[mindwrench]

Has anyone else with schizophrenia symptoms ever withheld information from your care providers to avoid anyone putting that label on you, or being afraid of the treatment or being locked up?

Possible trigger:

I have had symptoms consistent with schizophrenia since I was young. I was punished as a child for telling lies when I expressed fear of hallucinations, and delusions. I was told that people who talk about such things get locked in a padded room and get their brains pulled out through their nose with chrochet hooks. When you're a kid who doesn't know any better, and your terrors are based on false perceptions, I did the only smart thing and never talked about anything like that again.

I do have other disorders I have been labeled with, some maybe right, and some maybe not since the T's don't know about a lot of things. While I am an adult, and have long known the threats my parents used to make me stop complaining were bogus. I still am very reluctant to reveal symptoms that might get me that label. I think my files currently say I have Bipolar 1 with psychotic features, OCD, PTSD, and Dissociation. I think it was the accusing my last T of stalking me at the grocery store that got me the Psychotic features diagnosis, and inquiring about the presence of unmarked government vehicles outside his office. And I might be to blame for leading him down the Bipolar path in an effort to conceal other things, though I do have symptoms consistent with Bipolar disorder, I knew by highlighting my lack of sleep, and fluctuating mood that I would get the DX.

I've gotten worse and dissociating more often since starting therapy. I am not on meds of any kind, as I am fearful of the side effects, and of messing up my mind further. I started to share more about one of my delusions during my last T session and it started raising his eyebrows so I backed off it, and he said he would be afraid of me if he wasn't my T.

Your thoughts?

[12AM]

What's the point of being in therapy if we can't be honest about ourself? But I'd find another (a better) T first if I were you, your current T doesn't sound like a T with quality to me..

I do understand about hiding symptoms from others, but our psychiatrist and therapist should hear the truth about our symptoms.

[mindwrench]

Originally Posted by 12AM

What's the point of being in therapy if we can't be honest about ourself? But I'd find another (a better) T first if I were you, your current T doesn't sound like a T with quality to me..

I do understand about hiding symptoms from others, but our psychiatrist and therapist should hear the truth about our symptoms.

I have no insurance or income, so I only have the clinic with their sliding scale to see anyone. I seen the first T for three times before I put in a request for change. That had to go through funding approval and review and i got a new T. I like the new T better, but after seeing him twice I'm getting the vibe that this is still amateur hour at the dollar general of psychology, but to be fair I am coming at this with a healthy distrust of medical/mental professionals and expecting them to do something bad to me.

[12AM]

Originally Posted by mindwrench

I have no insurance or income, so I only have the clinic with their sliding scale to see anyone. I seen the first T for three times before I put in a request for change. That had to go through funding approval and review and i got a new T. I like the new T better, but after seeing him twice I'm getting the vibe that this is still amateur hour at the dollar general of psychology.

Ah I am sorry Yes I do understand that sometimes we don't have much choices. Is there a possibility you can change T again after meeting this new T 3 times? If there is no possibility, I'd tell him just the point and won't go too much into details (but still being honest about the point) so I could get his opinion and the answer of my question without making him raising his eyebrows. I hope someone else here can give you a better thought, I am not at my best condition right now

[junkDNA]

i used to lie to my therapist a lot. he would ask if i was hearing voices right then and i would say no and he would say... why do you have to lie? i also lied a lot about taking my meds. i wasnt taking them. i was flushing them all down the toilet... T said i prevented a lot of fish from getting psychosis. i also lied to my T for a few months recently. it wasnt outright lying.. more of withholding the truth.. that i had relapsed on drugs