Roll Call 191

Sometimes psychotic · Feb 23, 2022 at 09:32 AM

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Do you think it's possible to lose weight with the changes I'm making while still staying on the abilify (that's the med that contributed to some of my weight gain), or am I wasting my time with something that won't work

You can lose weight on Abilify but it’s a constant battle…you will always be hungry especially at night. If you mess up and eat a holiday meal you’ll gain five pounds overnight….idk how but seriously I was losing weight then ate super bowl food….up five pounds. I don’t think the physical weight of the meal was more than a pound but still.

Blue_Bird · Feb 23, 2022 at 09:45 AM

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You can lose weight on Abilify but it’s a constant battle…you will always be hungry especially at night. If you mess up and eat a holiday meal you’ll gain five pounds overnight….idk how but seriously I was losing weight then ate super bowl food….up five pounds. I don’t think the physical weight of the meal was more than a pound but still.

Yeah I guess I'll have to be super careful, and only have like an indulgent meal on really special occasions, holidays, and my birthday, then get straight back on track immediately after that. Then the rest of the time be really strict with myself. It sucks but I have to mostly give up a lot of the foods I like (especially desserts, those are my downfall) if I want to stay on this med because I also want to lose the weight. And I have to make exercising a regular part of my life.

I think I'll give these lifestyle changes 4 months, and if my weight doesn't go down at least 5 lbs or more in that time then I may consider changing to a different med.

Blue_Bird · Feb 23, 2022 at 09:45 AM

I was really hungry last night but I managed to not snack after dinner, I just drank seltzer water instead

I hate that there's like little to no room for error. Because even with the lifestyle changes I'm gonna inevitably have a bad day someday in the future and want to treat myself a bit...

WastingAsparagus · Feb 23, 2022 at 10:08 AM

I didn't take my night meds last night (mirtazapine and olanzapine) and I feel fine this morning after just taking my morning meds. I think I am on too many meds.

Blue_Bird · Feb 23, 2022 at 11:44 AM

I talked with my doctor, she increased my abilify. She said the reason I may be struggling is because when I got off the 400mg injection I was put on 10mg tablet, when the equivalent for the injection is actually 15-20mg

Blue_Bird · Feb 23, 2022 at 11:54 AM

Here's to hoping I can get back to being stable without the paranoia and stuff and get a good 6 months at least of stability and no more med changes. I feel like that would be a huge accomplishment. I think if I have any leftover paranoia even after the increase then I will just work on it with CBT. I want to stay on my meds and take them consistently. I hope within the next six months I can volunteer, and then start looking at starting college again part time. I feel like a huge failure at 27

Blue_Bird · Feb 23, 2022 at 12:10 PM

My doctor was happy when I told her I took the klonopin, she's always telling me to take it when I need it but I always don't take it, I don't think she'd prescribe it to me if she thought it'd be a problem though like taking it too much. I have good self control with that. So maybe I should utilize it when I really need it, which definitely isn't every day but every once in awhile I do have overwhelming anxiety/agitation and panic attacks that coping skills don't touch

I let her know I've also been struggling to leave the house because of anxiety and feeling like people around me are talking about me. I said I'm going to try to get a volunteer job and she was wondering how I'd deal with that if I'm struggling to get out, I said I'd just work on slowly getting over my fear and force myself out more till it doesn't bother me, or at least until I can ignore the feeling/thoughts.

Blue_Bird · Feb 23, 2022 at 01:03 PM

Ugh this is going to be a long *** year with trying to eat healthier. I'm trying to stay self-disciplined, but my my patience is wearing thin just on day 2. Maybe it's just because I didn't sleep good. last night. I slept 5 hours total. I have some rice cakes I bought that are being delivered today. Plain lightly salted. Those are a lot healthier than chips and all that other stuff I guess. I want a cannoli, or flan, or tiramisu though.............

All I can think about is sugar sugar sugar.

The thing is I want to start baking, and getting better at making desserts. But I can't do that if I want to lose weight, I'll eat it all

Angelique67 · Feb 23, 2022 at 04:22 PM

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Ugh this is going to be a long *** year with trying to eat healthier. I'm trying to stay self-disciplined, but my my patience is wearing thin just on day 2. Maybe it's just because I didn't sleep good. last night. I slept 5 hours total. I have some rice cakes I bought that are being delivered today. Plain lightly salted. Those are a lot healthier than chips and all that other stuff I guess. I want a cannoli, or flan, or tiramisu though.............

All I can think about is sugar sugar sugar.

The thing is I want to start baking, and getting better at making desserts. But I can't do that if I want to lose weight, I'll eat it all

I've been craving fresh baked bread. It smells heavenly and tastes amazing. I can't cook or bake here though.

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Angelique67 · Feb 23, 2022 at 04:24 PM

Omg, peanut butter and jelly on fresh homemade bread!

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WastingAsparagus · Feb 23, 2022 at 04:58 PM

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I didn't take my night meds last night (mirtazapine and olanzapine) and I feel fine this morning after just taking my morning meds. I think I am on too many meds.

Yikes, that was a poor idea. I did not fare so well today. Oh well. At least I know (again).

Blue_Bird · Feb 23, 2022 at 05:24 PM

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Omg, peanut butter and jelly on fresh homemade bread!

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That sounds good, a long time ago my mom made bread in a bread machine and then I made homemade butter for it. Fresh warm bread with homemade butter is amazing

Blue_Bird · Feb 23, 2022 at 05:25 PM

My sister is going to help me use her bread machine sometime this coming month, so we can make a fresh loaf of Italian herb bread

Desoxyn · Feb 23, 2022 at 07:11 PM

I'm not doing very well at my journalling. I'm all over the place. I don't know what is happening every day.

Angelique67 · Feb 23, 2022 at 07:55 PM

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That sounds good, a long time ago my mom made bread in a bread machine and then I made homemade butter for it. Fresh warm bread with homemade butter is amazing

Oh that sounds so good!

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Blue_Bird · Feb 23, 2022 at 09:29 PM

I'm panicking again because I think my meds were poisoned. I need to just go the **** to sleep. Idk. I hate this.

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Desoxyn · Feb 23, 2022 at 09:38 PM

I took a gabapentin and it made my heart beat weird

I told my mom that I can't do things and what does that mean? She said that I struggle.

She wants me to see a therapist again. I said that my therapist ghosted me. She's going to look into it

Blue_Bird · Feb 23, 2022 at 09:46 PM

It's too early to go to sleep only 9:30 I'm not tired enough yet. So I'm not sure what to do. I read for awhile. I'm listening to music now. Sometimes I'm starting to think my doctor is screwing with me and making adjustments to make me worse.

Somewhere in my head I know that she probably wouldn't do that because I've been seeing her for 6 years and she is nice. But sometimes it feels that way when I feel like I'm being poisoned. It just feels like someone is screwing with my head like it's a game sometimes.

I was doing good on the abilify injection. Maybe I just need to wait for this increase to start helping me get back to where I was

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Blue_Bird · Feb 23, 2022 at 09:48 PM

I'm sorry I haven't been there for you all lately. I've been posting a lot about my struggles. I want to be a better friend to you all. I just feel overwhelmed right now by whatever's going on in my head.

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Blue_Bird · Feb 23, 2022 at 10:05 PM

In addition to that some stuff in the news is giving me a lot of anxiety. So I think I'm gonna take a break from browsing the internet for a month or so. And just use Netflix to watch my shows. Avoid Facebook and everything else for awhile. I'll be back. Hopefully by then I'll be doing better. Focus on reading, Bible study, ukulele, and getting some kind of volunteer work. Just disconnect for awhile. I need it. My brain needs it.

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WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	Feb 23, 2022 at 10:08 AM #64 I didn't take my night meds last night (mirtazapine and olanzapine) and I feel fine this morning after just taking my morning meds. I think I am on too many meds. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”
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Angelique67 Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2014 Location: USA Posts: 22,115 (SuperPoster!) 9	Feb 23, 2022 at 04:24 PM #70 Omg, peanut butter and jelly on fresh homemade bread! Sent from my Nokia XR20 using Tapatalk
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,745 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Feb 23, 2022 at 05:25 PM #73 My sister is going to help me use her bread machine sometime this coming month, so we can make a fresh loaf of Italian herb bread __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Feb 23, 2022 at 07:11 PM #74 I'm not doing very well at my journalling. I'm all over the place. I don't know what is happening every day.
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,745 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Feb 23, 2022 at 09:29 PM #76 I'm panicking again because I think my meds were poisoned. I need to just go the ** to sleep. Idk. I hate this. Sent from my M8L using Tapatalk __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi**
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Feb 23, 2022 at 09:38 PM #77 I took a gabapentin and it made my heart beat weird I told my mom that I can't do things and what does that mean? She said that I struggle. She wants me to see a therapist again. I said that my therapist ghosted me. She's going to look into it
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