Roll Call 152

childofchaos831 · Aug 20, 2019 at 08:40 PM

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I mean it is, but the fact we have to do it is scary. We also had to do gun violence training. Cuz of everything in the news u know.

That is a little scary

Desoxyn · Aug 20, 2019 at 10:11 PM

I'm having bad cabin fever. It's a form of claustrophobia.

I need to go somewhere. That's why I was having panic attacks in the smaller place I used to live in. It's the reason as to why I would walk downtown to the gas station to get a bottle of coke every day.

It was the reason I liked to smoke so I could go outside. I'm always inside.

I go for hikes and mountain biking and stuff. I guess I should do more mountain biking (I'll go in the morning).

Tomorrow I'm going to drop off my work stubs to my disability place, maybe go to the coffee connections place and then see about getting a part time job.

newtus · Aug 21, 2019 at 06:39 AM

Morning

I actually slept last night.

childofchaos831 · Aug 21, 2019 at 06:52 AM

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Morning

I actually slept last night.

Yay!

(Added to make it long enough)

newtus · Aug 21, 2019 at 07:20 AM

I feel like I'm gonna throw up. I think its cuz I'm out of my routine still. I'm shoving coffee down my throat. And my pills before I take a shower and leave.

Sometimes psychotic · Aug 21, 2019 at 12:11 PM

My moms surgery was postponed after they started they found a mass, they need to biopsy. Prayers and good vibes appreciated.

Blue_Bird · Aug 21, 2019 at 12:35 PM

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My moms surgery was postponed after they started they found a mass, they need to biopsy. Prayers and good vibes appreciated.

Sorry to hear SP, I hope that she will be okay, I'll keep you all in my prayers

SlumberKitty · Aug 21, 2019 at 12:58 PM

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My moms surgery was postponed after they started they found a mass, they need to biopsy. Prayers and good vibes appreciated.

Oh no! Will be praying. HUGS Kit

SlumberKitty · Aug 21, 2019 at 01:04 PM

Hi everyone, I'm depressed today but that's not that unusual for me. I had hallucinations last night but they were better than the night before so maybe none tonight? That would be good. There was a fire on my street last night. Someone's garage burned down. It was triggering to me because my Dad was a fireman for many years and would come home with his hands burned or his hair singed. Luckily when I drove by the house this morning, the house looks okay, and it's not red tagged or anything, just the garage looks like a total loss. I feel bad for the family that lives there. But I'm glad the fire department was able to save their house. HUGS Kit

Sometimes psychotic · Aug 21, 2019 at 01:45 PM

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Hi everyone, I'm depressed today but that's not that unusual for me. I had hallucinations last night but they were better than the night before so maybe none tonight? That would be good. There was a fire on my street last night. Someone's garage burned down. It was triggering to me because my Dad was a fireman for many years and would come home with his hands burned or his hair singed. Luckily when I drove by the house this morning, the house looks okay, and it's not red tagged or anything, just the garage looks like a total loss. I feel bad for the family that lives there. But I'm glad the fire department was able to save their house. HUGS Kit

Sorry you’re feeling bad, didn’t you jus see the pdoc and T? Were the positive changes due to that?

Sometimes psychotic · Aug 21, 2019 at 01:46 PM

Was thinking of my mom, she loves roses.

SlumberKitty · Aug 21, 2019 at 02:28 PM

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Sorry you’re feeling bad, didn’t you jus see the pdoc and T? Were the positive changes due to that?

Yeah, I just saw T and PDOC on Monday. PDOC kept the meds the same. Which they probably NEED to be adjusted but I didn't WANT them adjusted because I already feel like a zombie and didn't want to add something else in the puzzle that would make it worse. T was okay. I told her about some trauma stuff but she didn't respond. Literally said nothing. Later she said I had been through a lot and that a lot of people had hurt me (I don't think it's a lot, I think it's that the hurt is a lot) and that I'm strong even if I don't feel like it. She asked me if I felt better after telling her. I said no because I didn't then, but I do feel better (somewhat) after telling her now. And something she said about one of my visual hallucinations seems to have helped it not be as intense.

SlumberKitty · Aug 21, 2019 at 02:30 PM

Does anyone with visual hallucinations tend to get the same ones? Like I get a black dog, children, a bishop, etc.

Desoxyn · Aug 21, 2019 at 03:02 PM

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My moms surgery was postponed after they started they found a mass, they need to biopsy. Prayers and good vibes appreciated.

Sorry SP.. I'm sending good energy to both our moms.

My mom isn't taking her beta blockers properly and just went for a 20km hike. She's drinking much more now. She's in denial but she will talk about her surgery at the end of the month. She says she's looking forward to being in the hospital because then she can sleep.

Sometimes psychotic · Aug 21, 2019 at 03:26 PM

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Does anyone with visual hallucinations tend to get the same ones? Like I get a black dog, children, a bishop, etc.

I’ve only had a few visuals, all have been different but my smell hallucinations definitely repeat.

Sometimes psychotic · Aug 21, 2019 at 03:27 PM

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Sorry SP.. I'm sending good energy to both our moms.

My mom isn't taking her beta blockers properly and just went for a 20km hike. She's drinking much more now. She's in denial but she will talk about her surgery at the end of the month. She says she's looking forward to being in the hospital because then she can sleep.

I’ll send good energy to you and your mom....

ofthevalley · Aug 21, 2019 at 03:56 PM

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My moms surgery was postponed after they started they found a mass, they need to biopsy. Prayers and good vibes appreciated.

You got it SP.

I’m so sorry

newtus · Aug 21, 2019 at 04:07 PM

I'm sorry sp.

newtus · Aug 21, 2019 at 04:09 PM

It's weird being in the mental health field and everyone around u is talking about schizophrenics they've encountered. And you're just like thinking, "I'm a schizophrenic you'd encounter."

I dont say anything tho. I just listen to them talk about stories of people they've had to deal with. I think only my supervisor knows about my disorder because I put it on the application since it was required to apply. Not required to disclose but required to tell your story in some way, so I put it in there.

Blue_Bird · Aug 21, 2019 at 04:20 PM

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It's weird being in the mental health field and everyone around u is talking about schizophrenics they've encountered. And you're just like thinking, "I'm a schizophrenic you'd encounter."

I dont say anything tho. I just listen to them talk about stories of people they've had to deal with. I think only my supervisor knows about my disorder because I put it on the application since it was required to apply. Not required to disclose but required to tell your story in some way, so I put it in there.

I feel similar while majoring in human services and psychology in college. Especially in the abnormal psych classes I've been in with the professors talking all about people with schizophrenia and bipolar symptoms, medications, etc and then other students commenting on people they've seen or worked with and some of them being shocked by some of the symptoms and stuff. It's strange. I know there's people who have experienced anxiety and stuff in those classes and can relate to that but then the psychotic type stuff most don't understand personally or haven't had that experience and only know of the schizophrenic people they've seen in movies or walking down the streets yelling and whatnot, and it's weird hearing about all that stuff knowing I have the disorder I do and what I've experienced

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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Aug 21, 2019 at 06:39 AM #483 Morning I actually slept last night. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Aug 21, 2019 at 07:20 AM #485 I feel like I'm gonna throw up. I think its cuz I'm out of my routine still. I'm shoving coffee down my throat. And my pills before I take a shower and leave. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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Sometimes psychotic Legendary Wise Elder Member Since May 2013 Location: Chicago Posts: 26,409 (SuperPoster!) 10 22.8k hugs given	Aug 21, 2019 at 12:11 PM #486 My moms surgery was postponed after they started they found a mass, they need to biopsy. Prayers and good vibes appreciated. __________________ Hugs!
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Sometimes psychotic Legendary Wise Elder Member Since May 2013 Location: Chicago Posts: 26,409 (SuperPoster!) 10 22.8k hugs given	Aug 21, 2019 at 01:46 PM #491 Was thinking of my mom, she loves roses. __________________ Hugs!
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Aug 21, 2019 at 04:07 PM #498 I'm sorry sp. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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