FAQ/Help |
Calendar |
Search |
Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
Posts: 36,788
(SuperPoster!)
10 14.4k hugs
given |
#201
My downstairs neighbor is yelling and stomping and cussing someone out very loudly, he does this every now and then and when he does it goes on for hours. So I don't think I should be worried too much about Stash being too loud.
Sent from my M8L using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
|
Desoxyn, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
|
Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
Posts: 36,788
(SuperPoster!)
10 14.4k hugs
given |
#202
I'm thinking of changing my major when I go back to college part-time to something that can be used towards whatever degree you need for a career in a library
Sent from my M8L using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
|
SlumberKitty
|
Angelique67, Desoxyn, WastingAsparagus
|
Metaphysic
Member Since Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 13,005
(SuperPoster!)
7 4,919 hugs
given |
#203
I had a panic attack in 3rd person while waiting for the atenolol and olanzepine to kick in. I took clonazepam and then told my mom about everything. She facetimed my dad and grandmother.
I explained that I was listening to a journalist and that things are too much.. My grandmother understands because she lives her life on Facebook. I was just wondering, "When will the world, OUR world completely decay and we suffer immensely". Cuz right after the pandemic started, I imagined what it would be like in 2 years... It's been 2 years now, and it's exactly what I expected it to be like. My mom says "It's always been that way" and that she tries to focus on our own world. I just find that hard because of my empathy - And focusing on the world can be crippling for anyone like us. She said that she doesn't care about the things I'm saying; the corruption - Cuz we have the technology advanced enough to stop stuff like this from happening - So it has to be done on purpose. But whatever.. I do feel like I'm in a good mood.. But before the olanzepine kicked in, I kept saying "You're fine just do x" or "Why don't you", "You need to" - Instead of "I'm fine...", "I should", "I need to".. It's like talking to myself and not knowing which thought is MINE or someone elses.. It's so ****ed up man. Dealing with mental states like this are so draining. But everyone is really, really having an extremely difficult time - More than me.. But I also think, INFINITE.. And it's nihilistic because nothing exists in the end, beyond every possible thing that will exist
Possible trigger:
But I found 2-3 solutions in the form of thoughts that solved the issue. I just forget what they were... I found 10 solutions to solipsism too - It's just solving all of it, one step at a time. It's like.. Love, empathy for example.. To build connection instead of being disconnected - Everyone's so divided. If it all revolves in a circle, there's a certain point where things connect and also disconnect - So what I experience NOW, is relevant for the future.. To be responsible for the consequences our own actions.. Like stuff said in the bible - All of that. I just need to vent so much and think myself dry. I'll try and write down the solutions to infinite nihilism when I think of them again... |
SlumberKitty
|
Angelique67, convalescence
|
Metaphysic
Member Since Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 13,005
(SuperPoster!)
7 4,919 hugs
given |
#204
I'm going to prepare to meditate...
I'm feeling better which is a dramatic change - It's just disinhibition that makes what ever I'm feeling to magnify. |
SlumberKitty
|
Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
Posts: 36,788
(SuperPoster!)
10 14.4k hugs
given |
#205
Good morning. Drinking some iced coffee and about to do some laundry. It’s been a peaceful morning. I’m excited for the day. Don’t know why. Just been enjoying life lately.
Going to do some yoga later and some exercises plus take a walk to the store. Get a few things I need. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
|
SlumberKitty
|
Angelique67, Desoxyn, Sometimes psychotic
|
Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since May 2013
Location: Chicago
Posts: 26,410
(SuperPoster!)
11 22.8k hugs
given |
#206
Anything works for library because you just need a masters……if you want something easier you could also do an lta.
__________________ Hugs! |
SlumberKitty
|
Angelique67, Blue_Bird
|
Metaphysic
Member Since Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 13,005
(SuperPoster!)
7 4,919 hugs
given |
#207
Nice sunny day. Left work early. Good mood. I might go for a walk/hike with my mom when she gets home.
I feel.. too good. I do however crave alcohol and marijuana for more fun but trying not to consume these things. |
SlumberKitty
|
Metaphysic
Member Since Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 13,005
(SuperPoster!)
7 4,919 hugs
given |
#208
I might sit outside with macbook and z fold 3
|
SlumberKitty
|
Sometimes psychotic
|
Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
Posts: 36,788
(SuperPoster!)
10 14.4k hugs
given |
#209
I feel weird. Unreal. Feel like I'm gonna have a panic attack
Sent from my M8L using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
|
Desoxyn, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
|
Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
Posts: 36,788
(SuperPoster!)
10 14.4k hugs
given |
#210
Trying to cut back on sugar. Today was day one with no sugary junk food and I’m craving it like crazy, it sucks
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
|
Desoxyn, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
|
Angelique67
|
Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
Posts: 36,788
(SuperPoster!)
10 14.4k hugs
given |
#211
I know I can do it, it just takes time to build better habits. Have to have patience and put up with the cravings, they’ll go away over time.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
|
SlumberKitty
|
Member
Member Since Dec 2014
Location: USA
Posts: 473
9 106 hugs
given |
#212
I finally decided to try the Depakote. Pray for me.
|
Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty
|
Angelique67, Blue_Bird, Desoxyn, Sometimes psychotic, unsure123
|
Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since May 2013
Location: Chicago
Posts: 26,410
(SuperPoster!)
11 22.8k hugs
given |
#213
Quote:
I just taper, I haven’t been able to cut completely…. Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk __________________ Hugs! |
|
Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty
|
Blue_Bird, unsure123
|
Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
Posts: 36,788
(SuperPoster!)
10 14.4k hugs
given |
#214
Did 45 minutes on the treadmill today. Also did some weights exercises. Doing squats w/ resistance bands later and some yoga too.
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
|
SlumberKitty
|
Angelique67, Desoxyn, Sometimes psychotic, unsure123
|
Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
Posts: 36,788
(SuperPoster!)
10 14.4k hugs
given |
#215
My sister was gonna come over but she ended up having to wait literally 2 plus hours for an oil change so she got way behind schedule so we’re just gonna hang out some other day.
I posted a video of me playing ukulele on Facebook Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
|
SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
|
Angelique67, Sometimes psychotic, unsure123
|
Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
Posts: 36,788
(SuperPoster!)
10 14.4k hugs
given |
#216
Headed to the grocery store
Sent from my M8L using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
|
SlumberKitty
|
Angelique67, unsure123
|
Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
Posts: 36,788
(SuperPoster!)
10 14.4k hugs
given |
#217
On the bus headed home now
Edit: okay, I’m home now. Next up is wash the dishes then get on the treadmill, then walk to the library. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
Last edited by Blue_Bird; May 23, 2022 at 08:46 AM.. |
SlumberKitty
|
Angelique67, Sometimes psychotic, unsure123
|
Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
Posts: 36,788
(SuperPoster!)
10 14.4k hugs
given |
#218
Did it! 45 minutes on the treadmill done. Now to take a short break. Then do weights and resistance bands. Then around 12pm I’ll walk to the library
I’m starting to get a tiny bit of muscle in my arms just from 5 days of weights. Very happy about that. My arms are usually so flabby and weak, I wanted to make them stronger and trimmer Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
|
SlumberKitty
|
Angelique67, Desoxyn, unsure123
|
Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jul 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 27,329
(SuperPoster!)
5 117.7k hugs
given |
#219
__________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
Blue_Bird
|
Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jul 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 27,329
(SuperPoster!)
5 117.7k hugs
given |
#220
I had a pretty good weekend, despite it being my friend's memorial service.
I was not looking forward to coming into work today but once I got here it was better. At least I am not having the crippling anxiety, or at least, not yet! __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
Blue_Bird
|
Angelique67, convalescence, Desoxyn, Sometimes psychotic, unsure123
|