[OliverB]

......wasting it, just that.

What changes would need to happen in your life before you felt like you were doing something with it, and not wasting your time?

[OliverB]

Originally Posted by scaredandconfused

What changes would need to happen in your life before you felt like you were doing something with it, and not wasting your time?

Work harder... I don't know what to do, I am studying even if I am on Holidays and working partial time . I feel I should be doing more. When I reach a point I am OK with it, after some weeks I start feeling I need to do more.

[Catgotmytongue]

I feel the same. You are studying with mental illness and I think that's great

[Sometimes psychotic]

Honestly oliverB I think you are doing a ton of work for your degree already...it's important to have balance though like friends etc, make sure you don't neglect that part of your life.

[OliverB]

You all are right..... I feel a bit better after cooking celery and spinaches, healthy food. But I need to do more, I need to study organic chemistry and Italian orthography. And keep writing my diary and doing my workbook exercises for dissociation and trauma. I want to track my mood too and draw a bit.

[OliverB]

Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Honestly oliverB I think you are doing a ton of work for your degree already...it's important to have balance though like friends etc, make sure you don't neglect that part of your life.

I feel like a fake about my degree. I feel I don't know anything.

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by OliverB

I feel like a fake about my degree. I feel I don't know anything.

Every time someone mentions a med on here you know all the details....

Definitely not fake.....

[OliverB]

Maybe I am too anxious today...

Thank you

Are you a perfectionist? I think you are being too hard on yourself.

But if you are going to push yourself to do more regardless, I think socialising with other people would be more beneficial to you than more study, both for mood and dissociative/psychotic symptoms. Humans are social animals: we need people to interact with. Going days without speaking to another person irl, as you said on another thread, isn't good for you

*Willow*

[OliverB]

Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23

Are you a perfectionist? I think you are being too hard on yourself.

But if you are going to push yourself to do more regardless, I think socialising with other people would be more beneficial to you than more study, both for mood and dissociative/psychotic symptoms. Humans are social animals: we need people to interact with. Going days without speaking to another person irl, as you said on another thread, isn't good for you

*Willow*

I think I might be a perfectionist, but shouldn't I get better results if I were?

I don't want people near me, they are dangerous, I am on my own.

Originally Posted by OliverB

I think I might be a perfectionist, but shouldn't I get better results if I were?

Perfectionism is not about what results you may get. It's not about being able to actually achieve perfection because perfection does not exist. Google it and you will find loads of info about the traits and advantages/disadvantages, and even some tests to see if you have it (though the validity is probably questionable).

Originally Posted by OliverB

I don't want people near me, they are dangerous, I am on my own.

If you don't want human connections, why post here?? Are we not "people" too? Are we not "dangerous" too? If not, why not?! Maybe not everyone irl is "dangerous" then either...

It's a shame that you can't get decent therapy because I really think that you would benefit from it

*Willow*

[Terabithia]

I don't know if this will help at all or not...it's a quote I read sometime ago, I think by mother Theresa, which said something like, "you are successful when you are doing the best you can within the limitations of your existence." We all have those limitations in various parts of our lives. You are doing quite a lot....like 10 times more than myself!

[OliverB]

Internet makes it safe.