Roll Call 174

Desoxyn · Aug 29, 2020 at 03:34 PM

I might ask my doctor for diazepam again because it works better for mental anxiety.

****. My mom's cat is scratching at my sisters door. I can't take any more of this. I was up and going non-stop from 9am-2pm NO BREAK. Just non-stop moving, shower, hygiene, work, cleaning, eating, taking meds, walking, taking out the garbage, washing dishes..

And how can I relax? A beer? NOPE can't do that anymore because I have HPPD from psychedelics.

I'm sick of the mental anxiety. I don't have any physical anxiety but it hurts everywhere. I could barely cut the potatoes because there was so many of them and I had to stand up - Zombified on the Invega injection. It's like trying to do anything on risperidone.. You know what that's like? Right? Or something like that.. But I did it.. And now I have to panic as a consequence or something maybe idk ****.

newtus · Aug 29, 2020 at 04:34 PM

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My sis is ordering a doggie dna

test....should be fun

I want one of those

Blue_Bird · Aug 29, 2020 at 04:39 PM

Went and spent the day with my friend. We watched Jurassic Park and played videogames

Blue_Bird · Aug 29, 2020 at 04:46 PM

I think the metformin gave me low blood sugar when I was there, because I didn't think to bring lunch along and all I had eaten was a small bowl of oatmeal in the morning. I suddenly started feeling hot and shaky and nauseous so I ran across the street from his apartment to the store to get something to eat then once I ate I felt better. I was worried because for a second I thought I was gonna puke in the store or at his place.

Blue_Bird · Aug 29, 2020 at 04:54 PM

He has a really friendly cat named Poe, I hadn't seen him in a long time, he definitely grew. Was nice to see both of them

Angelique67 · Aug 29, 2020 at 04:59 PM

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Well, my sister just talked to me. She said what we could do was a trial run, where I take her for a couple weeks and if it really doesn't work out then I could just give her back. I said I'd do that because I really want a cat again and I'm willing to try hard to take care of her

That's an excellent idea.

Angelique67 · Aug 29, 2020 at 05:02 PM

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Had a panic attack. Idk why - Could be cuz of the invega idk.. took 2.5mg alprazolam.. Gonna take a zopiclone maybe and sleep. Work in the morning.

I'm not taking the Vyvanse in the morning - I'm gonna take it at 10pm. I'll be a complete zombie in the morning and might not even get out of bed but I think this radical change might help.

Wish me luck...

Somehow, taking a stimulant at bedtime seems counterintuitive. And you lied to your pdoc, 2.5 Xanax is more than .5.

Angelique67 · Aug 29, 2020 at 05:04 PM

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Possible trigger:

really suicidal tonight

Are you feeling any better today?

Erti · Aug 29, 2020 at 05:10 PM

Job 30 26 · Aug 29, 2020 at 05:12 PM

@bpcyclist all the sleep meds you listed the other day: remeron, restoril, seroquel those are all of the ones i tried, plus i think you mentioned a mood stabilizer too... I'm on one. Geodon is suppose to make me sleepy but it does't when I take it at night, only when I take it in the morning which I never do or else I sleep at work (literally). My pdoc wants to put me on Latuda and I will one I get health insurance when the market opens up. Ambien puts me to sleep but I wake up at 4am and can't fall back to sleep.

falcon09 · Aug 29, 2020 at 05:14 PM

im feeling better mentally today, worse physically

Angelique67 · Aug 29, 2020 at 05:15 PM

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just woke up. I feel sick

Did you take anything last night? I hope you're ok.

Blue_Bird · Aug 29, 2020 at 05:23 PM

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Originally Posted by Job 30 26

@bpcyclist all the sleep meds you listed the other day: remeron, restoril, seroquel those are all of the ones i tried, plus i think you mentioned a mood stabilizer too... I'm on one. Geodon is suppose to make me sleepy but it does't when I take it at night, only when I take it in the morning which I never do or else I sleep at work (literally). My pdoc wants to put me on Latuda and I will one I get health insurance when the market opens up. Ambien puts me to sleep but I wake up at 4am and can't fall back to sleep.

Have you been on Thorazine? I'm on it for voices but it helps with my sleep too

Blue_Bird · Aug 29, 2020 at 05:30 PM

Dinner was chips ahoy cookies

falcon09 · Aug 29, 2020 at 05:37 PM

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Did you take anything last night? I hope you're ok.

I didn't take anything that I don't usually take.

falcon09 · Aug 29, 2020 at 07:00 PM

so sleepy

Sometimes psychotic · Aug 29, 2020 at 08:00 PM

Blue_Bird · Aug 29, 2020 at 08:24 PM

Have the window open tonight since it's windy out. Had a thunderstorm earlier.

Sometimes psychotic · Aug 29, 2020 at 09:19 PM

Today turned out great...Starbucks latte for breakfast, Chinese for lunch, chili’s for dinner including cheesecake....

Went to the sculpture park and the river walk and a farm where I got some cherry butter. Managed to convince the bf hiding out wasn’t cool.

WastingAsparagus · Aug 29, 2020 at 09:43 PM

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WA in a way it sounds like you benefit from other people running your life ie teachers etc.....most people aren’t going to do that for you. I’m not sure what’s up with your indecision but maybe therapy can help with that? For me when I started having adhd I was the same way...I would try something and then the next minute try something else....what worked for me were omega 3 supplements, mostly DHA.....I believe you mentioned trying them? They certainly don’t work for everyone though.

Can you make a list of possibilities then do some coin toss magic? It’s not what you think though...the coin toss will tell you your gut reaction....if you get heads and are kinda like hmmm not happy then you know not to do that thing. If you’re happy with th outcome do it.

I've tried EPA fish oil for years, I don't know if it helped or not. I tried DHA for a little while. Maybe I should give it another go.

And I may try the coin toss thing. I have tried to work on this before in therapy, but it hasn't helped much so far, as evidenced by my indecision still. Oh well.

Thanks.

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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,899 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	Aug 29, 2020 at 04:39 PM #203 Went and spent the day with my friend. We watched Jurassic Park and played videogames __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,899 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	Aug 29, 2020 at 04:54 PM #205 He has a really friendly cat named Poe, I hadn't seen him in a long time, he definitely grew. Was nice to see both of them __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,899 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	Aug 29, 2020 at 05:30 PM #214 Dinner was chips ahoy cookies __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,899 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	Aug 29, 2020 at 08:24 PM #218 Have the window open tonight since it's windy out. Had a thunderstorm earlier. __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Sometimes psychotic Legendary Wise Elder Member Since May 2013 Location: Chicago Posts: 26,412 (SuperPoster!) 11 22.8k hugs given	Aug 29, 2020 at 09:19 PM #219 Today turned out great...Starbucks latte for breakfast, Chinese for lunch, chili’s for dinner including cheesecake.... Went to the sculpture park and the river walk and a farm where I got some cherry butter. Managed to convince the bf hiding out wasn’t cool. __________________ Hugs!
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