Roll Call 189

I'm sorry SP, I'll keep you all in my prayers

I'm sorry, SP. I'm praying for her and you, and your family.

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Heading out in about 30 minutes for my abilify injection appointment

I see the doctor in an hour about the spots on my skin. I'm going to tell him that I'm an idiot for taking the vaccine. It's not even effective anymore.

I wanted to wait 1-2 years to take it but I saw the statistics on the news about how many got it - I thought most people were going to take it. So I took one shot.

Then I didn't want to take the second shot but the government PHONED ME early to get it and I was scared. The news is an agenda of divide and conquer, propaganda. I should have known.

I'm going to tell him that I've been researching corruption news a lot. That my schizophrenia is meaningless now - I'm not paranoid about myself - But instead, the whole world. Everyone's being spied on - Not just me. Technology made everything come true.

The world is unbelievably corrupt. I'm not sure if I can talk about this here - But I'm a psychiatric patient and this is real to me and what I'm dealing with.

When I got the Invega Trinza injection a few weeks ago, I told the doctor about the schizophrenia label and I was like "Yeah it seems like everyone has symptoms of what I was dealing with in the past after this pandemic. Everyone is getting cognitive impairment, confusion, paranoia - Controlled by evil algorithms of the tech companies, addiction, overdoses - No one knows what is real". He found that interesting.

It's not good. It's very bad. Maybe I can sue Moderna and get a free vacation to Hawaii cuz of these spots.

Apparently my sis has covid.....

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I hope she recovers quickly

My injection hurt really badly today when it went in. It was a different nurse than I normally have. She asked me if I wanted it injected fast or slow I said I don't care, they normally don't ask me that so I don't know, whatever she did it hurt f'ing bad. I've never had one really hurt before in all the many years I've been on different injections, Invega, abilify

Anyway, I'm glad I got it and am back on track. My next one is scheduled for December 27th

Doctor gave diagnosis of the spots and its autoimmune and will go away in a few months

I knew it.. imma die

I hope she'll be fine. I got really sick for 3 to 4 days after the booster shot, hope she gets over it quickly.

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I know what you mean, on one of the shots recently they just jammed the needle in and around and it hurt like hell. When I was sick after the booster I got pain at the injection site. I never got that before. I couldn't sleep on the booster shot arm. I'm glad you got it done!

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I hope they'll clear up soon.

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I get so excited and euphoric feeling around Christmas!! I'm listening to Christmas music and hyping myself up. I can't wait. I picked out mostly all the gifts I'm getting for family and friends. It's a magical time.

Don't wait too long getting the gifts, the supply chain might make it harder this year. Plus inflation is going to get worse. Sorry to be a wet blanket.

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The people I'm getting gifts for will understand if they're late, I'm on a fixed income so I only really have a certain amount of money to spend at a certain time of month

I'm shopping on Wednesday

I feel nauseous, I forgot to eat, I only ate a protein bar and a handful of trail mix today, I was busy with my appointment and caught up in looking for Christmas gifts online for a couple hours. I just ate a peanut butter and jam sandwich so hopefully that helps. But to be honest right after eating that I started feeling ravenous too so Idk what's up. Maybe it's from the abilify

How is it possible that I feel ten times more hungry after eating than I did before eating

I remember when I was inpatient for a month when I was 14, there was a girl there who was on abilify and she ate a ton, I never understood how she could eat as much as she did because she said it was because of her medication, which I never experienced at the time, and she gained a lot of weight even in within the month I was there.. Her psychiatrist was trying to get her to drink two cups of water before eating to help with the cravings. Anyway, now I understand

Fasting is probably the best way to get rid of my autoimmune disease so I'll take a dex and finish reading the book

Procrastinating the things..

But my mind is clear. No more alcohol. I'm ok.. I'm just..

“Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear—not absence of fear.”
—Mark Twain

any tips for getting through sugar cravings

No. 1 most addictive drug I've ever taken.

Glucose!

Listening to a bunch of my old favorite emo and screamo music, reminds me the time back around 2006

I guess the best thing I can do is not keep it (candy, pastries, ice cream, etc) in my house. Just keep fruit around if I'm craving something sweet

My problem is I give in to my sugar cravings the second I get them. Or I last like 10 minutes then I go get something sugary, I managed to go all day today without eating anything with added sugar though

My mom bought me a magazine about sugar (Because she knows that I've been a massive sugar fiend all my life). When I read it, I'll let you know of any tips I find and how bad it is + The fasting book lol.. I'm just learning about this stuff now + many other things.. I'm thrown into a world of intense curiosity that was suppressed by school, work and life.