[destructive]

I dont know if this is the best place for this. On and off for maybe 6 years i have had some people in my head.. god that sounds crazy to type. sarah was the first and then some others came. i only know three by name and they are all different. only sarah bothers me too much. another one does but not so bad and doenst control me. i think a previoys pdoc had given a dix of schizophreniform or somehting but nothin since then because i stopped telling them after i got put in hospital and also sarah doesnt like it. i see a new psychologist now and just a gp and i have mentioned sarah and they just say it is me. i havent mentioned the others and its hard to explain it to them cause they dont believe me and i cant really tell them cause then it makes some angry. It doesnt feel like voices i guess. i do hear them but its like there are really people in there. i dunno.
does anyone else have the same feeling. like its not voices exactly.
i guess people dont think its a problem so much cause i still look normal and can fake do normal stuff like work and go out.

I kinda know what you mean. Thing is I have both. lots of voices constantly IN my head, and then Him OUTSIDE of it. Like He is actually real and I can see Him and hear Him and hold full conversations with Him. Along with that I regularly get to hear the thoughts of others near or around me.

I can understand your situation with sarah. I struggled through my life/work for years and years with Him constantly running my life for me - on a day to day basis. He controlled most things, most decisions, but it was mainly okay. I got into some serious trouble once or twice because of Him, but thats life I guess. To me it was just like going along with a friend. So He kept me away from the doctors all the time.

Personally I have found thats of the three types of voices, its the ones OUTSIDE that cause most of the problems and make life very difficult to live. So I see and hear Him outside of my head and He screams shouts makes me do messed up stuff, thats bad. I hear other peoples thoughts, usually about me, thats bad. And then I sometimes have this constant chatter in my head, like a few nagging people, just holding a conversation just behind me and making silly remarks and laughing etc but not really affecting me like the others.

and most if not all of us look normal

[pachyderm]

Sounds like something that they would discuss more in the Dissociative Disorders forum here on PC. Not that these disorders are completely separate...

[destructive]

it makes me nervous when people mention disassociation because other people have said that to me before. I have done this retreat thing for people who have truama , not that i have a huge lot, and some poeple there think i had DID or something but i dont.
i have seen sarah outside my head once or twice like an image but none of the others.

[pachyderm]

I have "people" in my head too -- but they are usually not identifiable as individuals -- just the repeat of what people have told me over my life. They are thoughts; the most destructive ones are thoughts that question the validity of my own thoughts, or even of my very person. I certainly have gotten plenty of that over my life -- including from so-called mental health people.

I think this existence of "people" inside one's head is probably common, if not actually universal. We probably have to have many inside our heads to develop our own personality. Not ones we actually see, for the most part -- I have never "seen" any of these people really. But I personally think that even the ones that a person might see are related to what is more the norm. They are not something completely incomprehensible.

[Perna]

I had people in my head with names but also knew I had created them. I couldn't get rid of them though, that's partly why I went to therapy. One's imagination can do weird things as far as symptom formation.

I also had a "group" of men, without names who said rude/ugly things to/about me; my therapist got rid of them when she told me to tell them she did not believe they existed and thinking about her small size (she was oriental) and imagining my relaying to the group what she said and the group getting angry at being told they did not exist and jumping her, I found that imaginative, convoluted, silly scenario very amusing and never heard from them again.

I think you have to start relating more to real people, ignore Sarah and the others and work to get out of yourself more. What you think about and concentrate on is where your energy will go. If other people make you anxious so you retreat into your head, you are going to meet people there that are both easier to deal with but also give you this problem of having them in there with you, confusing you and making it harder for you to relate in the real world.

[faerie_moon_x]

I sort of have a person in my head, I guess. She doesn't have a name, I just call her other me. She is kind of like me but not. She's like my friend, actually. It's hard to explain. She doesn't control me or take control of me, and is more of an observer and "guide," like she gives me advice. She's part of me yet also seperate from me at the same time. I also know she looks different than me, even though I know she doesn't have a body. I often think I look like her and it is disorienting to see myself in the mirror or a photograph. I think of myself as both "I" and also as "We." Because there is me seperate from her, and also me with her.... it's hard to explain.

Other me is nice, not mean.

[kala83]

I am not sure if its the same but sometimes I have caught myself talking to myself. In in depth converstations, I am not sure...if that counts as the same or not though

[Resistance12345]

I had two people in my mind. Their names are Bloodbourne and Star. I played a game with the shadows to save my best friend. The shadows took them from me. I haven't been diagnosed with schizophrenia or personality disorder or anything like that. I've been kind of upset about it but I refuse to tell my doctor or therapist about it.

I have Others...but I also am DID...they take control and we have amnesia about it.