Interesting morning

Kinda triggering at one part. Warning.

So I woke up this morning, just kinda like every other morning, but then I was thinking about things that the doctor I talked to at the hospital if I was more paranoid lately, and now that I think of it, I have been. I’ve covered the peephole (not sure of the right word) to my apartment because I’m afraid of someone looking inside, and I double locked my apartment door. But this has been going to for a week or two.

But anyways, this morning, I had a sudden feeling that [trigger]people were trying to kill or assassinate me.[\trigger] And I did realize that it probably wasn’t true, but part of me believed this. And then some dog barked outside and I thought it was trying to tell me about the people trying to get me with some code, as it barked 3 times with an even beat between each bark, so I thought it meant something important. And it was raining this morning, and the rain kept hitting my window and I felt that maybe it was the people coming after me.

And I was really scared the entire morning about people following me, and then I was fine in the afternoon. I am not really sure if it’s been my weird sleeping and eating habits that have impacted me with this. I’m starting a new medication too. But I don’t think it’s a common thing to think that dogs are communicating with you either. What should I do with this information? I don’t see my pdoc until Monday. Thanks.

Can you call your pdoc? I don't think the new medication is working right....

Sadly I can’t contact her. She’s at my university and I don’t have any way to contact her until my appointment on Monday, as it’s the weekend now, and was never given an email I believe. I can double check, but...

She never gave you a phone number for voice mail or anything?

No... I can ask my psychologist what to do.

Now I’m worried a bit about being psychotic so now I am just constantly thinking it. There was some man talking to me in my head about getting weapons to protect myself and he was bald on top with hair around his bald spot and he had brown hair. And there was a bunch of other people there too but he’s the only one that talked. This may just be a dream or thought, I don’t really know.

That’s a good idea.....

Ok. I don’t know when he’ll reply though, but I’ll send him an email.

I'm sorry that you had a difficult morning

I would imagine that the earliest your psychologist would check their email would be Monday, the same day that you see your psychiatrist. So, if it were me, I would sit tight and work through my coping skills until you can tell your psychiatrist on Monday.

I'd also recommend trying to get a better sleeping and eating schedule too as you mentioned that might be impacting how you feel. Anything in your life right now that could be causing stress? You don't have to post it; just something to think about to tell your psychiatrist about.

*Willow*

I did email him anyways, just in case. If he doesn't see it until Monday, at least he knows what's going on I guess, and I'll bring it up at our next session.

I am working on it. I am in the middle of a depressive episode, and it's been really bad the last week or so.

I am stressed about many things: school, work, depression, relationships, etc..

Thank you for your response.