Roll Call 82

so friday I slept in to 7:22am when I was suppose to be ready to go at 7am well whatever it was cold outside you could see your breath so I had to run back inside for a warmer jacket. it had mittens in it so bonus doing papers while halfway freezing is challenging. but the day went on and I did my other part time job of supported employment as janitor for a local non profit where I get $15/hr bonus money papers its about 86$ a month for 3days a week.

Good morning guys, this is officialy my 10 thousandth post!

At the library just surfing the web, trying to find ideas for the paper I have to write for my college composition class.

I watched the Exorcist last night never seen it before, it was very good.

I need a new computer so badly, I think I'll start saving up for one. It would be so much simpler to have my own laptop to use than having to rely on other sources.

I was thinking about my tattoos last night and how I want another one in memory of my mom. Not entirely sure what I would get yet but I'll think about it and decide on something really nice.

Hope you all are doing well

Congratz on 10k posts, I'm almost there. I think a tattoo to honor your mom would be great. Maybe of something she liked or something that reminds you of her?

I need coffee, I'll get some this weekend. Maybe I'll get a pumpkin spice creamer or something like that for the season

Thanks! Yeah, I was thinking maybe St. Anthony since that was her favorite saint and she prayed to him a lot

Pumpkin coffee sounds yummy.

Big huge I'm glad you made it to the ophthalmologist and hope you can make it to the pdoc

Junk, I hope things work out with t. I'm sorry you are in turmoil.

Hey guys. Just wanna say a quick hi to anyone who has a good time and a hug to anyone who doesn't. Mania is here with me again, moderate level tho, how do they called it? Hypo? I did have it quite high yesterday/a couple of days ago. I think I made an inappropriate joke to someone due to too happy and excited feelings but I don't remember what and to whom, which makes me feel really bad because it means I cannot apologize..

Anw, halloween is almost there? Sounds really fun, wish we had halloween here. I am with SP about season, I think autumn would be my most fav season if I live in four seasons. The brown, orange, and yellow leaves.. how they all fall down. I imagine reading a book (yes, bluebird, edgar allan poe would be perfect) in an outdoor park would be so relaxing. Or bring my laptop (along with day tripper ) out of the bar and write under the falling leaves.. Wear a nice coat, drink a glass of irish coffee, and start gathering fantasy to write a detective book

Okay I grin too much I'll stop now. Have a good weekend everyone!!

I don't have to stop. I wish I would though...sometimes

Hey everyone. Rainy day here today. Perfect day to cuddle up and watch disney movies . Pretty soon it will be cold so I'm making myself enjoy the cooler weather. My kids are excited about Halloween so that's nice.
My sister has been sectioned . I'm feeling torn about it. On one hand at least she's warm and dry. Hopefully getting the help she so desperately needs but on the other hand I know how stubborn she can be and may not be open to the help. I'm just sad that she's become this person. At least she's not in jail again.

It is about texting. He kinda snapped at me. To be fair though, I had sent him an angry text. I'm not sure if he has changed... or if it's just me. I'm deeply attached to him. He knows this as we've discussed it a lot. He told me today it must be really confusing, especially for me, to have these feelings of wanting to be closer and have the connection, bit also being really scared of that. I told him I won't text him anymore. I think it's for the best. I never thought I'd be the one to take it off the table, but honestly I feel relief

What's up peps

Head hurts slept a lot. Had a trippy dream.

well I went to bed at 2:30am and they pounded at my door at 10:30am then i got up and had a shower then I went to my friends house and dropped off some movies to watch now I am waiting on laundry

Well the movies were short lived. Now I'm bored. I still have that damn headache. I'm not sure if it's just a headache or if it's from Effexor withdrawal. Either way it sucks. I have this aching desire to go see my sister. I know I can't but part of me really wants to. Dysfunctional family at it's best.

I am feeling better, tomorrow I have a study marathon from 9am to 9pm ehehe funny, really funny, truly, it's not sarcasm.

It sounds like he is very attached to you, too. And making an adjustment to try to reestablish boundaries. So you are both feeling like some red flags have been up lately. He's attached to you probably in a father like way, and you're attached to him like a daughter, except maybe because you did experience inappropriate hell with your former T, you are very afraid of things going that way. But they wouldn't, so maybe you're upset that your current T might not care anymore, but he does. He just wants to reestablish healthy boundaries. It sounds like you're both trying to do that. I think you'll both meet that challenge.

Rupture? Do you mean argument?
Edit: its ok I read on

I hope you'll get to see your sister soon, and hopefully with her being more well than in the past. I miss my siblings too. But if I stay here I'm unlikely to ever see them again.

I'm 100% certain my current T would never do what my former T did to me. I think current T cares a lot about me. I'm his longest term client. He's admitted he's gone beyond what he normally does for his clients for me. I'm glad I went there yesterday and we explained our own perspectives, and came to a resolution. I'm feeling much better about it all. Thanks for the reply =)

I think I have told you before but your T sounds like a really good one, really caring and in the good sense, ethical caring.

Morning guys. I hope you are all well. I slept like **** last night. Could already use a nap lol. Have to go grocery shopping today boo. Other than that I've got nothing going on today. My daughter will probably make cupcakes for us .
I hope everyone has a good day.

I'm sorry you don't see your siblings. It sucks.
It's unlikely that I'll ever voluntarily see my sister again. She's a bad person and not someone I need in my life. She's toxic. I just miss having that connection with someone.

My new tv died . How does that even happen. I've had it a couple months. Thank god for insurance plans. Now I just have to make it a couple days without a tv. I hate that I'm missing football. It's the one thing on tv that I look forward to.
Finished grocery shopping. Good times :/. My daughter made cupcakes and now we're just waiting to have dinner. Having bacon, cheddar and jalepeno burgers with chips. Can't wait! Last night we had out usual takeout and the pizza was amazing. I could eat it again tonight lol.
I think I'm running out of things to say. I'm just really bored. I bought more vitamins today. Got a women's daily multivitamin multimineral and a b complex. I'm really hoping they help.