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I will tell you something else...being off meds was stressful like every sound I was like real or voice? It was really hard to tell sometimes off meds...my relapse started with knocking sounds which you hear everywhere...I was much more angry too maybe because of bp irritation?
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I've lost even more weight. down to 184 right now. |
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Now I never get agitated. If any, very very little. Except two years ago at the end of my injection I went off at my sister and my mom and apparently had really bad pure obsessional OCD thoughts (The worst I've ever had). So it could be autism but the antipsychotic seems to have cured that. They use risperidone for agitation in autism. Other than that, I'm completely normal. I don't like that my therapist tries to coerce me into thinking I don't have schizophrenia because she's fascinated by aspergers. I don't have enough symptoms to be considered having that. It's PDD-NOS. I researched this and it says you can't be diagnosed with schizophrenia if you have autism - Only if you have PDD-NOS and have had hallucinations and such which I've had so it makes sense. It feels like I'm the only one that is making sense and my therapist is jumping to conclusions. They're just labels but specific labels that can cause harm if used incorrectly and thrown around carelessly because they determine the type of medication and treatment. Medication can be good but I know that antipsychotics can cause damage and it has to be a very very careful process. It's like I'm the only one that's being careful with this. I was never careful on the high dose Abilify because it made me extremely reckless and have zero insight to risk. Now I'm careful. |
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Yeah... I'm at a loss. I don't know what to do. I don't know why everything seems to get worse. I'm also making horrible decisions with a few things but hey it is what it is. I'm just waiting on my life crashing down and ****ing with me again like it was the last time I checked myself into the psych hospital.
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not the slightest clue and well was denied being able to have it from the doctor at the ****ing hospital because of my weight and history of prediabetes... said nothing else on it other than I had to get on a registry for it and had to be dx with sz or sza... which I am and had to tell her that I was and all she looked up with my intake dx which was psychosis nos and ptsd and before THAT hospital stay I was dx there with Undifferentiated sz so IDFK... at my mental health clinic it's sza bipolar type.
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How are you Angelique?
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So I think you tried cbd gummies once but your clinic pushed you away from them right? I don’t know of anything else to turn to in addition to the normal APs....sometimes docs have luck mixing two different ones but its a last ditch effort that only sometimes works. __________________ Hugs! |
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Like I told the pdoc at the hospital... I rather be fat and happy than thin and sick. |
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It seemed pretty easy. Thought I would have had them all right but some emotions seemed similar. |
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Ok I guess! I'm expecting a bunch of packages so I'll have to go to the social worker here in case they've piled them up in her office. Dreading that. She was pissed at me since last week when I noticed my almost empty Vapewild bag was no longer on my dresser. I'm not supposed to have any vape supplies in my room. I have a bag of juices in my middle drawer, I should give it to her. There isn't room for them in the smokers cart.
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Emotional reaction like "Yeah man.. Know.. I know.." for suspiciousness or.. forget which emotion that was or a woman like "Really now? XP (;" for confidence or "Yeah (;" for flirtation.. Idk just people hit on me and I don't like it but it's a harmless thing. I never really look at people in the eyes when talking because the fact that other people can't jinxes it and I think about it so much. But when I'm not paying attention to that jinx, I'm looking people right in the eyes until I realize that jinx again. Then I look at the mouth because I have bad comprehension when people are talking to me while thinking that and continue because I'm so interested in having conversations. I like reading lips while looking at the eyes from below. I told my therapist that when people think I have autism, they act a certain way towards me and try to manipulate me to act weird so it jinxes the whole thing! It's better to just forget the label and be social weird self. #Half aspie |
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The recipe is Indian, not the mushrooms. Turmeric, ginger, I think garlic, onions, spices and I forget what else. I wish I could make them here. There's a kitchenette just off the main phys therapy room. Maybe they'd let me cook in there. Some day lol.
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I'm so glad I quit smoking cigs
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Ok so guys.. This is phenibut induced bipolar.
I'll have to write self affirmations and stuff about myself while feeling great before I run out of the supplement... Because I was so down today from not taking it.. It's horrible.. I can see how bipolar is so horrible. There's nothing else that I've ever taken that affects my mood this much. If only there was a medication like this. It's manageable. It's not like instability but just a relief from depression. There is a medication called baclofen (Chlorinated phenibut) but it builds tolerance. They're working on GABA type medications for schizophrenia negative symptoms. |
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