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junkDNA · Jul 17, 2021 at 06:33 PM

My therapist is gonna start meeting with me in person next month!! I haven't seen him in person in a year and a half. he said well be outside

Desoxyn · Jul 17, 2021 at 09:39 PM

I'm gonna try and go completely without drugs starting tonight. I don't think I can do the things I want with such a cloudy mind and trying to numb of pain. I have decided...

Edit: The only reason is that I've become awakened, more spiritual and know much more than I did when I was younger. I understand what life is in some way through many years of trying to understand existence - That where I am now is the present moment.

Sometimes psychotic · Jul 17, 2021 at 09:50 PM

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I'm gonna try and go completely without drugs starting tonight. I don't think I can do the things I want with such a cloudy mind and trying to numb of pain. I have decided...

Edit: The only reason is that I've become awakened, more spiritual and know much more than I did when I was younger. I understand what life is in some way through many years of trying to understand existence - That where I am now is the present moment.

You might benefit from the book whole brain living....it tells you about the different parts of you brain and what they do....the key is balance between them. So left brain

is really logical and driven where as the lower left Brain is filled with fear and anxiety. Right brain is spiritual and lower right is emotional as far as joy. I feel like you’re very upper right brain but looking for the joy from the lower right brain. Once you distinguish them you can use other parts of your brain to help the parts that are struggling. Like how do we achieve joy etc.

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12AM · Jul 17, 2021 at 10:28 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

You might benefit from the book whole brain living....it tells you about the different parts of you brain and what they do....the key is balance between them. So left brain

is really logical and driven where as the lower left Brain is filled with fear and anxiety. Right brain is spiritual and lower right is emotional as far as joy. I feel like you’re very upper right brain but looking for the joy from the lower right brain. Once you distinguish them you can use other parts of your brain to help the parts that are struggling. Like how do we achieve joy etc.

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Analyze me too

Which part of brain do you think I use the most?

Sometimes psychotic · Jul 17, 2021 at 10:37 PM

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Analyze me too

Which part of brain do you think I use the most?

Lol...you’ve got a ton of right brain with the art but I feel like you’ve got balance with the left Brain too......

newtus · Jul 17, 2021 at 10:39 PM

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Lol...you’ve got a ton of right brain with the art but I feel like you’ve got balance with the left Brain too......

Analyzeee meeee

WastingAsparagus · Jul 17, 2021 at 10:54 PM

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Eh I suppose I'll look into the cryptos again..

First I'll finish reading "Be Here Now" by Ram Dass and then read a cryptography book or do a course. Then I'll start familiarizing myself with money, the world, economy.. I already look at conspiracies - From what I can tell, it's baaad. Pollution, corruption, AI technology, brainwashing, virus, etc..

It's just.. too much man

I'm afraid of psychosis. I feel a little different. I'll lay off of the plant for a while.

Edit: I get the Invega Trinza injection on the 30th. To be fair, I like paliperidone cuz it has zero side effects.

Just a thought... But do you ever read fiction? Perhaps it would help you get your mind off of things that are serious...

I just say that because recently I have started reading more fiction.

Blue_Bird · Jul 17, 2021 at 11:09 PM

Whew. Read for 3 hours tonight

12AM · Jul 17, 2021 at 11:19 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Lol...you’ve got a ton of right brain with the art but I feel like you’ve got balance with the left Brain too......

Sounds accurate to me

newtus · Jul 17, 2021 at 11:27 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Whew. Read for 3 hours tonight

How do ya feel?

Blue_Bird · Jul 17, 2021 at 11:56 PM

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How do ya feel?

Pretty good

I love reading, it makes me feel a lot better especially when I'm anxious or depressed.

Desoxyn · Jul 18, 2021 at 01:52 AM

I feel so happy at night

But must sleep cuz work in the morning

I talked to trippers again. Very pleasant end to my night.

Desoxyn · Jul 18, 2021 at 01:55 AM

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Just a thought... But do you ever read fiction? Perhaps it would help you get your mind off of things that are serious...

I just say that because recently I have started reading more fiction.

I'll slowly keep it in my mind to drift towards that way.. As a kid, I wasn't serious like most, then became incredibly serious, then incredibly silly and now mostly serious again..

Sometimes psychotic · Jul 18, 2021 at 03:46 AM

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Analyzeee meeee

Lots of right brain creativity so upper right brain but you’re plagued by lower left Brain anxiety and fear. You need to use the rest of your brain to comfort that left Brain anxiety, something called a brain huddle.

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newtus · Jul 18, 2021 at 04:50 AM

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Lots of right brain creativity so upper right brain but you’re plagued by lower left Brain anxiety and fear. You need to use the rest of your brain to comfort that left Brain anxiety, something called a brain huddle.

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Ok now I’m really curious about this book

cogladaid · Jul 18, 2021 at 09:29 AM

I got my second COVID shot on Thursday night and I started feeling unwell Friday afternoon. Took a half day off sick from work and spent rest of Friday and all of Saturday on the couch with a fever. Finally this morning it seems to be gone. Hopefully.

Because of lithium I can’t take Advil so I’m stuck with stupid Tylenol which barely works for me. Oh well. Feel better now.

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Blue_Bird · Jul 18, 2021 at 10:24 AM

Now that I have a mixer I can try making dalgona coffee (whipped coffee)

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Blue_Bird · Jul 18, 2021 at 10:52 AM

I posted a new profile picture on Facebook. I just took it a couple minutes ago. I feel really self conscious because I haven’t had my hair cut in like a year and I am not wearing makeup, haven’t had my eyebrows done in quite some time, etc am basically just chilling in lounge clothes but I wanted a more recent photo since the last one was from winter.

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newtus · Jul 18, 2021 at 02:10 PM

That little pinch of time between when you’re holding your meds in your hand and when your about to take them. You feel an existential crisis: “do I really need this?” “Are these gonna make me feel physically ill today?” “Will I feel good today mentally? I hope” etc.

WastingAsparagus · Jul 18, 2021 at 02:19 PM

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That little pinch of time between when you’re holding your meds in your hand and when your about to take them. You feel an existential crisis: “do I really need this?” “Are these gonna make me feel physically ill today?” “Will I feel good today mentally? I hope” etc.

Yup, I know the feeling.

It's a daily existential crisis for me. Sometimes multiple times per day.

I also obsess about drinking too much coffee. Honestly I don't really think I'm ever going to listen to my doctor about going down on coffee though. It brightens my mood too much to give up.

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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,745 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Jul 18, 2021 at 10:24 AM #397 Now that I have a mixer I can try making dalgona coffee (whipped coffee) Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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