Roll Call 170

Turns out the doc did write the wrong dosage, nurse is gonna call in a new one

It’s a good thing you’re on top of it....

Did the first half of my exam....in a productive mood today.....

Yikes...

My mom is moving to San Antonio area. 7 hours south of me...

Wtf man. If something happens to my dad, I’m shyt out of luck for anything I’ll ever need. She’ll be closer to my sister. But further from me.

I think I’m gonna cry

How certain is the move? Did they buy yet?

Not yet but she is already looking at houses. Which when she takes action like that she’s gotta be serious. I mean she told me she was a few months ago but I didn’t take it seriously. I brushed it off. It’s like it’s really hitting now.

Personally I wouldn’t worry until it happens the housing market is crazy right now....it’s going to be hard to get something quality so she may be deterred.....

She has the money. It’s not about the money for her. It’s just about when.

I’m already crying. Today is her birthday. Like she just told me that just now. But like idk.

She’s been talking about moving there for a few years. I should’ve realized that that’s what she really wants.

She’s looking at a really expensive area in San Antonio.

Anyway, that’s all I know because I seemed to have blacked out mentally for the rest of the convo from shock. She actually has a timeline.

Anyway.
I need to make a plan to secure my life now more than ever.

What I meant was not about money but stuff is closing quickly so there’s less quality on the market imo...

This is what I’m going to say....most people move away from family at some point....it’s not about the family so much as other opportunities. In your mom’s case she probably wants to see her grand-babies...and you’re doing so well an found a person of your own. There’s a transitional phase where you move from your primary family to a family of your own, the one you choose. You’re at that point now and it can be rough but it comes with freedom as well. If you don’t have ties you can move anywhere....or if you wanted you could move to San Antonio too. Maybe there’s somewhere where you don’t have to worry about as much racism? Think of what you’ll gain not lose.....

Yea but I can’t just leave my dad here. I still feel so much like a child when it comes to my parents. But I do have abandonment issues.

Usually you get over that attending college away....a lot of people get homesick though.....I’m not sure if you’ve ever gone away but you get used to it.

Keep an eyey on that thing, Des. It is not draining, is it? Be damn sure the next injection is someplace far away from that site. If you get really concerned about it, shoot me a pic on a PM. I was a dermaatologist for many moons and am happy to have a quick look for you if you wish.

What is wrong with her?

Why, newtus?

Well, finally got maybe 5 hours of pretty crappy sleep, so, that is nice. I am feeling pretty fair so far. Was so very sad yesterday. Just awful. So much badass depression over teh decades. It still scares me. I can honestly say, other than something happening to my kids, the only thing that frightens me today is my own brain. And it scares the sh** out of me. What it is capable of. So bad. I do think I am going to have to change my antidepressants and possibly stope my lithium. I do not think it is helping anymore.

Was able to write for 90 minutes and it was quite high-quality. Hooray!! FIrst time in 4 weeks. So, maybe a little progres? Maybe? It would be so nice. I am still on schedule. If I can finish my edits in the next few weeks, my editor can get it back to me before the end of September and I can then get it on shelves by Christmas, which has been the goal. So, maybe I can still make it happen, if I keep feelign a bit better.

Writing this book is extremely triggeriing of my PTSD, so, it is super tricky trying to balance working on it and not getting too triggered and then freaking out totally. Quite tricky for me, but the book is so important to me and to my recovery that the show must go on. So, onward!!!!!!!!

Hope everyone has a great day!!! Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!

I took a nap

I think a honeydew blt would be good like bacon, honeydew and toast....

Glad you got some sleep...so dangerous to go without...

Also glad your book is on track.....let us know when it’s released

Thanks, Sometimes.

Grilled Chicken and Peach Saltimbocca Skewers Recipe | Serious Eats

This looks so good! If only I had a personal chef, lol. Not much of a griller myself, usually leave that up to the bf and we just do the basics.

But ... reason I’m posting is I know a few of you guys cook...how would you feel about a sz recipe thread? Stuff that we want to make or favorites or whatever. I mean assuming it doesn’t get moved....let me know if you think it sounds ok? Last thing I want is some orphan thread....

That's a great idea SP!

What a fun idea--super fun!!!!!!!

Ok cool I’ll make one 😀