[miss wanderlust]

I'll spare you the details of anxiety, paranoia, delusions that seem random and the slight flatlining and dark thoughts four years of visual & (slight) auditory distortions, but it has come to my attention, that these figures I see are not ghosts. (as previously thought in grade 4) but I've recognised that maybe I should talk to someone about this.

I'm not old enough to do this by myself, being under 16, (we won't go that far) but before the loss of emotion, last year, I was in a destructive depressive state, physically not being able to cope with anything (got my **** together and hardened up later by myself by shutting off emotions one day) but I told my parents that I wanted to talk to someone because I was afraid of myself. This literally took all the courage I had.

"You're dumb for being like that? Why would you do something so stupid?" -mom

Thanks for your support mom.

Anyway, this has spiked a fear of rejection and now I don't really know how I should approach them with the 'ongoing war in my head' so any tips?

Also. Our family is not a close bunch. We repel each other if we're around each other so a classic family confession night is not going to work.

(all of this makes my family sound like asshats, but they're great, just unable to comprehend certain things. also they're great in small doses)

[Sometimes psychotic]

Can you talk to a school counselor....they might be able to help you convey the serious nature to your parents so you can get the help you need.....

[miss wanderlust]

Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Can you talk to a school counselor....they might be able to help you convey the serious nature to your parents so you can get the help you need.....

I have... but I also have a problem. Well 2 actually...

1. My guidance counsellor mentioned getting a psych evaluation and I had a slight anxiety attack and uh only saw her twice after that (it's been about 4 months since i last spoke to her)

2. As I mentioned, I have had these hallucinations (of figures/people) for 4 years and when you're me, you develop an emotional attachment to random things. Four years is a long time............................ i NEED my hallucinations, it's gotten to the point where I hold them higher then certain relations. but I also know that I should probably talk to someone...

But I will definitely try to get back in contact with her. Thanks!

[Sometimes psychotic]

If you want to keep your hallucinations I would recommend a therapist rather than a psychiatrist...also even though you are having visuals I would recommend the hearing voices network.....

[miss wanderlust]

Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

If you want to keep your hallucinations I would recommend a therapist rather than a psychiatrist...also even though you are having visuals I would recommend the hearing voices network.....

That's a relief. Do I get my guidance counsellor to refer this info to my parents? or do I need to face this one head on?

Also I have bad anxiety/paranoia.

[ofthevalley]

Originally Posted by miss wanderlust

That's a relief. Do I get my guidance counsellor to refer this info to my parents? or do I need to face this one head on?

Also I have bad anxiety/paranoia.

When I had a rough patch in high school my guidance counselor spoke to my mom during a meeting with me in attendance. It made it easier. good luck

[eeeyore]

Please consider that if it is schizophrenia, by not treating the hallucinations you are also not treating its other symptoms. The fact that you hold them higher then certain relations could also be because of the illness and the psychosis could get worse and become a living hell.

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by miss wanderlust

That's a relief. Do I get my guidance counsellor to refer this info to my parents? or do I need to face this one head on?

Also I have bad anxiety/paranoia.

I would go through the counselor if it were me.....