Roll Call 170

Well, finally got maybe 5 hours of pretty crappy sleep, so, that is nice. I am feeling pretty fair so far. Was so very sad yesterday. Just awful. So much badass depression over teh decades. It still scares me. I can honestly say, other than something happening to my kids, the only thing that frightens me today is my own brain. And it scares the sh** out of me. What it is capable of. So bad. I do think I am going to have to change my antidepressants and possibly stope my lithium. I do not think it is helping anymore.

Was able to write for 90 minutes and it was quite high-quality. Hooray!! FIrst time in 4 weeks. So, maybe a little progres? Maybe? It would be so nice. I am still on schedule. If I can finish my edits in the next few weeks, my editor can get it back to me before the end of September and I can then get it on shelves by Christmas, which has been the goal. So, maybe I can still make it happen, if I keep feelign a bit better.

Writing this book is extremely triggeriing of my PTSD, so, it is super tricky trying to balance working on it and not getting too triggered and then freaking out totally. Quite tricky for me, but the book is so important to me and to my recovery that the show must go on. So, onward!!!!!!!!

Hope everyone has a great day!!! Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!