[Raistlin00]

I'm wondering what coping skills you guys use when you read to much into something? I'm doing well since my last hospitalization, and the meds are working well, but every one in awhile I'll read something online and think it's about me and get scared. I'm trying to learn to live with this mental illness, so I need to learn coping skills among other things. It's been almost 7 years since this first came on me, and it's been a horrible 7 years.


I'm doing a lot better though. I just got a second job so I have less idle time, I have a good plan to use real estate successes to help jump start a charity I intend to create to help veterans suffering from mental health and substance abuse issues, I even reconnected with someone who could help make this dream possible.


I came hours away from killing myself with a can of nitrogen less than a month ago, to where I am at now. I just don't want to let any symptoms of this illness drag me backwards, so any input anyone else has would be much appreciated.


I'm also wondering when you were in the midst of psychosis do you become someone else at least partially? When I'm medicated I really dislike the person I became when in psychotic mode. I wasn't violent, but I had dark thoughts, that were sociopathic and I dislike sociopaths, so looking back on myself now I feel disgusted.

I hope I can do some good in this world to undo the dark thoughts I had even if I never did anything evil or bad.

I get into cold analysis mode and I'd go on political sites and write coldly detached things, and when in the right mind I go back on things, I dislike the person I was then. Has anyone else in the midst of psychosis had dark thoughts?
I feel I have to undo the darkness even if it was in thought and not deed tho. It bothers me.