Roll Call 111

I’m sorry you aren’t feeling well. Hopefully your period comes and you feel better.

Im scared tho because as much as i want a future with him, things cant go further unless he can compromise. I dont want to break up with him. Never met a guy that has EVER treated me with respect EVER.

Gonna have to talk to him more

I also already introduced him to my whole family. My sister is supposed to meet him sunday.

@newtus is there anyway he can clear his felony record?

You have no idea how many men my cousin has dragged home for Christmas and still isn’t married so I wouldn’t worry too much about that. What I would worry about is not having fun while you can.

Because I don't know whether not or when I should take myself seriously or not when I don't make sense.

I still think it’s too early to expect him to line up with you. My husband and I didn’t agree on everything but we compromised and things worked out okay.

I have 2. Funny Face - she is 17. Lucy - she is 10. I will try to get a pic of them.

Meds meds meds! Let’s see what a slight jump does!

I get it.

But idk. If we move in within the next six months (roughly) i would have been with him for almost a year by then. 9 months. Then what? Get a year apartment lease with him if im already questioning all this now? So not only am i 9 months in deep with him, im also stuck with him for another year?

I think even when we don't make sense there is still some truth to what we say, even if it's only in how we say it. I wanted to say something more but it disappeared from my head. :/

Oh yeah, oh no. I forgot again!

OK, I wanted to say that taking ourselves seriously isn't always necessary. It's usually better to be lighthearted about as much as we possibly can.

And that felony is prob never going away

Yes, pix please!

You should talk to him and see where you end up.

Me and my last ex couldn't compromise. I tried and tried to end it... That really dragged out because she couldn't let one thing go. She was the most jealous person I've ever met. She slapped me in the face once because a barmaid in one of those German dresses that push up your bewbs at octoberfest, i said, look there's your sister! Because she looked exactly like her and she slapped me in front of a crowd hard. I've still never hit a woman. I expect the same respect back. We fought so much because of her jealousy issues. Dark times...

Good evening.

Had a severe restlessness yesterday that I cried and screamed. Don't know what to say to my doc when I meet him on 19th. Told him Seroquel made me hard to breathe but he said to just try it. Yeah right. I think Zyprexa worked best for my psychosis I just couldn't handle the sedative side effects. I want to ask for some anti-anxiety med next time hopefully he will give me. Still feeling restless now though not as much as yesterday.

What's everyone up to tonight?

Like I'm starting to get self esteem issues I don't think even my family likes me based on who I am and I know my thoughts aren't who I am.

I don't know if it's paranoia or what ever. I feel weird like my internet went off because my internet service provider is spying on me and people are using that information to harm me in the future.

I don't know why I was diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder before schizophrenia.

I don't want to go to work tomorrow because my coworkers seem controlled by the people out to get me as apart of their scheme to alter my reality.

Thats what i have to do yea

Sounds like paranoia to me. I too have feeling that something is watching me, ready to attack me if I if loosen my awareness.

Are you happy now

But at the same time i cant imagine living life without him...

I hope you feel better.
Nothing going on here. Just watching dr pol

I wrote my paranoia as a 4/10 earlier today. It's usually not that high. It's low but usually my paranoia isn't there because the Invega is better than when I was on Abilify.

I'm still confused as to why I didn't need Zyprexa anymore.

I'm already in bed. Granted it's not far to go... I think snacks might be coming - I want the drink.

Oh, and I hope you feel better. I liked Zyprexa but the weight gain was crazy.

Sounds like paranoia I don’t think anyone is out to get you.