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#521
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, newtus, SlumberKitty
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Metaphysic
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#522
Hello. Swallowed a vyvanse at 9am so I didn't sleep in. Finished my pack of cigarettes. I want to buy more to feed the schiz but I won't. Going to make coffee and study..
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Angelique67, Blue_Bird, Loial, newtus, SlumberKitty
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The Dopamine Flux
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#523
__________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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Angelique67, Blue_Bird
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#524
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I had to accept my hypomania and begin to fix my hypomania by way of benzos and upping my anti psychotics. This sleeplessness didn't occur until I stopped taking my mood stabilizer, but the mood stabilizer gave me urinary retention and I had to get off it and rely solely on AP's and Bezos. Whie trying to fidx all of this I had to sleep every other day. It was one of the most miserable times of my life trying to fix my sleep issue, but I only started to fix it when I had to accept I had hypomania. FOr a short term fix, benzos and Benadryl worked, but anti psychotics and mood stabilizers are the long term fix. |
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#525
I'm okay, thanks Newtus
I guess I'm just frustrated because my therapist always wants me to tell my doctor about these things, they work in the same clinic. My therapist and doctor are wonderful, but I don't want to add meds or anything. My mood has been so screwed up lately that I'm afraid for anything even to be adjusted because who knows what would happen then, things are falling apart in my life,I'm managing to convince my sister that everything is okay mainly because we live in different towns and she works a lot so she doesn't see me day to day. I'm just trying to get by, I can't afford for things to get any worse than they are or I'll end up failing this semester. I'm not sure what to do.... I'm wondering if I should talk to my doctor and see about changing my antidepressant. I have no energy, motivation comes and goes, but in general its not there. I'll have a really good day or two every now and then but then I'm back to this crap. __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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The Dopamine Flux
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#526
Im exhausted. Ive been cleaning since i woke up. Thats only 3-4 hours but yea. I drank more coffee and it made my stomach hurt. I cant drink but one cup a day, physically. But i needed the extra cup, mentally.
Resting now. Seems like when i dont work i usually find something to do. Like clean or care for the pets. Its always something. Im glad i been staying busy for the most part since i been here. What a life! __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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Angelique67, Blue_Bird
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#527
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Maybe I need to meditate? Is it worth being on the moodstabilizer I'm on if I don't feel euphoria anymore? That was my happiness, it made me feel like I had a gift, it would come in rushes and I miss it so much. It made me feel amazing and connected to God and wanting to learn about everything. Maybe this is normal and it just feels really bad to me, I'm used to feeling electrically happy, so intense, physically better than getting high on drugs. It's gone though __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Anonymous40796, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#528
I used to be so inspired that I had so many things I wanted to learn and do, I hated when the day came to an end and liked staying up because I could do even more, I felt like I would run out of time if I slept.
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, newtus
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#529
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Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty
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#530
My heart was 95bpm then I drank coffee and it decreased to 75bpm and I feel sleepy
Obviously someone put benzos in my coffee I'm gonna make another coffee |
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The Dopamine Flux
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#531
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Same Ii hate sleeping now but once im asleep i stay so tired. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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#532
Long day but everything is set.
We may have to drive out tomorrow and formally ID the body for the ME again. They won’t know for sure until the morning. Apparently Friday’s and Saturday’s are not good days to die if you need the ME. Family is watching Final Destination 2. Yuck! I don’t like movies like this. They give me anxiety. Impending doom. __________________ Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety
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#533
I finished my book today. I'm officially done. Now I just need cover art... which I have no clue how to do. Philosophy books typically have the worst cover art, no lying just fact. But im good with Microsoft Paint so I should be able to do something, I just don't know where to start. Maybe storm clouds with a fancy type will do, I can do that if I catch a stormy night... I wish I could just google images an use those freely.
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Angelique67, Blue_Bird, Desoxyn, Loial, ofthevalley
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#534
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#535
Took benadryl then took a shower
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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The Dopamine Flux
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#536
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I want a copy!!! __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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Angelique67, unsure123
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#538
Are you still taking a break from psych meds? That could contribute some.
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#539
No, I've never taken a break from them. I went off Invega a year ago because of developing tardive diskinesia, which went away after I was off it for awhile but I've been on all my other meds still. Mood stabilizer, andtidepressants, seroquel at night for sleep etc. I was crying because I was trying to heat something up in the microwave and was confused and irritated that I couldn't figure it out for a couple minutes like I forgot how to use it, I don't know what's going on
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Anonymous40796, Findingreason, Loial, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#540
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I still get happy at times, usually when I'm talking to/being with my friend. Otherwise I can get pretty down. I could try walking around the halls here I guess. When my emotions are intense it's actually difficult because my sadness is so deep. So I rely on Prozac to dull it all. |
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