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#601
Reality is complicated for me I just want contentedness.. But all philosophies.. Plague me.. I get excited about things.. stimulants.. but I want peace too. I want it all.. No drugs!! And then.. I go on my way after the mush trip, have what I need - But emptiness it's all empty in a way - All people deal with it..
So you strive and continue to live.. Just keep going through time and space.. Ground yourself, be a robot and process paper work I've changed I like how it was.. I was manic Now it's all confusion and then the virus or w/e that was released from the lab I don't have a good memory anymore.. Parts of my brain has made up for others.. Just panic.. Dissociative panic attacks few times a week in 2020 I'm grateful that they are gone but I want it better than this I have no concentration + FOMO for crypto coins.. Better get a good understanding of things - But the ADHD too.. Constant under stimulation. I write things down, I try to meditate... A break would be nice - I don't know if I care about what is real.. Nothing is real You're either on autopilot or getting transmissions from other dimensions What is more interesting.. What is real - Or the unknown.. Some place where no one has been But that too is lonely.. You need both. A good balance - I try.. But my consciousness is filled with all of subjective reality. Before I used to just sleep - Dreaming.. And I get criticized for sleeping all of that time So when I step out, it's like walking into a meat grinder or war zone There's horrible things that people ignore.. I manage to get away from it all or else I would be too ****ed up - But it's where we all go... We go everywhere.. Complete the circle. Maybe I need to ground this one reality - What happens when we die the big question.. I research conspiracies too.. But no one believes in them. Everyone is brainwashed so I give up. Any direction is a dead end. |
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#602
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It's tough for me too. I think the drugs I take (meaning the prescribed drugs) are not doing good things for me. I don't know - just a dependence on them makes me really doubt their efficacy. I get criticized for doubting the medicine. Perhaps someone is hiding something from me. I don't know. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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Metaphysic
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#603
I can't focus on sudoku for more than a few minutes
The main benefits of Sudoku Improves concentration. ... Helps to reduce anxiety and stress. ... Promotes a healthy mindset. ... Helps kids develop their problem-solving skills. ... Promotes a healthy competition. ... Improves thinking skills. ... Improves memory. ... Helps to analyze the relation between the whole and the part. My intent to do things like anything is 10% |
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Metaphysic
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#605
But if I'm in a car with no distractions, I can focus on it for hours. Just like reading.
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#607
It's very hard to take this and I can't believe the SW was so rotten to do this to us during a lockdown yet. Trapped in a room with the most disgusting person I've met in years 24/7.
She knows I want privacy and she won't let me have it, like a rapist stalker. I want to go home. |
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#608
I have a phone appointment with my primary care doctor on Thursday. So I can get back on meds for GERD and back on the birth control patch I was on
I'm gonna go to CVS either this week or next week and get my flu shot. And of course I'm hoping to get my dental exam/cleaning tomorrow So hopefully by the end of this week all the physical health stuff is taken care of __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#609
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__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#610
After I'm done washing my hands anytime I usually splash hot or cold water on my face. Both feel good, and help my anxiety
I'm going to try to finish that book I'm reading tonight. So I can get started on another, probably the Alexander Hamilton biography by Ron Chernow __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Metaphysic
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#611
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#612
Making this tomorrow morning. Except I’m using 2 TBSP of peanut butter instead of the chia seeds.
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#613
I just watched a profound Alan Watts talk (it's very short). It's like 9 minutes. But, it was good because it was basically saying there's no difference between the thinker and the thought. All of it made me realize I overthink everything. And I want to change that.
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#614
Also I was reading how meditation can be dangerous for people with psychosis. Not in all cases - thus it has to be practiced in a specific way. I wish I could practice that way. My practice seems to make me more obsessive though.
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#615
Not sure I am loving this modafinil stuff. It's making me super restless and annoyed.
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#616
Going to go 3 weeks w/o caffeine. Then I’ll have some and see if my tolerance is reset yet.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#617
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All I know is it's bad to cold turkey caffeine for me. Do you have a specific goal in mind to get off of caffeine? It can help to have a goal. Like a really specific one. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#618
That's the thing, idk. Like I want to get that euphoric feeling back from it I used to get from caffeine, but my body is so used to 5-6 cups of coffee a day for several years that it doesn't really affect me anymore in the way that I want it to. I want to cut down to having it just occasionally like 2-3 times a week or less, so it's more effective when I do have it.
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#619
Maybe I'll start with having 4 cups a day for a week. Then 3 a day for a week. Then 2 a day for a week or so. Then 1 a day for a couple weeks. Then bring it down to every other day, until I'm only drinking it 1-3 times a week.
It's not just the caffeine I'm addicted to it's also the flavor of coffee. I just drink it plain black unsweetened. I like the flavor of it so much too My big long term goal is to go 3 months w/o caffeine and then have a cup of caffeineted coffee and see how it affects me I'm reading some posts on the r/decaf subreddit, they have a lot of tips for cutting down on caffeine/tapering off __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#620
I made an emergency-to go bag, just in case there's ever a fire. They recommended making one, just so you can grab it and go when a fire alarm goes off in case you can't go back in the building, and so you don't have to spend a bunch of time panicking and looking for stuff before you leave. I put in clothes, razors, toothpaste, tooth brush, hair bands, hand sanitizer, soap, extra bottles of all my meds, and important things like social security card, etc. I put in a couple beanies too since winter is coming up. I'll have to get an extra pair of gloves to throw in too.
I'll go through it every 6 months in case I gain or lose a significant amount of weight and don't fit in the clothes already in there and switch them out for clothes that fit The fire alarm went off like 15 minutes ago that's why it reminded me I needed to make one finally. (there wasn't a fire) __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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