Roll Call 82

Congrats on the college

parties in college asher roth did a song called I love college its just the lyrics but you can find it on youtube if u like.

I thought it was funny.

going to my addictions counselor in 5mins gotta walk oh well not the end of the world though

hey u guuuuuyssssss

just chillin in my room. waiting for my bedsheets in the washer. i need to clean my room. i am usually pretty tidy, but i threw all my clothes everywhere when i got home from the coast. im kinda bored and restless, agitated... i havent spoken to anyone today IRL and that always does weird things to me...when im isolated n stuff.... im getting out tomorrow though. anyway....hope everyone's okay

I went to ER and told them the distress caused by my abusers wanting to visit has broken my mental stability and that easily lead to psychosis for me since I am not on any antipsychotic because I haven't found one that works for me yet.
They said that was anticipatory anxiety and just wanted to give me a medI am stopping taking it because it's causing more troubles than benefit instead of giving one I haven't already tried so It could work.

**** them.


Entites have taken advantage of my distress to try to control me again. They want me to cut my veins to drain my blood so I will be cured from the poison in my veins that's causing the distress. They want to help, really want to, but they don't know the good way to do it, draining my blood it's not going to cure anything because there is not poison, it's my abusers the issue, I have to make entities understand that, anyway entities are still nicer than most of psychiatrist.

I hope you feel better.

I'm not sure when I last took my meds. I have 1:00 in my notebook but I don't know if that was am or pm on Friday or Saturday. :/

Just thought I'd come by and say I've been getting better and better every day. I'm going on a fishing trip and didn't even bother to bring my Abilify. Still on the injection.

Had a recent incident with Kratom and benzos and was told to take the Abilify again but I'm doing so much better just one of those things that happens every now and then no psychosis for 8 months or so ^^

Tweaky????

Good morning. Happy Saturday everyone. I have comcast coming out this afternoon. We're not getting one of the channels we pay for so we called to complain lol. I don't have much planned for the day aside from a visit to my gram. I hope you all have a good day.

My brain is cofunsed because of all that happened.

Morning. Slept for 15hours, woke up feeling disoriented. Coffee and writing is the schedule for tonight.

I hope the confusion passes

Someone is counting infront of my window "one one one one".

That's a little creepy...

Went grocery shopping, got some more good stuff. I've been eating healthy for about a week now. I did pick up a thing of cider donuts and apple cider but that's just for a treat once in awhile and who can resist buying that in the Autumn. Normally when I get something for a treat I eat ALL of it in 1 day then make myself throw up but I'm not doing that anymore.

Just enjoying the weekend. Not really any homework to do. Reading my books, coloring, watching Game of Thrones. Nice relaxing time.

Hope everyone is well

Went to group and met with T after. He said he didn't know if I was gonna come...which I thought was weird..but whateverrrrrrr. Then he asked if I was gonna come on tuesday..I was like umm yea?? He thought I was leaving him last week, which I did say I wouldn't be coming back there last week. He brought that up and I said yea, I was pretty hurt then. My poor T. Why does he tolerate me?????

Had a nice visit with gram. She amazes me. She's 92 and she works with the elderly and volunteers with veterans <3. She is always doing something. I just adore her.

I think my vitamins are working. I feel much less fatigued than I did before. I'm also feeling less depressed. I am attributing this to the vitamins instead of the Zoloft because it took a while for it to work last time I was on it and I've only been on it 2 weeks if that. Anyway I'm feeling pretty good.

Anyone ever take invega and notice excess food cravings? Like cravings for carbs? Or weight gain?

made inside out cookies their chilling in the fridge they gotta be in their for 2hours

My boobs got bigger but that was bc of the prolactin thing...which metformin reversed bc I lost my period and stuff. I've never really noticed excessive appetite but I've learned how to disconnect myself from feeling hungry =/

i went to a scary trail thing for halloween. it was in the woods. it had characters from all the popular horror movies. it was so much fun... i havent had that much fun in a long time. i laughed and screamed and ran , hehe. my friend and i were in the back so we were constantly being followed by creepy dudes in masks with weapons. we kept checking behind us and yup! still there! he kept trying to push me back behind him into the creepy dudes. i had a lot of fun

So tired...

Morning. Slept my day off again. Feeling a bit better. Sorry I freaked out yesterday. Ordered a chocolate pie, it will be here anytime soon.