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WastingAsparagus · Sep 19, 2021 at 07:45 PM

Going to try withdrawing from the Klonopin again. I am sick and tired of feeling tired all the time.

Desoxyn · Sep 19, 2021 at 08:14 PM

Beyond stressed out. I think I'm so stressed that I might die.

Desoxyn · Sep 19, 2021 at 08:25 PM

I surrender to the chaos

I surrender..

WastingAsparagus · Sep 20, 2021 at 08:59 AM

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Going to try withdrawing from the Klonopin again. I am sick and tired of feeling tired all the time.

Nvm. Not gonna do it without pdoc's support.

Desoxyn · Sep 20, 2021 at 11:10 AM

I went on vacation to Mexico last night - In my dreams. This time my mom was stressed.

The neighbour that harassed me and my mom started parking his vehicles in front of our house so we have to park them in front of his house. Now he called the bylaw and said that my moms vehicle is unregistered.

She's so stressed.

People make the pandemic worse for each other.

Also I almost got pulled into a cult by accident. First they tell truth and then slowly make you insane with the lizard people stuff etc.. They just slowly sneak it in.

I'm afraid of what will happen if I ever have to stop the Vyvanse.. I'm so incredibly tired and comatose without it - No one understands. My mom told me to go outside and take a picture of the license plate of her car and I was tired beyond hell. I'm drinking coffee now after the Vyvanse kicked in.

I see my doctor today + I will go vote for the election..

SlumberKitty · Sep 20, 2021 at 12:52 PM

I have a "check in" appointment today (30 minutes) with IOP T since my SH thoughts have been a lot and because since she asked to see my wounds on Friday I didn't think she was the most empathetic. I understand why they can't be but it just sucks. I did get some good empathy from a couple of my friends. But my thoughts are all crazy and telling me bad things. IDK thoughts or voices. Kind of looking forward to the appointment and kind of not. I don't want to end up feeling worse.

Sometimes psychotic · Sep 20, 2021 at 01:29 PM

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I have a "check in" appointment today (30 minutes) with IOP T since my SH thoughts have been a lot and because since she asked to see my wounds on Friday I didn't think she was the most empathetic. I understand why they can't be but it just sucks. I did get some good empathy from a couple of my friends. But my thoughts are all crazy and telling me bad things. IDK thoughts or voices. Kind of looking forward to the appointment and kind of not. I don't want to end up feeling worse.

That seems really bizarre since your T isn’t a medical doctor.....

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SlumberKitty · Sep 20, 2021 at 01:35 PM

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That seems really bizarre since your T isn’t a medical doctor.....

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Yeah, it really messed with my head which is why we have to have a check in today. I emailed her over the weekend and she said let's discuss this on Monday I can do a check in with you from 12:30 to 1. Then we will have our regular scheduled therapy session on Friday. I guess at least I don't have to wait til Friday to get my head back on straight.

SlumberKitty · Sep 20, 2021 at 01:36 PM

Voices have been telling me to throw myself into traffic. It's been chaotic in my head. I am really careful when I go next to the street that I don't go anywhere near the asphalt. I stay on the dirt. IDK why these are coming up. It's distressing. IDK why the therapist wasn't more concerned about this!

Sometimes psychotic · Sep 20, 2021 at 01:38 PM

So it’s been a rough day...bf has something going on with his eye it’s all red and there is a lump in it...doc gave him antibiotic eye drops but it’s making things worse. Then his crown broke off with a piece of tooth inside when he ate a prune. Sister called and was in tears from interactions with my dad...he thinks her mind is going again but she seems fine and that driving her nuts.

Technically I’m fine but having all this pain around me is difficult.

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newtus · Sep 20, 2021 at 01:41 PM

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That seems really bizarre since your T isn’t a medical doctor.....

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I’ve had many therapists ask to see my wounds since I was 13 years old. So over the last 2 decades of different therapists.

Sometimes psychotic · Sep 20, 2021 at 01:41 PM

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Voices have been telling me to throw myself into traffic. It's been chaotic in my head. I am really careful when I go next to the street that I don't go anywhere near the asphalt. I stay on the dirt. IDK why these are coming up. It's distressing. IDK why the therapist wasn't more concerned about this!

I’ve had stuff like that...but in more of a intrusive thought that repeats and not a voice. I usually tell myself it’s protection and that works.....ie your mind is seeing danger and letting you know not to do it even though it’s saying to....it’s just working out the danger. Anyway if you become alarmed it seems to make it worse so generally I just thank my brain for being so vigilant and letting me know about the danger which I’ll avoid.

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Sometimes psychotic · Sep 20, 2021 at 01:42 PM

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I’ve had many therapists ask to see my wounds since I was 13 years old. So over the last 2 decades of different therapists.

I still say it’s bizarre unless there is some secret wound training they get which I doubt.

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newtus · Sep 20, 2021 at 01:46 PM

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So it’s been a rough day...bf has something going on with his eye it’s all red and there is a lump in it...doc gave him antibiotic eye drops but it’s making things worse. Then his crown broke off with a piece of tooth inside when he ate a prune. Sister called and was in tears from interactions with my dad...he thinks her mind is going again but she seems fine and that driving her nuts.

Technically I’m fine but having all this pain around me is difficult.

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I won’t lie and not trying to minimize your tough day but besides your sister I do wish that was my tough day. I literally feel like I’m almost dying with the physical symptoms of this pregnancy and my mental health is just awful.

Like I won’t lie, I’ve been sui off and on for weeks, almost broke up with fiancé, sleeping all day to forget the nausea and pain or just throwing up alll day. Back and forth between wanting this baby because I just hope I don’t die from pregnancy or birth. Struggling with insurance and and not having a doctor. And dealing with getting this complex to let us out early and the legal issues involved. Amongst other smaller issues that seem pretty much just moot at this point because I have so many large very large life changing issues going on.

newtus · Sep 20, 2021 at 01:46 PM

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I still say it’s bizarre unless there is some secret wound training they get which I doubt.

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It’s very bizarre yes. I agree.

SlumberKitty · Sep 20, 2021 at 01:49 PM

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I still say it’s bizarre unless there is some secret wound training they get which I doubt.

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Well I certainly don't like it. She wasn't very empathetic. Just "Put some Neosporin on that and some gauze and tape." No **** Sherlock. Although I didn't bother with the gauze.

They aren't medical doctors. I'm sure that if it was deeper than it appeared they wouldn't know. She kept making a big deal about it being more than 2 inches. WTF cares. Some T's care more about how many. Some care about other stupid stuff. It's a total mind F.

Sorry for the language folks. I'm really upset from all this the past few days.

newtus · Sep 20, 2021 at 01:49 PM

Stomach is on 100 today and I just wanna curl up and cry

SlumberKitty · Sep 20, 2021 at 01:49 PM

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Stomach is on 100 today and I just wanna curl up and cry

HUGS newtus

SlumberKitty · Sep 20, 2021 at 01:50 PM

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So it’s been a rough day...bf has something going on with his eye it’s all red and there is a lump in it...doc gave him antibiotic eye drops but it’s making things worse. Then his crown broke off with a piece of tooth inside when he ate a prune. Sister called and was in tears from interactions with my dad...he thinks her mind is going again but she seems fine and that driving her nuts.

Technically I’m fine but having all this pain around me is difficult.

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So sorry sweetheart. Can you do something soothing and kind for yourself?

newtus · Sep 20, 2021 at 01:51 PM

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Well I certainly don't like it. She wasn't very empathetic. Just "Put some Neosporin on that and some gauze and tape." No **** Sherlock. Although I didn't bother with the gauze.

They aren't medical doctors. I'm sure that if it was deeper than it appeared they wouldn't know. She kept making a big deal about it being more than 2 inches. WTF cares. Some T's care more about how many. Some care about other stupid stuff. It's a total mind F.

Sorry for the language folks. I'm really upset from all this the past few days.

I’m sorry

and yea I believe it to be bizarre too. I just wanted to emphasize how common i think it might be for therapists to want to see. It’s weird to me. Doesn’t make it any less bizarre.

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WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	Sep 19, 2021 at 07:45 PM #741 Going to try withdrawing from the Klonopin again. I am sick and tired of feeling tired all the time. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”

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