'm excited. Husband is on his way home with Chinese food. I got chicken rice soup. General tso's for when I'm feeling better tomorrow.

I also have a fudge round for later.

Thanks xD

I never heard of Depeche Mode. Something to look up on youtube.

You haven't lived until you've overplayed 'enjoy the silence' so much that everyone in your vicinity hates you.

Felling better this morning, having a ton of things to do.

Ended up in the hospital last night, the morse code got too much and the voices were taunting me to remove the chip. So I tried. No one in the hospital spoke to me or looked at my head for 5 hours, I was just sent to a room. When the doctor game he just glued it up and didn't even clean it, my head was full of blood. Cleaned it when I got home myself. Had to sign an Against Medical Advice form for leaving, they wanted me to wait until today in the ER to see a psychiatrist.

Morning all. Hope you have a great day.

Feeling like total crap for the past day, week, month, year,....my whole life