Roll Call 144

Oh, I forgot to mention, I put on BBC America and now I'm surrounded by Star Trek. Yesterday one of my favorite eps aired. Of Voyager.

Oh, well that's not bad!

hi there peps. i've been up for a while. I ate and took my meds. now i'm listening to music and hanging out with my mom and eating a doughnuts

I'm doing okay. I'm feeling guilty for not going to the hospital with my Dad for his colonoscopy. I don't know why I'm feeling guilty? He didn't ask me to go. My Mom went with him. I don't know. I guess I just feel like I should have been there for him. Instead I'm here at work, doing basically nothing. Just hanging out on PC. HUGS Kit

I took a walk this morning in the dark. Usually I get paranoid that someone is going to attack me, or kidnap me, or that someone is following me. I only got that once this time. Progress, maybe? Hugs Kit

What's everyone going to do today?

I've been reading because I'm finally able to concentrate

Man my energy is crashing. Seem to have tons of energy in the morning but by 12 or 1pm it's gone

I just got back from my p-doc appointment. He’s changing jobs so today is the last time I’ll see him.

Had him for 4 1/2 years. Got on well so it’s sad.

Not entirely sure who I’m getting next. P-doc said they are getting an locum p-doc and are advertising to fill his position.

Hopefully I’ll end up with someone good. Will find out in a few months...

Hope you end up with someone good too, loial!!! Hang in there!

Pdoc can be like night and day even if they’re good. It’s rough to change...I wish they wouldn’t move around so much.

Oh that's sad. I didn't like when I had to change PDOCs because the PDOC moved, but actually I ended up with a better one. I hope you end up with a good one! HUGS Kit

Sorry to hear that Loial... the pdocs at the place i do my mental health stuff at, they usually find me another pdoc and i don't have to search myself. but i agree with SP it sucks. i went from a pdoc that is willing to try many meds to a pdoc that wants to give me an obsessive amount of mg of a meds that just doesn't work and kept saying "you where stabilized at the hospital with this med how about we just increase the dosage"

woke up at 1130am today. My sleeping schedule is all out of whack, and I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow at 1. Hope im not half asleep

My current pdoc is risk averse and will try nothing new, old pdoc was like sure let’s try a trial off meds....

I've been through so many pdocs it's stupid. my first one at the mental health clinic i go to i straight out told her i feel like blowing my brains out. she just asked me if i have access to guns i told her no and she did nothing about it and continued with what i was taking.

Going to take a walk

That's terrible that she did nothing to help you and just had you continue what you were taking. I think some doctors are not empathetic at all. Of course some are. But I think if they had to live a month in my shoes they might be different. I have a super good PDOC now. I love him. Kit

Not sure why but indian (from india) doctors in my area tend to be ****** pdocs. not sure if it's a cultural difference or just don't care but from my experience they just wasn't sympathetic.

I've been seeing mine for 3 years. She's great. Had been seeing different pdocs over the past 10 years, I only had one who was really bad. I was in a psych hospital at 14 for attempting The doctor I had was a jerk, he sat there, didn't speak, just stared and said "hmm" and wrote stuff down. It wasn't a language problem, he was a white guy in his 60's I think. I don't think he even ever introduced himself, he was really arrogant. It was a nightmare, I had to see him every day and I was in that place for 30 days. After 2 weeks of being on meds I was doing significantly better, so by the 3rd and 4th week I was wondering why I wasn't getting discharged yet, and found out he was trying to transfer me over to a residential psychiatric hospital in Louisville for a year. I have no clue why, he never even explained it, I found out from a social worker. Previous to that I had never been in any psych wards or anything.

Anyway, he ended up discharging me on the very last day. When my mom came to pick me up he didn't look at her or answer any of her questions. He worked there at the place I was, and at the residential psych hospital, and has a private practice. I've looked up reviews on him years later and have seen a couple good reviews but there were several who wrote of similar issues/experiences with him.

That’s terrible bluebird

My pdoc and my T are Indian....pdoc is good for a pdoc but she’s by the numbers.....T is actually incredibly good. I guess I wasn’t looking for sympathy though just direction.

yikes. when i went to the hospital for almost a month the doctor kept trying med after med. Haldol didn't seem to be working and she was like "lets try abilify" i was like "no i tried it before it didn't work". she basically said "if you're not going to try abilify there's nothing else i can do for you." i just like **** it i'll just take the haldol and left after a month trying different meds. i just wanted out. so i went with it

when i was in a hospital i had an indian doctor and she asked me if i been threw any kind of abuse i said yeah i was rape by my moms ex boyfriend as a child and she straight up asked me if penetration was involved. i said yeah but it taken me aback

That’s pretty cold of her.