Roll Call 95~

Hi guys. Done with my day. Just waiting for the kids to go to bed and then it's my turn.
Had a good day. Worked for a while and then went out shopping for school supplies. Kids are all hooked up and ready to go. Well not ready for summer to end just prepared.
What did everyone else do?

I'd still say you need a phd for any kind of recognition but DT would know better....

I can barely find jobs in science, I just don't think the days of a bachelors in whatever are here anymore...technical skills are the way to go.

Work and more work....too much work.....

I'm sorry you are struggling.
I can't remember, do you see a therapist? Maybe they could help you sort through your feelings.
Make sure to update us on how you're doing.

I didn't make it through school personally. I had too many problems on the path. But somehow ended up with a CNA certificate working in the psych unit of our hospital and then was able to convince them I needed to work in IT as a desktop support person. From there I got a promotion because I was good at my job and made Systems Administrator of Virtualization Infrastructure.

That is my success story, I am grateful for it everyday.

He's trying to hold on to his outside life. Probably hoping you'd ask to visit or something. I wouldn't bother texting him back

I can barely see any positives at the moment. I know i need to focus on school and myself but im extremely lost within myself right now, dealing with massive amounts of loneliness and despair at the moment. I put off a lot of school to try to help me, costing me a lot. But now...now i just feel tormenting loneliness. Thats why im reading these books on loneliness. I dont have enough people surrounding me to get me through it and the loneliness is so extreme that im starting to feel lonely even when im with someone. Its just not good SP.

Im tempted to text the crisis line everyday but then i try to reconcile with myself and i tell myself they dont want to hear me, they need to talk to people who need real help.

Not sure if i need "real" help, but...but all this stuff is triggering my psychosis bad i think. Ive had more psychotic symptoms in the past month and a half than ive had in a year.

Maybe. Probably. He told me he was at the group home and all i said was "ok. Good luck".

I see. Maybe i can write a book and post it on amazon.

Good for you. That's awesome!

I'm sorry you're so lonely....I think it's where you live....you would do great in the city. Can you call 7 cups of tea? They like to chat

Thanks, my point of my little story is school doesn't make everything. I couldn't cut it so to say, my illness had me down through school. I was newly dx'd and trying a lot of different meds.

Many others have completed school though and are also very successful. I just don't want anyone to be discouraged about school. I really want to go back one day to, I know I could better myself more by doing so.

Sorry if I don't sound very encouraging, I struggle with social skills some.

You sound fine.

Trump is a joke...

Thank you

He secretly knows it too

I use to think so but right now... He seems to think his **** don't stink.

Most narcissist feel insecure deep within themselves and are compensating

lol he should seek therapy xD

I'm almost out of vape juice. My husband forgot to stop on his way home and now we are both out. I don't know how I'll make it through tomorrow lol. In a sad way.

I thought seriously about moving but i kinda dont think moving would have a huge impact for me. If i dont have many friends now, what would moving help? Id just be even more alone and isolated. If i sit in an apartment all day like i do at home now its not gonna be any difference.

I just tried to talk to my mother about my issues but since my sister is at her house, the baby woke up and she immediately had to go. I was deep in my emotions and she said "i have to go sorry!". So i just said bye and hung up.

I do try tho. I try with people i trust so often and it never gets anywhere for many reasons.

My ex's family says hes just like his father and i cant help but think im just like my mom. Following the same pattern.

She too was in a serious relationship in her 20s with a man with schizophrenia and he too was put into a psych ward and all this stuff.

Plus other things like my attitude mirrors hers. And other things.

that's not cool. I'm sorry she just cut you off. It's hard to open up and get shot down.