Roll Call 187

Angelique67 · Sep 10, 2021 at 04:57 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I can't even think straight because of lack of sleep. I feel weird. Why is one night of not sleeping much messing with me so much

Maybe it's from stopping the perphenazine 3 days ago? I just have to get through the withdrawal effects

Unfortunately I'm sure you're right. There's always the piper to pay whenever you come off these meds.

Blue_Bird · Sep 10, 2021 at 05:05 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Thanks bluebird, did you ever try the omeprazole for your gerd?

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No, I don’t have the money for it at the moment, but I see my doctor next Thursday, so he can prescribe something and my insurance will cover whatever generic form there is

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Angelique67 · Sep 10, 2021 at 05:08 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I’m trying to think of what to do to calm down

I always had things I could do to calm down but I can’t do them anymore cuz I’m pregnant.

I would either Vape which helped a lot with my anxiety. Can’t do that. I can’t take my anxiety med either it’s very bad for baby. I can’t really have a PSL because caffiene actually should be avoided.

Maybe I just had a lot of bad habits idk. But they worked I know that.

I’m literally raw-dogging my anxiety through my pregnancy and I’ve never known anything to be harder than dealing with mental health issues on top of pregnancy. I keep telling everyone this is really the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life and this will be my last child most likely cuz I really don’t want to do this again.

I'm sure enough that vaping is harmless that I'm advising a pregnant lady to go ahead and vape! I'm in lockdown with the

without my vape for 2 weeks.

Angelique67 · Sep 10, 2021 at 05:15 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I'm feeling very strange. I want so badly to get off the perphenazine and thorazine, but every time I do this happens

It's a process. Could you do a long slow decrease instead of cold turkey?

Angelique67 · Sep 10, 2021 at 05:16 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Some random older guy on Facebook sent me a creepy message. I deleted it.

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I locked my account somehow and I still don't really know how to use it. I don't really miss it.

Labhradha22 · Sep 10, 2021 at 05:19 PM

Does anyone over here think that they caused the Coronavirus Pandemic.
I have posts on FB going back almost a decade predicting something bad would happen on 2/2/ 2020 (Imbolc).
That's the day of the first known death outside of China I think.
I never thought I caused Coronavirus but I do think I
accidentally caused Hurricane Laura and I purposefully caused Hurricane Ida while I was in New Orleans by a ritual I did on August 18th in order that the next storm wouldn't hit Lake Charles again.,. I filmed part of the ritual..
And i warned people to get out, and paid someone's bus ticket out, before the storm even formed

unsure123 · Sep 10, 2021 at 05:20 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Idk if I mentioned this but my sister has been confused and delusional for the last couple weeks. I went out to visit her to check on her and she ended up the ER the last day I was there. She’s apparently feeling less confused but is still not communicating with anyone but my dad. She had high calcium from the cancer and they needed to flush it out with IVs. She’s still not eating though which is exactly what happened to my mom. They’re checking for fluid in her stomach area...like ascites.

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Angelique67 · Sep 10, 2021 at 05:29 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Idk if I mentioned this but my sister has been confused and delusional for the last couple weeks. I went out to visit her to check on her and she ended up the ER the last day I was there. She’s apparently feeling less confused but is still not communicating with anyone but my dad. She had high calcium from the cancer and they needed to flush it out with IVs. She’s still not eating though which is exactly what happened to my mom. They’re checking for fluid in her stomach area...like ascites.

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I'm sorry she's getting more ill. Hugs and

Angelique67 · Sep 10, 2021 at 05:40 PM

My life is in ruins since the

is now 6 inches away from me. In order to get my curtain closed I'm turning the AC down. Hopefully she will come to know that my curtain staying closed means the AC will stay on. I'm in the window bed since July when I moved away from her. She's back! I screamed at her God knows how long today. I have a stupid rotten cough since a few nights ago.

unsure123 · Sep 10, 2021 at 05:45 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

My life is in ruins since the

is now 6 inches away from me. In order to get my curtain closed I'm turning the AC down. Hopefully she will come to know that my curtain staying closed means the AC will stay on. I'm in the window bed since July when I moved away from her. She's back! I screamed at her God knows how long today. I have a stupid rotten cough since a few nights ago.

Sorry to hear that woman has been put in your room. Do you know how long for? Or is it permanent?

Blue_Bird · Sep 10, 2021 at 06:21 PM

I'm scared of covid, and all the new variants out there, I am fully vaccinated/and wear a mask when I do have to go places. I know you can still get it though.

WastingAsparagus · Sep 10, 2021 at 07:44 PM

I got a full time job. I don't know when I start yet, but that's progress.

I also got prescribed Provigil. It seems to help with my low motivation.

newtus · Sep 10, 2021 at 07:53 PM

I’ve had a hellish day.

My mother in law texted me:

Her: “how did today go looking for a new obgyn?”

Me: “Not good. None of the doctors I called took my health plan under Medicaid. I called Medicaid and they were just reading from a script. They didn’t help at all. I have no idea what to do. I’m so scared. Idk who to call or what to do. I need help. I got so stressed out today my head was hurting and my nose started bleeding profusely and I started throwing up blood but I think it was from my nose.”

Ugh. Yea so right now I can’t keep food down again. Maybe from stress this time.

I remember looking in the mirror today while my nose was bleeding a lot into my mouth and I was just crying my heart out. Feeling so alone and scared in my pregnancy. I cried out for God and asked him if I was dying.

Labhradha22 · Sep 10, 2021 at 08:24 PM

A lot of people I've known all my life are dying from unknown causes.
They are not eating and wasting away.
My stepmom
She's peeing thick blood clots.
I also have no appetite since early July.
I have to force myself to eat.

My hero is Simone Weil
and a like Kurt Godel.
I just finished reading "The Subversive Simone Weil By Robert Zaretsky

Both Weil and Gödel starved themselves to death.
Weil had been attracted to the Cathar ritual of the "Endura".
Her beliefs on "De-Creationism" forced me to adjust my entire Theological Belief system from E=D×3+M+K to R=D×4+M+K.

Gödel starved himself to death because he believed someone was poisoning his food

I know Coronavirus is a Pandemic.
But I think something else is going on.

I'm gonna force myself to eat a few chips

newtus · Sep 10, 2021 at 08:47 PM

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Originally Posted by Labhradha22

A lot of people I've known all my life are dying from unknown causes.
They are not eating and wasting away.
My stepmom
She's peeing thick blood clots.
I also have no appetite since early July.
I have to force myself to eat.

My hero is Simone Weil
and a like Kurt Godel.
I just finished reading "The Subversive Simone Weil By Robert Zaretsky

Both Weil and Gödel starved themselves to death.
Weil had been attracted to the Cathar ritual of the "Endura".
Her beliefs on "De-Creationism" forced me to adjust my entire Theological Belief system from E=D×3+M+K to R=D×4+M+K.

Gödel starved himself to death because he believed someone was poisoning his food

I know Coronavirus is a Pandemic.
But I think something else is going on.

I'm gonna force myself to eat a few chips

Can I ask why you took my avatar?

newtus · Sep 10, 2021 at 08:48 PM

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Originally Posted by Labhradha22

A lot of people I've known all my life are dying from unknown causes.
They are not eating and wasting away.
My stepmom
She's peeing thick blood clots.
I also have no appetite since early July.
I have to force myself to eat.

My hero is Simone Weil
and a like Kurt Godel.
I just finished reading "The Subversive Simone Weil By Robert Zaretsky

Both Weil and Gödel starved themselves to death.
Weil had been attracted to the Cathar ritual of the "Endura".
Her beliefs on "De-Creationism" forced me to adjust my entire Theological Belief system from E=D×3+M+K to R=D×4+M+K.

Gödel starved himself to death because he believed someone was poisoning his food

I know Coronavirus is a Pandemic.
But I think something else is going on.

I'm gonna force myself to eat a few chips

Sorry nm my mistake. I thought I saw my avatar on your profile pic but perhaps it was a glitch. I apologize.

Blue_Bird · Sep 10, 2021 at 08:52 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Sorry nm my mistake. I thought I saw my avatar on your profile pic but perhaps it was a glitch. I apologize.

Tapatalk does that sometimes

Blue_Bird · Sep 10, 2021 at 09:05 PM

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Originally Posted by Labhradha22

A lot of people I've known all my life are dying from unknown causes.
They are not eating and wasting away.
My stepmom
She's peeing thick blood clots.
I also have no appetite since early July.
I have to force myself to eat.

My hero is Simone Weil
and a like Kurt Godel.
I just finished reading "The Subversive Simone Weil By Robert Zaretsky

Both Weil and Gödel starved themselves to death.
Weil had been attracted to the Cathar ritual of the "Endura".
Her beliefs on "De-Creationism" forced me to adjust my entire Theological Belief system from E=D×3+M+K to R=D×4+M+K.

Gödel starved himself to death because he believed someone was poisoning his food

I know Coronavirus is a Pandemic.
But I think something else is going on.

I'm gonna force myself to eat a few chips

Welcome to the forum! I'm sorry you're going through this

WastingAsparagus · Sep 10, 2021 at 09:34 PM

This is difficult. I'm having thoughts of not wanting to do the job I got. I don't know what to do. Honestly, it's like this every time I sign up for something new. I question why I do it in the first place. I think I should just focus on my thesis. I think my therapist influenced me towards taking the job today. That's not necessarily a bad thing. I guess I just think I don't really need the full time job. And going from 0 work to 40 hours or more a week seems difficult.

Desoxyn · Sep 10, 2021 at 09:49 PM

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Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

I got a full time job. I don't know when I start yet, but that's progress.

I also got prescribed Provigil. It seems to help with my low motivation.

Ah yes, modafinil. I bought a 10g baggy a few years ago but on reddit they said that the batch was just a mixture of the ingredients to modafinil. It wasn't cooked!

So I never really tried a wakefulness promoting agent.

Let me know how long it lasts.. My psychiatrist said that it only lasts 4 hours or so - I thought it lasted 14 hours.

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