Roll Call 176

Hm. I'm on Abilify, I just don't see how that could cause impulsivity. I feel like I do all the right things, like I take my meds and stuff. Maybe I'll ask my pdoc about ways to reduce it. I'm kind of into non-pharmaceutical ways though.

I also remember a period of time where I could just be on Effexor and Abilify and my life was fine.

Ability is known to cause an increase in gambling 🎰....I can see it causing impulsivity......

Yikes! I've been doing stuff similar to that lately.

Well I spent time learning about NAC and one article talking about it's metabolite in some mice that can cause "pulmonary arterial hypertension", then about the heart - And my moms mitral valve prolapse and what happens with it - What doctors hear when they check the heart with a stethoscope...

Learned about "heart sounds", then I laid down, folded my ear and checked the sound of my heart - "lub dub, lub dub, lub dub" - I became less freaked out with this compulsion knowing that my heart was checked before and he said "Nothing worth commenting about".

So yeah... I don't think that I enjoy reality very much. But it's interesting =]

I was on a stupid dose - 400mg every THREE weeks + TEN milligrams a day. New psychiatrist took me a few days to convince me to get switch to Invega.

If the class action lawsuit is still open, I'll have to sue them for all of the money I spent on - ".. I need next dopamine.." *Dopamine hit*.. *Opens tab of chemicals* *Dopamine hit* - "What does this one do?" *Dopamine hit* - "I think I might order" *Dopamine hit*, "Imma deposit money" - *Dopamine hit*, "I have to wait now.. Woo!" *Dopamine hit*, *Sleeps*, "It has arrived in the mail" *Dopamine hit*, *Walks to the post office* - *Dopamine hit*, *Waits in line* - *Dopamine hit*, *Hands on the mail* - *Dopamine hit*, "I can't wait to open this" - *Dopamine hit*.... You get the point.. It goes on and on..

It's 90% better now. I wouldn't worry too much about it unless your impulsivity started right after taking Abilify. Normally people can be impulsive varying from time to time in their lives.

Edit: It is but a sad tale once upon a time in the isolated prairies where racing shadows leave the hunter frozen still in madness, blizzards of snow, darkness, and haunted to just needing to be sagged in the ward. I felt the bad energy unclench my hands and then most of my impulsivity solidified and fell backwards into the abyss, leaving me feeling empty from the time I have wasted in regret.

The bad trip water swirling in that house in the same very room that needs to be sagged as well. Don't listen to I - But instead, run far away from that place in time and space.

I'm on a stupid dose, too. Haha. 30 mg a day.

Yikes indeed. Is it helping with psychosis? For me it helped with delusions but not paranoia. I was very paranoid on Abilify - Especially before the injection wore off.

No it doesn't help with psychosis for ****. That's why I'm on Zyprexa.

Holy fack.. Depersonalization..

Might as well sleep to get rid of thissss

I have an appointment in 15 minutes downstairs but I just want to stay in bed under the covers. It’s cold. I took a shower and ate waffles for breakfast. Thankfully this will only be like a 5 minute appointment

They're giving everybody turkey baskets next month for thanksgiving so I can cook a turkey and everything

Wednesday is the Halloween movie day in the community room. They're going to make burgers and hotdogs and have popcorn too. We'll be watching Fright Night

Be super careful with the minocin. It can make us manic lr psychotic super fast.

So beautiful! Your pictures are amazing SP! I adore them!

IDK why but lately (last six months or so) my hair has been more oily. My Mom has been commenting on it. It is making me upset really. I only wash my hair every other day because all of my stylists have said it is not good to wash it every day and because it is hard enough to talk myself into washing my hair. So I pretty much will wash it on an every other day schedule. Once in a while every third day. So I got a clarifying shampoo and tried it this morning to see if it makes my hair less oily. We'll see. I was reading online and it said not to over do it with the clarifying shampoo because it can lead to your hair overreacting and getting more oily.


I'm frustrated with my Mom for continually pointing out that my hair is oily. I feel like I am doing the best I can. I am doing so well in so many other areas. And I was thinking the only thing that has changed in six months is the supplements that I take when I feel like taking them, fish oil and Omega something. I don't know if that could be causing my hair to be more oily but my mom is getting on my nerves about my hair. Plus it has been summer here and hot so of course my hair is going to sweat. Or my head. Ugh. I don't know what else to do.

Yay, I have an appointment for tomorrow with a new pdoc. Will see how it goes!

lucky me doesn't need to do blood every week.. Just by every 2 weeks now.

Sorry SlumberKitty

The depersonalization last night turned into derealization. I think it was cuz I forgot to take the olanzepine.

I didn't panic because I knew that my meds would kick in and it would stop so I went to sleep.

DP/DR is horrible. My friend wants me to do shrooms/truffles but I said no because of DP/DR.

I ordered some art supplies. Stuff for painting, calligraphy, and crocheting. They’ll be here in 2-4 days. Also got a folded table to paint on and an adjustable table lamp. I’m excited

Washing frequently does make it oilier. I only wash mine once a week now, and I use Wen, or t-gel. I used to wash much less frequently so once a week is great for me. You have to use Wen according to instructions though. Take a large amount to massage into the scalp and hair, depending how long it is (I use a handful, wash the scalp and hair, rinse rinse rinse, then take a very small amount to use as a leave-in on my ends). It is amazing. I need to get my hair cut though because it's too thin.

Sorry your Mom has been dwelling on it.

Thanks Angelique!

You're welcome, I had very oily hair when I was young and I was washing it daily. Only damaged my hair further (I used to pull it out).

I'm worried about Esther because she hasn't eaten much the past couple of days. She's barely eaten any crunchies. I hope she is getting enough liquid. I told my Dad that if she is not eating still tomorrow we need to take her to the vet. She is usually ravenous. Plus she threw up yesterday. I'm hoping her stomach is just a little unsettled but I don't know. I didn't even give her her insulin this morning because I didn't think she had eaten enough.