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Job 30 26 · Jun 20, 2020 at 09:26 AM

I'm trying to cheer myself up. I feel very agitated. I thought of everything I have, that its the weekend, I had coffee.

I woke up in a bad mood. I almost exploded at the bank teller when she told me she won't process my check because it was incomplete.

I just turned on music, bought an amazon speaker, and sent a message to a really cute woman on OkCupid. I feel a little bit better...

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 20, 2020 at 09:38 AM

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Originally Posted by Job 30 26

I'm trying to cheer myself up. I feel very agitated. I thought of everything I have, that its the weekend, I had coffee.

I woke up in a bad mood. I almost exploded at the bank teller when she told me she won't process my check because it was incomplete.

I just turned on music, bought an amazon speaker, and sent a message to a really cute woman on OkCupid. I feel a little bit better...

It sounds like you’re primarily experiencing negative emotions....could you be in a depression?

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 20, 2020 at 09:39 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I must be slightly manic/hypomanic. I can feel myself talking fast but people don’t seem to be...idk acting different. Like how they act when I move real quick like this. I’ve been on and off this VR headset.

I SHOULD sleep. Maybe I will after I take my meds.

I’m not sure if it’s hypo or just excitement they can look alike......either way you need to sleep

Job 30 26 · Jun 20, 2020 at 09:43 AM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

It sounds like you’re primarily experiencing negative emotions....could you be in a depression?

I didn't sleep well. Plus I was hungry. Plus I never feel positive emotions. It all builds.

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 20, 2020 at 09:52 AM

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Originally Posted by Job 30 26

I didn't sleep well. Plus I was hungry. Plus I never feel positive emotions. It all builds.

Got it, but have you ever treated it like depression? I just mean anhedonia can be part of depression and sz so maybe treating it like depression would work?

Job 30 26 · Jun 20, 2020 at 10:07 AM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Got it, but have you ever treated it like depression? I just mean anhedonia can be part of depression and sz so maybe treating it like depression would work?

I've tried ssri's, snri's, Wellbutrin, tinkered with all sorts of other drugs, and it gets worse and worse. I've been anhedonic for 7 years not. Alcohol is the only escape, and it's very mild, but it's an escape. Once in awhile I have dreams that seem emotional.

It's not just that I'm use to hypomania, if you saw my room, you'd see I'm anhedonic because I lack motivation severely. emotion--> motivation

I have brain damage from all the drugs. I've tried.

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 20, 2020 at 10:23 AM

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Originally Posted by Job 30 26

I've tried ssri's, snri's, Wellbutrin, tinkered with all sorts of other drugs, and it gets worse and worse. I've been anhedonic for 7 years not. Alcohol is the only escape, and it's very mild, but it's an escape. Once in awhile I have dreams that seem emotional.

It's not just that I'm use to hypomania, if you saw my room, you'd see I'm anhedonic because I lack motivation severely. emotion--> motivation

I have brain damage from all the drugs. I've tried.

What about d-serine or glycine, sarcosine or even ashwaganda?

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 20, 2020 at 10:31 AM

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Originally Posted by Job 30 26

I've tried ssri's, snri's, Wellbutrin, tinkered with all sorts of other drugs, and it gets worse and worse. I've been anhedonic for 7 years not. Alcohol is the only escape, and it's very mild, but it's an escape. Once in awhile I have dreams that seem emotional.

It's not just that I'm use to hypomania, if you saw my room, you'd see I'm anhedonic because I lack motivation severely. emotion--> motivation

I have brain damage from all the drugs. I've tried.

Sarcosine + NAC (n-acetylcysteine) Success Stories for Anhedonia : Anhedonia_Recovery

Blue_Bird · Jun 20, 2020 at 10:56 AM

Walked to family dollar to get some stuff. It's hot as hell, I felt like I was dying/gonna pass out on the walk back home. The gallon of milk I had in my backpack leaked the entire way home and I didn't realize it till I got back. Anyway, I got some cookie mix to make chocolate chip cookies

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 20, 2020 at 10:57 AM

Bluebird are you doing ok this morning?

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 20, 2020 at 10:59 AM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Walked to family dollar to get some stuff. It's hot as hell, I felt like I was dying/gonna pass out on the walk back home. The gallon of milk I had in my backpack leaked the entire way home and I didn't realize it till I got back. Anyway, I got some cookie mix to make chocolate chip cookies

Wow I posted the same time as you....

Yay cookies

sorry about th milk....

As far as the heat, I always wear a baseball cap, it helps keep your head cooler.

Blue_Bird · Jun 20, 2020 at 11:04 AM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Bluebird are you doing ok this morning?

Hey thanks for asking SP. I'm doing good, feeling a bit better than I was last night. Was gonna go to the grocery store but didn't feel I could handle that after staying in my house for several weeks, it would be too overwhelming so I went to family dollar instead. At least that's some progress. Maybe next time I'll go to the grocery store

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 20, 2020 at 11:05 AM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Hey thanks for asking SP. I'm doing good, feeling a bit better than I was last night. Was gonna go to the grocery store but didn't feel I could handle that after staying in my house for several weeks, it would be too overwhelming so I went to family dollar instead. At least that's some progress. Maybe next time I'll go to the grocery store

Yep, baby steps....

bpcyclist · Jun 20, 2020 at 12:10 PM

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Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

I just tried the "three things" thing and had success.

Haha. I read a book while listening to music and dancing to the music.

I feel a lot better now.

How do you read with the book bouncing around everywhere?

bpcyclist · Jun 20, 2020 at 12:11 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

Read for almost an hour. Gonna read more then go to sleep.

See I just need to be able to start things.

It's so hot. I have all the windows and doors open to let in cool air. It's only 70 degrees F - But I'm a Canadian so..

You would not last long in Tennessee...

bpcyclist · Jun 20, 2020 at 12:12 PM

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Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

Yeah the only problem with that is that I need to meet some of these bigger goals such as getting a paper done for grad school, etc.

I don't know what small goal I'd set. Write a page? I don't know.

Or, write for fifteen mintuee, maybe, then, see how you feel. I am trying to do stuff like this for me.

bpcyclist · Jun 20, 2020 at 12:13 PM

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Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

It's just weird because I've never had too much trouble with motivation for school before and now it's like pulling teeth. I literally am not doing any work.

Have you had motivation issues in the past? I sure have...

bpcyclist · Jun 20, 2020 at 12:14 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Just got out the ER.

They said possible kidney infection but maybe just pulled a muscle. No appendix issues tho. No kidney stones.

Let me say first this started WAY before I got the dang Virtual Reality headset. But the matrix done fckd me up.

They didn't check your urine? It is pretty easy to diagnose a UTI. Takes abotu ten mintues or so. Did they give you antibiotics?

bpcyclist · Jun 20, 2020 at 12:16 PM

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Originally Posted by Job 30 26

I'm trying to cheer myself up. I feel very agitated. I thought of everything I have, that its the weekend, I had coffee.

I woke up in a bad mood. I almost exploded at the bank teller when she told me she won't process my check because it was incomplete.

I just turned on music, bought an amazon speaker, and sent a message to a really cute woman on OkCupid. I feel a little bit better...

The day is young, Job. Maybe it will turn around for you.

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 20, 2020 at 12:18 PM

Yay my masks from Etsy arrived and they are great

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