Roll Call 152

I'm not sick. But I'm not sure I can stay safe with this possession and I'm scared I'll be controlled into doing something bad. Maybe I'll check in to keep myself and others safe idk...

Do people hate me?

No one hates you

I don't hate you FR, you're a great friend

I'm so hungry, not sure why. I ate a huuuge breakfast around 7:30 in the morning and am hungry now somehow

I don't hate you FR. I like you a lot. You're a good friend. I am worried about you though. HUGS Kit

Me too. I cooked breakfast for my Dad and me around 6:30 AM because he was getting set to leave for AZ for four days. It's only 9:45 AM and I'm already hungry again. Sigh. I think it's the AP. I never used to have this problem until I started the AP.

I'm worried about my Dad going on the trip for four days. Both of my parents were supposed to go but my Mom is sick with a sore throat and didn't feel up to going. I get worried something bad is going to happen to him like car trouble, car accident, have to go to the hospital, dying etc. It's part of the GAD I think. It's about a seven hour drive from where we live. So I won't hear from him until maybe 3 o'clock that he got there okay.

I'm at the hospital...the voices are saying to kill over and over. Its hell. Gonna ask them to deal with this possession.

My therapist doesnt like it when I accuse him of being in my brain!

Went out for a walk to the library. I was scared to but I went. It felt very strange and awkward. Not sure why. But I brought water and wore sunscreen because of the thorazine, I've read a lot of people have sun sensitivity with it. I also took a shower and did the dishes

I dont hate u FR I am dealing w my own homicidal voices today =[

it felt like I was being watched and whispered about, followed, but I made it there and back , so I guess that's something

I'm ready for summer to be over. It's too hot and bright, and too many people out. I like the dim grayish days of autumn and winter

Hope everyone who's struggling here feels better soon

My friend is coming over Sunday to hang out. I've missed hanging out with him since I've been isolating a lot, we always have a good time and I don't want to be completely alone the whole weekend

I'm home.

I made it through the first week.

Woo-hoo!!! good job @newtus!!!!

We had a pizza party at lunch today at work. Free food.

I got my medicine just now in the mail. So all is good.

They are always bringing things to the break room to snack on where I'm at. Apparently my work has a deal with local grocers. We take expired food from them and yea, I guess they put it in the break room. It's always like lots of cake and pies.

I've been doing okay. Just sleeping a lot. Like 19-20 hours a day.

Can't tell if it's the valium or the zyprexa, or both.

I'm gonna be real busy from here on out.

I'll be working in person on the weekend, with my old pss, on this book. And I'm thinking of taking up a class. Maybe a martial arts class, idk tho, that was just an idea. Because we did self defense training at work and fiance said I should learn better self defense, since the stuff work teaches us is that we cant hurt the other person because they are protected under the disability act.

So either a class like that or some idk, maybe a writing group or whatever. Idk yet.

I'm watching SNL videos on YouTube, I haven't laughed as hard as I have been the past 15 minutes in a very long time

We had cake at work this afternoon. Once a month we have birthday cake for all the people who had birthdays that month. Pretty cool. There were free gateraides and free sodas too. Apparently the NY office has alcohol in the afternoons. I guess we are not cool like them! Eventually we are going to have a full kitchen put in. That would be awesome. Right now we have the capability to grill and to microwave.