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I'm an addict so I can't say anything. Maybe I can but justifying and ranting helps even though it's known that it's not true =] but maybe it is? That's the question but over generalizing helps too.

We knowww.. It got this down to a tee

Rant rant rant about frustrations helps so much and that's a coping mechanism in itself..

No one can get more pissed than me out of frustrations but it's all good! It all is!

- Tweaky

I don't have a vice
Not unless oi count playing the ukulele a "vice".
I don't smoke, I don't vape, I don't drink, I don't self harm, I don't overeat, I don't undereat...

Literally, no vices

Psychiatrist increased Vyvanse to 30mg cuz I'm doing so well.

Maybe she's right. Maybe I can't handle higher doses of stimulants anymore =]

Do u drink coffee? =]

Theres a lot of vices.

If you dont, more power to you. But its hard to believe that.

Happy day everyone.

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I didn't know the definition of a vice, but Google said it was something immoral or a bad habit

I don't think I have any. I don't watch porn, I don't eat meat, I don't have sex with strangers (anymore) and I don't have anything that I do to cope that isn't healthy. At least, not anymore.

So, I'm still to be a prisoner at an assisted living place they want to put me in and then maybe allow me to move back to independent living. It will take awhile to get me set up there. They said I'd be able to come and go freely though. The conservator is going to be in charge of my money and I feel sick about that. As soon as I can I want to fire her and live how I please. I will never have access to my money unless she is fired.

So I'm back to thinking of hiring a lawyer to fire her. Unless she already did the money grab. It makes me sick to think about. I didn't get the whole meeting recorded, only the last part.

Isn't vaping a vice? It sort of is to me but I don't care.

Oh yeah, I think she has the authority to give doctors permission for any treatment they want to give me, like shock therapy. My memories are all I have and I can't lose them. I'd better find a lawyer. I don't know how to find a good one though.

I see. But i hope you dont feel offended when i say i find that hard to believe.

I think im gonna quit going to NA. I feel out of place there. I dont consider myself an addict just an alcoholic. Ive only done weed a handful of times. I can count it on one hand. My whole life. Havent done anything else.

I might overeat a tad but other than that I don't think I have any vices either....

I was wondering the other night if going to NA was actually making you want weed---you know just hearing about other peoples exploits.

Good luck. Positive mojo going your way.

They shouldn't be controlling your money. It's not like you don't spend it properly. Even if you did, they have no right.

Thank you, valley. I wrote a whole other post just now and it isn't here. Are they putting me on moderation now?

I should have read ahead. I'm sorry she will still be in control.

Is she exercising a little censorship now? It was all about the meeting and she has more fingers in my life than I can tolerate. My money, my medical and healthcare, everything I have, she is into. If she already seized my bank accounts I don't know what I'll do.

Thank you, Tweaky. Why can't I find that post on here? Is it still up, or did they remove it?

I have no freedom. The conservator decides what happens to me and my life. There isn't supposed to be a conservator except for people who are insane and/or a danger to themselves or others. It was that doctor in the hospital who set that in motion and it is malpractice on her part. And no, I wasnt any of those things on March 12th. All they are doing now is playing cya.

Don't ever let people do this to you, Tweaky. You have a right, everyone here does, to live your own life, even if you make mistakes. A MI dx is the first step to being enmeshed in the system and lose your independence.

Its really not NA so much making me want it but my bf. I have some. Just waiting...

But i think i need to goto AA or a general 12 step at my clinic. I dont like Na. I cant relate to anyone's experiences plus my sponsor is too strict. I dont like her style. Im calling her to tonight to tell her im dropping her and NA altogether to goto aa or the general one.

It's finally Friday. No more 6am, at least for two days. Summer is almost here I just keep reminding myself.
What do you have planned for the night?

Someone should make a new roll call.

Made a new roll call!