Roll Call 86

Yes... it'll be fun!

That's nice you get weekends off. When I worked retail I rarely had weekends off.

Dont!!!!!!

Please don't

Hi guys I am popping in to say hi. Here is a pic of me on break at work...reppin' my store!!



Hope everyone has a decent day.

You look beautiful my dear.

I feel disconnected from here sometimes. I suppose it's because I don't spend as much time on PC anymore.

I see some of my old posts sometimes when I used to try and be more supportive here but I suppose these days I'm just putting my all into staying well and moving forwards. When I do post it's usually cos things are great for me.

I still think about you guys even if I don't post as often!

It's nice hearing from you whenever you post

I always miss your posts loial.

Hey junk. It's good to see you

I cant help but think i feel more comfortable alone at home.

My mom drove me somewhere and i jusy couldnt wait to get home. I felt so uncomfortable with her. Didnt want to be with her.

So glad im home. Sometimes its little things that take me to appreciate where i stay.

Unfortunately my mom lives with me . . . She has health problems. . . And we don't have the best relationship so it's kind of annoying when she wants to go with me somewhere when I just want to be alone. This morning she went with me to church which wasn't too bad but it gets on my nerves sometimes.

The relationship with my mom has somehow taken a nosedive. Idk why i say somehow. We argue so much. She puts guilt trips on me about being on disability and such. My dad doesnt but he says i should be doing something instead of at home playing on my phone. I suck.

Anyway i dont want to be around my mom anymore.

I have to tell you guys something.

After dropping out of the university 2 months ago ive given up on ever doing anything again. I kinda gave up on life. Talking about school makes me angry and very sad because ive failed so many so many so many times!

I dont think i can ever work a normal job.

Cause we are cool like that?

Lets see...

Ate a sandwich and some fruit today. Along with coffee in the morning. And gummy bears just now.

I kinda sorts think im doing good today with my food.

Well i did have a lot of beer so idk

Yall

My 13 year old cousins mom took away her phone. And shes been texting me from my grandmas phone whenever she visits our grandma. No one knows about this.

She claims shes texting other cousins. And said it was "#savage".

How is everyone tonight?

Im watching the oscars

I'm doing alright I guess.
How are you?
I'm not watching anything. Just sitting on my *** playing on my phone.

Im ok today. Ive been doing pretty good since im back taking my meds. Just a bit depressed but im trekking through it. Im really focused on making sure i dont have any psychotic symptoms tho. So far so good.

If you were to ask me that question four years ago I would tell you the FBI, Jesus, and Aliens is why!

HAHAHAHAHA I'm just as crazy now as ever though.

My dad came home just now telling me over just another racial comment he received today. Its so sad how people verbally attack an old man just because he is a different color than him. He gets this stuff daily too.

How do you tell how that there is people watching us? now I feel paranoid but then again I always thought I was little paranoid, about things so nothing new.

well today I woke up at 8am after going to bed at 3am, I mixed some Gatorade and feel like I am drinking radioactive juice. lol.

I see my Pdoc tomorrow hopefully she can raise my clonazepam back to 1mg i'm not sleeping and getting 5hours isn't exactly my cup of tea.

That's just wrong. I live in the south in Texas where most people think we are backwards like that but my area is really diverse. Sorry he had to go through that.

Thank you. I think some areas of texas are more diverse than others. Where we live tho its mostly a majority of non-minorities i guess i should say. Idk. Dfw country side.

Yeah that's how it gets out in the dfw countryside, I live in Dallas but my best friend who is black drives to all the country side areas around the edges of dfw and he gets some crazy looks coming into people's houses as a moving driver.