[scar12346]

So I know that my memories are low key jacked up. Firstly I automatically say that I do not remember anything before 2010 but then if you ask me what happened on.. erm let's say April of 2008 I would tell you everything.. to what point that everything is true or not.. does not depend on me. I for myself have no clue what is real and what not.
Other thing is I have very very faulty memories. As for instance I remember a best friend of mine dying in a motor accident.... erm.. I have never had even met someone with his name. Yet again I can tell you each and every detail of out friendship and every detail in how he died. And I talk about him as if he is real. And sometimes I really get confused about is he real?
Is this only with me? Is this rare, common or I am purely on another scale of psychotic..

[OliverB]

Maybe... could he has been an hallucination?

My memories from when I was psychotic are blurried, but that's it.

[catman8989]

My memory of every week is so inconclusive. I never know what's right and what's wrong and it's blurry. Whenever I try and remember something it's really hard to do so. I just can't. But that's all just me. Maybe he is made up, but if you think he might be real try and go find some proof.

[scar12346]

Originally Posted by catman8989

My memory of every week is so inconclusive. I never know what's right and what's wrong and it's blurry. Whenever I try and remember something it's really hard to do so. I just can't. But that's all just me. Maybe he is made up, but if you think he might be real try and go find some proof.

The problem with finding proof and me is that I would make everything up. Uf it's frustrating.. it's hard when you can't believe yourself

[mindwrench]

While in a "normal" or as close to it as I get state, if I think about times that I was manic and/or in psychosis the memories are not concrete. When you think about it, reality is whatever you believe it to be during psychosis. Things that I imagined, and things that were real were assigned near equal values in my memories from those times.

On the other side of that equation. While in psychosis, my memories from times I was stable, and had a reasonable grasp of reality are subject to reinterpretation, often becoming twisted or rewrote (temporarily) to support whatever delusion I am convincing myself of at the time.

[scar12346]

Originally Posted by mindwrench

While in a "normal" or as close to it as I get state, if I think about times that I was manic and/or in psychosis the memories are not concrete. When you think about it, reality is whatever you believe it to be during psychosis. Things that I imagined, and things that were real were assigned near equal values in my memories from those times.

On the other side of that equation. While in psychosis, my memories from times I was stable, and had a reasonable grasp of reality are subject to reinterpretation, often becoming twisted or rewrote (temporarily) to support whatever delusion I am convincing myself of at the time.

So basically I am in that state that is closest to "normal" and I am thinking of something that I've created in my mind while being psychotic?

[mindwrench]

I wonder sometimes, about missing chunks of time. Do people ever break far enough from their mind, to remain functional for extended periods, yet have no memories from it ? Like when I'm in a store and a persons face lights up and they run over to shake my hand, and they know my name, and other things about me and how long it's been since they seen me. BUT! I have no recollection of ever meeting them, or being their friend, or any fun times they speak of. Though something is familiar about them, or their persona, like I did know them but not from this lifetime. Things like that I think about at 2AM.

We can get pretty lost sometimes.

[scar12346]

Originally Posted by mindwrench

I wonder sometimes, about missing chunks of time. Do people ever break far enough from their mind, to remain functional for extended periods, yet have no memories from it ? Like when I'm in a store and a persons face lights up and they run over to shake my hand, and they know my name, and other things about me and how long it's been since they seen me. BUT! I have no recollection of ever meeting them, or being their friend, or any fun times they speak of. Though something is familiar about them, or their persona, like I did know them but not from this lifetime. Things like that I think about at 2AM.

We can get pretty lost sometimes.

Oh the good old talk about past lives, I went over that with one of the good ones last night.. I actually think she is one that I've known in my past life, yet when we've died back then only I came back and now she is stuck helping me as a.. well voice. Same with both Bee and It, but to be honest It is more like this one reacquiring nightmare that we try not to sleep because of.. I just can't figure out why a dream from a past life will keep on following me in this one.. strange ain't it?

[ofthevalley]

Originally Posted by mindwrench

I wonder sometimes, about missing chunks of time. Do people ever break far enough from their mind, to remain functional for extended periods, yet have no memories from it ? Like when I'm in a store and a persons face lights up and they run over to shake my hand, and they know my name, and other things about me and how long it's been since they seen me. BUT! I have no recollection of ever meeting them, or being their friend, or any fun times they speak of. Though something is familiar about them, or their persona, like I did know them but not from this lifetime. Things like that I think about at 2AM.

We can get pretty lost sometimes.

I am missing 3 years of my life. I just don't remember them or anything about them. I was relatively stable for about 6 months of that time. But I was fully functional through the time I don't remember. So much so that people never knew anything was wrong.

[lazlo]

people with schizophrenia have memory problems.
my memory is terrible unless its last weeks happenings.
memories are bits and pieces and I'm not sure if the thing really
happened or not. I cant remember high school well at all. Or the decade of the
1990s.
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[Domatagram]

One morning I was thinking how I would feel if my friend died in a car crash and she wasn't sitting next to me in my first class, so when she came and sat down next to me I was surprised and told her I thought she was dead! This was just a result of daydreaming, and the idea got in my head.

[scar12346]

Originally Posted by Domatagram

One morning I was thinking how I would feel if my friend died in a car crash and she wasn't sitting next to me in my first class, so when she came and sat down next to me I was surprised and told her I thought she was dead! This was just a result of daydreaming, and the idea got in my head.

Gotcha, so it all come from that broken reality.. we just get lost in thought and eventually confuse what actually have had happened and what have not.

[Atypical_Disaster]

My memory is excellent when I'm not in active psychosis. When I'm psychotic though? I'll tell you all about things that never happened that my psychotic mind created...