Roll Call 176

I'm sitting in the lobby. I don't know when they started letting us leave our rooms. I've been sleeping a lot. Still no smoking though.

I always have the worst mood swings on Sundays. I don't know why. If it's coffee or something? Or maybe my meds? I have no idea. I also don't really trust myself in making treatment decisions. Kind of a tough place to be.

Nice pic SP! I took a couple pics of fall foliage the other day

Followed a tutorial by Jay Lee. Not satisfied with this one. The tree leaves could be better. But that’s part of learning.

This is the one that messed up yesterday. Still not happy with it, but at least the guy doesn’t have alien’s antennae anymore 😛

Frostycinnos are so good...highly recommend!

From Wendy’s?

Yep like half iced coffee half frosty!

I’ll get this next time I order Wendy’s!

More than being inspired, I definitely felt a sense of accountability. So I cleaned the kitchen and the cats box (litter), and swept the kitchen. Dishes, all that, put stuff away. I’m sweating but I’m good! Thanks for being an accountability partner for me, bb! <3

His a s s is PHAT

Was wondering where you were....glad you’re ok....

I was alseep most the day tho

Lmao that was supposed to be his jacket hahaha 🤣 🤣

Hahahahaha

I’m slightly tired but the exercise of cleaning makes me feel good

I found an interesting reddit post;

"Colors get enhanced with increased conscious awareness and reduced autopilot awareness.

Our body benefits most by becoming autopilot. It's what learning is about. So perhaps learning is reduced.

This could occur due to GABA effects. Reduced learning may increase the novelty of life more and allow you to focus better. Because everything will be more interesting because it makes less obvious sense right away.

Try to realize that consciousness and learning can be opposites in a way. Learning aims to reduce consciousness and increase habit and auto pilot behaviors. Consciousness is comes in when you experience novel things."



... Hear me out..

Is there a way that you all have found to be less impulsive? I was thinking about firing my psychiatrist and now I feel like I shouldn't. It might shake things up too much.

Love love love this!!!

Stopping Abilify and psychedelic spirituality made me less impulsive and to make better decisions. But also cuz I'm 25 next year and the BRAIN is almost finished developing!.. Unless I have to wait until 30..

I'm gonna try 200mg of NAC (N-Acetylcysteine). It's an amino acid prodrug used for tylenol overdose in the ~20g range.

Allergic reaction can happen. But people with anhedonia and schizophrenia take it in combination with sarcosine - But sarcosine made my heart beat weird so I stopped.

Also, apparently it's supposed to be good with my acne antibiotic? (Minocycline?).. Cool..

"Preclinical evidence shows that the minocycline and N-acetylcysteine (NAC) combination synergistically improved cognition. Meta-analyses of randomized controlled trials (RCTs) with minocycline and NAC have shown some efficacy signal for positive, cognitive, and negative symptoms of schizophrenia. Hence, the combination may be more effective than either medication alone. The objective of this article is to highlight the potential role of the minocycline-NAC combination for the treatment of schizophrenia. The antipsychotic-minocycline-NAC combination is promising and has the potential to concurrently treat positive, cognitive, and primary negative symptoms. RCTs are warranted with the minocycline-NAC combination to address the unmet clinical need in schizophrenia."

Tomorrow I'm gonna call the doctor about the 10mg Dexedrine IR. If he says no, then I hope that this supplement will work for cognition.

Cuz I'm tired as hell right now - Maybe I'm getting the cold? Who knows..

"NAC had a weird effect on me.

After a month in (1200mg 1xday) I became more empathic and sensible. Too sensible. Im naturally stoic, distant and cold, but I felt emotionally warm. I would smile so easily. Once I cried because I was angry and sad that there were so much hate and judgment in the world. I mean, WTF? I would feel things in my chest and get sad at people's ignorance, I wanted to help them so much I was also able to empathically understand things I dont know, maybe Im dead inside and feeling those thing are actually normal, but it was a weird month that one (I stoped because I ran out of NAC and never bothered to get more)"

Every1 must be watching the news i suppose