[HALLIEBETH87]

I wrote this is In bipolar forum but wanted to share here. I saw my pdoc yesterday. He told me I’m “mostly bipolar” but have schizoaffective bipolar type. Same as my psyd said. Everyone is on the same page now.

Way less confusion

[Job 30 26]

One take away to learn from this is that everyone's schizophrenia, schizoaffective, bipolar, or depression, everyone's is different. They try to squeeze them in neat categories but life is way too complicated to be simply diagnosed into one category. When it comes to any kind o life, we always have to make qualifiers such as "Generally", "for the most part", "by and large."

I apparently have schizoaffective, but I have no cognitive decline, and my doctors have noticed that and it makes them squint a bit.

[Desoxyn]

My psychiatrist is pretty good. She says "Schizophrenia" but knew I had atypical autism (PDD-NOS) which I saw written down a few years ago but I didn't think it meant anything.

I asked her if I could lower the antipsychotic and she let me try - I realize that I need the antipsychotic even though it can lower IQ - But it lowers it less than psychosis.

I'm somehow able to rationalize psychotic delusions and paranoia very well (Maybe because of the PDD-NOS - Giving me some cognitive abilities to realize and make decisions) without antipsychotics but it's still the stress that is painful where I can't seem to focus well.

Labels don't really mean much. They're just to aid medication treatment but people with schizophrenia don't have to take medications "for the rest of their life" and shouldn't be authorized to take antipsychotic injections by law for the rest of their life either (If you become more mature and trustworthy). There should be an amount of trust between the psychiatrist and patient even though psychosis can get in the way of that.

Nothing is for certain. People shouldn't hold onto beliefs for certain. Things change too - Labels change. People need to be more spiritual, awake, aware of their thoughts and feelings and others' thoughts and feelings.

Let's make this world happy and for it to keep spinning. Suffering is inevitable but we're here to live the best life in this very odd reality that we seem to lose touch with often.