Roll Call 189

Desoxyn · Jan 01, 2022 at 11:10 PM

I completely lost my ****ing ****

She asked me to get her a salad from work because she already put on her pjs. I said to wait 5 minutes and then she gaslights me. All cuz she wants to control me and be her pet.

Idk why she tells everyone that I'm a genius. She always wants a good reputation and isn't real. She's fake. All she cares about is her looks. At one point, all she cared about was being with assholes and neglecting me.

Lately she's been cold and holding things against me. My sister knows.. That's why she moved out - She had to. I'm not being wrong because my sister, my brother and my dad knows what I'm dealing with. It's her.

Desoxyn · Jan 01, 2022 at 11:18 PM

I was completely fine. I just woke up from a nap and starting feeling like I could just read or something.

My mom says that I'm being dramatic tonight when earlier I told her that I was feeling suicidal.

Now I can't focus on anything. It's all about her. It always has been.

Desoxyn · Jan 01, 2022 at 11:45 PM

I had a talk with her. I said sorry. I still don't understand what happened - But I can't drink alcohol - She says it does something really weird to me. She said to take something for agitation (Clonazepam) so I took 0.5mg.

I'll talk to my psychiatrist.

I almost can't let it go - With the thoughts that I've been having - I feel insane.

junkDNA · Jan 01, 2022 at 11:50 PM

TikTok Diagnosis Videos Leave Some Teens Thinking They Have Rare Mental Disorders - WSJ

junkDNA · Jan 01, 2022 at 11:51 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I don't think that anyone is faking when there's something wrong with them - Maybe the wrong thing - Unless it's for attention. But TikTok is just a product of a decaying society.

i think people can fake symptoms of mental illness for whatever reason, theres a Dx for it called Facticious disorder. also munchausens

Desoxyn · Jan 02, 2022 at 01:00 AM

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Originally Posted by junkDNA

i think people can fake symptoms of mental illness for whatever reason, theres a Dx for it called Facticious disorder. also munchausens

I'm a hypochondriac

downandlonely · Jan 02, 2022 at 01:03 AM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I'm a hypochondriac

I am too. It's not faking it so much as I really feel symptoms and think I am ill. I had 7 negative Covid tests. But the latest one came out positive.

junkDNA · Jan 02, 2022 at 01:40 AM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I'm a hypochondriac

That's different because hypochondriac actually think they're ill

Blue_Bird · Jan 02, 2022 at 12:19 PM

I walked to the store and didn’t panic or dissociate

Sometimes psychotic · Jan 02, 2022 at 12:23 PM

I feel impatient today..we stayed in yesterday because of the blizzard but it ended up not being totally bad. Today is really cold and the roads look icy....I hope the main roads are ok because I really want to go out. My cousin and his wife had their baby yesterday....New Years baby.

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Sometimes psychotic · Jan 02, 2022 at 12:23 PM

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I walked to the store and didn’t panic or dissociate

Yay bluebird, the more you do it the easier it is.

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Blue_Bird · Jan 02, 2022 at 12:39 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

I feel impatient today..we stayed in yesterday because of the blizzard but it ended up not being totally bad. Today is really cold and the roads look icy....I hope the main roads are ok because I really want to go out. My cousin and his wife had their baby yesterday....New Years baby.

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That’s awesome, congrats to your cousin on the new year baby

And I hope you’re able to get out. Its 33 degrees here right now and starting to snow. Send all your cold weather and snow up here to NY. We’ve barely gotten any and I love it personally. It’s so strange that we’ve barely gotten any snow by now but it’s probably global warming messing up the weather. But I wouldn’t like it if I had to drive in it so I understand that.

Blue_Bird · Jan 02, 2022 at 12:41 PM

Appointment with OBGYN tomorrow, dreading that. Hopefully it goes by quick. Maybe I’ll celebrate when I get home with ice cream for getting through it.

Desoxyn · Jan 02, 2022 at 12:59 PM

I'm sick of being a slave. At work and at home. My mom really has something wrong with her. She reminds me now of my ex step dad. She's doing the same thing. I can't escape. I'm trapped.

She doesn't care about me. She takes all of my money.

junkDNA · Jan 02, 2022 at 02:35 PM

Calling for a lil bit of snow!!

Desoxyn · Jan 02, 2022 at 03:10 PM

I feel better now that I've come home + My dad is sober so it's all good.

Sometimes psychotic · Jan 02, 2022 at 04:48 PM

I bought a puzzle for snow days… I like them but previously in the psych ward someone had stolen all the eyes

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Blue_Bird · Jan 02, 2022 at 05:08 PM

My sister has some kind of lump or something on her lymph nodes or lungs or something (I forget exactly what she said) but she's going to get a cat scan tomorrow for it. She found that out when she was in the ER for an allergic reaction to the covid vaccine booster, she was having trouble breathing.

I hope that whatever it is it's nothing serious

Blue_Bird · Jan 02, 2022 at 05:44 PM

I have some Gelato

Desoxyn · Jan 02, 2022 at 06:10 PM

Today is a good day. No alcohol - Ever again?..

I must be nice to my mom..

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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,020 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,927 hugs given	Jan 01, 2022 at 11:18 PM #942 I was completely fine. I just woke up from a nap and starting feeling like I could just read or something. My mom says that I'm being dramatic tonight when earlier I told her that I was feeling suicidal. Now I can't focus on anything. It's all about her. It always has been.
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,020 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,927 hugs given	Jan 01, 2022 at 11:45 PM #943 I had a talk with her. I said sorry. I still don't understand what happened - But I can't drink alcohol - She says it does something really weird to me. She said to take something for agitation (Clonazepam) so I took 0.5mg. I'll talk to my psychiatrist. I almost can't let it go - With the thoughts that I've been having - I feel insane.
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junkDNA Comfy Sedation Member Since Sep 2012 Location: the woods Posts: 19,303 (SuperPoster!) 11 8,151 hugs given	Jan 01, 2022 at 11:50 PM #944 TikTok Diagnosis Videos Leave Some Teens Thinking They Have Rare Mental Disorders - WSJ __________________
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,847 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	Jan 02, 2022 at 12:19 PM #949 I walked to the store and didn’t panic or dissociate __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Sometimes psychotic Legendary Wise Elder Member Since May 2013 Location: Chicago Posts: 26,411 (SuperPoster!) 11 22.8k hugs given	Jan 02, 2022 at 12:23 PM #950 I feel impatient today..we stayed in yesterday because of the blizzard but it ended up not being totally bad. Today is really cold and the roads look icy....I hope the main roads are ok because I really want to go out. My cousin and his wife had their baby yesterday....New Years baby. Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk __________________ Hugs!
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,020 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,927 hugs given	Jan 02, 2022 at 12:59 PM #954 I'm sick of being a slave. At work and at home. My mom really has something wrong with her. She reminds me now of my ex step dad. She's doing the same thing. I can't escape. I'm trapped. She doesn't care about me. She takes all of my money.
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junkDNA Comfy Sedation Member Since Sep 2012 Location: the woods Posts: 19,303 (SuperPoster!) 11 8,151 hugs given	Jan 02, 2022 at 02:35 PM #955 Calling for a lil bit of snow!! __________________
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,020 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,927 hugs given	Jan 02, 2022 at 03:10 PM #956 I feel better now that I've come home + My dad is sober so it's all good.
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Sometimes psychotic Legendary Wise Elder Member Since May 2013 Location: Chicago Posts: 26,411 (SuperPoster!) 11 22.8k hugs given	Jan 02, 2022 at 04:48 PM #957 I bought a puzzle for snow days… I like them but previously in the psych ward someone had stolen all the eyes Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ Hugs!
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,847 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	Jan 02, 2022 at 05:44 PM #959 I have some Gelato __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,020 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,927 hugs given	Jan 02, 2022 at 06:10 PM #960 Today is a good day. No alcohol - Ever again?.. I must be nice to my mom..
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