Roll Call 181

I feel better. Just weird like... I still think my meds are poison.

But I don’t feel on the edge. I don’t feel super hyped up and out of control.

That's good that you don't feel all hyped up. Hopefully you can sleep tonight.

Sleep is good.

I realized it is actually the Klonopin that is screwing me up. It's to be taken as needed anyway. I am going to try reducing it with my doctor's help.

Yeah hopefully I sleep well. I don’t really feel tired yet. I’ll put my phone down in a bit and try to sleep.

I hope you’re able to get your depression under control.

Thank you!

I was chatting with my RL friends and I told them I appreciate them putting up with me and they said that they care and they’re concerned. I mean I still don’t want to bother them too much but it’s nice to hear.

Zopiclone is a brilliant sleep med. I took a full one every night for a month and then took half for 5 nights and still was able to sleep. I only fall asleep when it kicks in though. I'm blessed with being able to have such a good sleep. Will take a full one tonight cuz kinda overwhelmed about getting up early for work. It feels like heroin when I wake up - Hard to get out of bed.

Goodnight @ Beautiful minds...

4th or 5th night in a row I got mostly good number of hours of sleep.

But not feeling well emotionally.

My mom isn’t doing well. She got the vaccine and has been feeling not well. But it could be anything. She seems to fare on the side of being sick a lot due to different things. Like my sister. Maybe which is why they are hardcore health nuts. Idk.

My dad and I don’t get sick often so I suppose we don’t take as good care of ourselves.

I’m just scared for my mom. And my anxiety is so incredibly high. It has been this past week, since I learned that my sister is pretty much in a health cult and has been telling my mom she’s gonna die if she gets the vaccine. Some anti-vaccine people cult. And like my moms been calling me scared and doing her will papers.

I’m so beyond emotionally not ok right now. I’m having psychosis and anxiety and deep sadness. I have been for a good awhile now.

It had let up a bit when I started my meds back this month but past 1-2 weeks with everything with my sister, it’s like it’s back full blown or really bad at least.

My mom got her first dose of the vaccine a couple weeks ago and she had a bit of a fever and tiredness for a few days and that’s it. Your mom will be fine, Newtus! I’m glad she got the vaccine and ignored your sister.

I hope you feel better today

Heard more about the exam format for the exam I have on the 11th. Three short answer questions, and two coding questions. I don’t feel prepared at all. I’ve had so much trouble focussing and the textbook is awful.

Guess I’ll try again today to study. Hopefully I’ll be focused and you’ll barely see me here today.

I didn't feel too good after my jab. It lasted for like 2 days and then I felt fine.

Man, I could use a drink. Or five. But alas, my streak of not doing these things.

Congrats! Keep it up.

Keep going!

What is keeping me going is thinking all the money I'm saving... Hahahaha.

Holy shyt I made my first money streaming games and stuff on twitch.

1 cent but that’s wild yo

Ima keep doing it!

Bunny day has started in AC.....

Currently doing some proofreading work.

I am doing a lot better than yesterday.

I'm feeling better today too. Just watching TV and doing some studying. Trying to focus.

My sketching set arrived. I decided to get a tinted charcoal pencils instead of the boring black and white graphite pencils



Going to play with these metallic watercolors too, will look pretty on a black watercolor paper

Been spending time just watching TV. Got one season left of Nurse Jackie. What a wild ride, damn. I'm going to miss the characters when I'm done watching the show. Jackie is an awful person, but also sad because she's struggling with addiction. I love Cooper and Zoey.

Good good. Really, that's great.

Wow, those look awesome. I sketched some stuff the other day. Maybe I should get into it more, haha.

I have such a nice car and I hate driving