[Sammy2004]

This is what i believe, i am going to a therapist soon, how should i bring this up? (i am 13)

The Canadian government, CSIS and the RCMP are after me.There are camera's in my house and room and microphones that are implemented in my clothes so that they can listen to what I am saying, they also have the power to listen in my mind and they know what I am thinking. Writing this is extremely hard because now they will know that I know. Whenever I go out they are always following me switching and people all the time. The guy sitting on the bench “reading” his newspaper works for CSIS. If I go into a store they follow me in, I try to lose them but they will always find me. No where is safe. They are trying to leave me messages in patterns which I am still unable to understand. I clear my browsing history all the time and constantly make new social media profiles so it is harder for them to find me. They went my special powers. I don't know yet what the powers are but it must be something big otherwise why would they care? This is really hard, i don't want to let them win but i want to stay away from me. I think they are trying to control my mind and brainwash me because there are so many things I forget in the short term for example I couldn't remember what we had had for dinner just a few days before when it came up in conversation, i think they are also trying to talk to me because I've been hearing a voice, I have only been able to tell what they are saying a few times: they asked me: Why are you whispering? In a terrible and scary voice which didn't seem to have a gender, It sounded like a loud whisper. I have also heard them say what now? But this time is wasn’t at all scary and I was a women voice.

I also think that my dad is trying to kill me -poison me by putting things into my food but the reason I dont die is cause I have an extremely good resistant rate to the poison.

I also feel things even though there isnt anything there, generally its stuff like animals brushing up my leg or bugs landing on my skin. But I have also had feelings like someone was grabbing on to me and touching me. Nothing inappropriate, just grabbing onto my shoulder or leg.

Welcome Sammy!

It sounds like you have a lot to deal with at the moment, so I think it's a good idea that you are going to see a therapist soon. I think you should just tell them how you wrote it here or, if you might get nervous or forget what you want to say, maybe you could print out your post from here to read/give to them?

I hope that your appt goes well and that they listen to you and help you figure out a way forward. Post away if there's anything that we might be able to help with.

All the best,

*Willow*

[Sometimes psychotic]

I think you explained it all very well, and I would say it is possible that you have some form of psychosis (you have to have psychosis for 6 months for schizophrenia) but don't worry there are great medications and therapeutic techniques that could help you especially being so young they might even be able to stop schizophrenia from developing with early treatment---ie a low dose of meds with therapy. None of us are professionals in diagnosis here though so please do seek help from your therapist.

[*Laurie*]

I'm really glad you're seeing a therapist soon. It does sound like you might have schizophrenia.

[Sammy2004]

Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23

Welcome Sammy!

It sounds like you have a lot to deal with at the moment, so I think it's a good idea that you are going to see a therapist soon. I think you should just tell them how you wrote it here or, if you might get nervous or forget what you want to say, maybe you could print out your post from here to read/give to them?

I hope that your appt goes well and that they listen to you and help you figure out a way forward. Post away if there's anything that we might be able to help with.

All the best,

*Willow*

Thank you so much! I think i will be printing it out as i get so nervous about stuff like that. And honestly i would have never guessed i might have phycosis if i hadn't told me friend, she then told me her brother has schizophrenia and his symptons where extremely similar to mine.