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Thank you for agreeing lol. I actually had one before this horrible 6 months of captivity. My pdoc at the clinic gave me 3 months of Ativan, with like 90 pills per bottle of 1 mg pills I think. Would I love to get my hands on one of those. Oh my.
Thank you, I'm not sure all my belongings are still there. I've been.gone so long. I hope I'll find my stuff again. I have this awful feeling that my stuff has been carefully removed by the bad neighbors and that pos janitor. Sorry. I just love the stuff in my.place and I'm very afraid of robbery, vandalism, etc.

I'm only on the one med right now. Trying to figure out a treatment plan so it's trial and error.

Today was ok. Not spectacular, but it was a nice day. Went to best buy. Got to see the nee samsung note 8. Looking forward to going back to best buy in a couple of weeks to preorder the iphone 8. But still on the fence if i should get it because its like 1200-1400 dollars so yea.

I wish i could throw up my meds but i know i need them....god F this. Just the thought of taking them makes me depressed

Man phones are becoming so damn expensive. The phone I have is worth about 5 hundo and it does everything I can imagine besides my bank app.

I thought you were loving gabapentin?

Its not working how it worked last week. Just makes me tired now. Sometimes not even working. My body is used to it now.

Dont get me wrong, my meds work. But i hate them. Even the thought of them. BecUse i feel controlled and lethargic all the time.

Those are rational fears in my opinion. I would have the same exact fears if I were in your situation.

I've had voices most of today, just two more days until this insurance stuff is supposed to clear up and I should have meds again. I'm calling the pharmacy tomorrow though I want an update. Hope everyone is having a good evening.

30 minutes until med-time... line up by the window.

Yes, and they already tried it once, in I think 2016. The freak from downstairs got into my apartment while I was on the landing of the 2nd floor. There he was, just strolling across my kitchen. He took 2 of my 30watt iSticks and an expensive pair of silver earrings, and then just walked out the door and down the hall. I didn't know about the theft until a little while after. Oh yeah, he also took some extra boxes of coils I had in one of my vape boxes. I'm worried about that happening again.

Lol. Popped my pills already. Awwww-ready.

That is awful, I would be terrified and wouldn't feel safe if that ever happened to me. I'm so sorry that you had to experience this at all.

Does anyone else here experience hearing an almost "white noise" over everything? Or background noise that doesn't have a clear source? I do all the time and it drives me nuts...

i am feeling a little bit better lately
still upset, still mad but better

Yes, I have experienced something like this, for me, it is just noise like the sound of static from a tv. It will vary in intensity and loudness also.

Thank you. They did everything they could to drive me over the edge, including standing at the entrance of the clinic the morning I had an appointment, hailing passers-by, holding a clip board with some kind of crap in it about me. He pointed at me (the janitor) and said " when we get rid of THAT," pointing at me, and then following me into the clinic continuing with this crap. They should go to jail.

Yes i do sometimes but then that white noise turns to voices

Sometimes. I never put the white noise name to it before though duh. I don't have it so much now. In fact I can't remember the last time it happened.

Yes, all the time now. Tinnitus started on benzo withdrawal and never went away. Sometimes it's incredibly loud in my ears. And the refrigerator in my apartment makes scary noises too.

I took my night time meds: Lunesta, Lithium, and Propranolol.

So it's not uncommon then from what it sounds like...speaking of benzos, I did discontinue one after a few years of use, so I wonder if that could cause it or at least make it worse.

Hey guys. Had a good day. Despite the dreaded grocery shopping. Hope you all did too.
I have nothing to really say. I'm just trying to pass the time

Glad you had a good day!