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Haven’t ever seen Indian mushrooms ....kinda intrigued although I usually am quite happy with garlic mushrooms...

Well it does cause the most weight gain even more than zyprexa but it may be worth getting diabetes to be free of the voices at least diabetes is treatable. Idk that is definitely a serious decision to have to make. It seems like no matter what we choose there are horrible consequences and impossible decisions to make.

So I think you tried cbd gummies once but your clinic pushed you away from them right? I don’t know of anything else to turn to in addition to the normal APs....sometimes docs have luck mixing two different ones but its a last ditch effort that only sometimes works.

eh we've tried mixing them too. I was on haldol and zyprexa... saprhis and zyprexa... haldol and abilify...

Like I told the pdoc at the hospital... I rather be fat and happy than thin and sick.

"Your score was 26 out of 36"

It seemed pretty easy. Thought I would have had them all right but some emotions seemed similar.

I think I got like 32 or 34 it was higher than average so I’m definitely not autistic....but it doesn’t sound like you are either....

Ok I guess! I'm expecting a bunch of packages so I'll have to go to the social worker here in case they've piled them up in her office. Dreading that. She was pissed at me since last week when I noticed my almost empty Vapewild bag was no longer on my dresser. I'm not supposed to have any vape supplies in my room. I have a bag of juices in my middle drawer, I should give it to her. There isn't room for them in the smokers cart.

How are you feeling, ok?

When I look at the different eyes, I get a high emotional reaction and then I look at the words.. Although I was never good at multiple choice..

Emotional reaction like "Yeah man.. Know.. I know.." for suspiciousness or.. forget which emotion that was or a woman like "Really now? XP (;" for confidence or "Yeah (;" for flirtation..

Idk just people hit on me and I don't like it but it's a harmless thing.

I never really look at people in the eyes when talking because the fact that other people can't jinxes it and I think about it so much. But when I'm not paying attention to that jinx, I'm looking people right in the eyes until I realize that jinx again. Then I look at the mouth because I have bad comprehension when people are talking to me while thinking that and continue because I'm so interested in having conversations. I like reading lips while looking at the eyes from below.

I told my therapist that when people think I have autism, they act a certain way towards me and try to manipulate me to act weird so it jinxes the whole thing! It's better to just forget the label and be social weird self.

#Half aspie

The recipe is Indian, not the mushrooms. Turmeric, ginger, I think garlic, onions, spices and I forget what else. I wish I could make them here. There's a kitchenette just off the main phys therapy room. Maybe they'd let me cook in there. Some day lol.

I'm so glad I quit smoking cigs

Ok so guys.. This is phenibut induced bipolar.

I'll have to write self affirmations and stuff about myself while feeling great before I run out of the supplement... Because I was so down today from not taking it.. It's horrible..

I can see how bipolar is so horrible. There's nothing else that I've ever taken that affects my mood this much. If only there was a medication like this. It's manageable. It's not like instability but just a relief from depression.

There is a medication called baclofen (Chlorinated phenibut) but it builds tolerance.

They're working on GABA type medications for schizophrenia negative symptoms.

Autism can present in so many different ways , it is also harder to diagnose a female with autism than a male, given that the condition seems to affect the different genders so differently

Yeah I read up about female autism and it's harder to tell but many symptoms.

I have female autism.. Omg what if I'm a female.. Nah nvm..

To all the rich assholes, who hate me the most, yeah I hate u too...

Nah but some entrepreneurs like me..

Forgot to take my beta blocker last night and seroquel.

But my heart is still beating nicely

Was up half the night so went ahead and baked some white chocolate cookie bars

You're so great

I dont feel good. I feel nauseous. And I have a headache. But I always feel a bit nauseous after taking my meds in the morning. The headache could be from yesterday when I strained my neck being on my phone all evening.

It's always fun getting packages

I'm doing pretty well

Hey, I'm better now. Takes about an hour to get over my medication nausea in the morning. My head feels fine too.

I just went to get my oil changed at the dealership. They closed at 1pm on Saturdays! Ugh!

Glad you feel better newtus, I get nausea from my night meds and it takes about the same time for it to go away. I know it's frustrating

How do I look at small detail rather than the whole picture all the time?

Does that mean I have to focus?

Oh god..

Hope you're well bb! And everyone else too!

Just signed fiance up for college. I forgot I didnt even do that.

But anyway. My mouth is so so so dry. Idk why. Idk if it's the increase in my zoloft. It has to be, because that's the only med change i had. Well that, and taking the gabapentin once a day rather than as needed.

I think im gonna work on my book today or tomorrow. I havent worked on it in 3 months. And I'll put some stuff on my Christmas list.

Prozac made me drool 10 times a day

But I wasn't on a stimulant at the time. Stim makes the mouth dry.

Edit: So stress will cuz increase in norepin epherin

My friend never told me he was coming this weekend and my stupid phone hid his text from me this morning. I could have had a completely better day. It's too late now. I guess I'll go get a Coke Zero. Missed the vapers Rally in DC today. Asked him if he'd like to go and he said it wasn't practical.

Watching Martha Stewart middle eastern cookie episode...lots of interesting spices.