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Angelique67 · May 29, 2022 at 04:57 PM

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It’s weird because I’ve been on this dose for a long time. Well over 3 or 4 months. Strange that it would kick in or something now

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I was 3 or 4 months into Abilify before it worked on me. That, and some great ppl on roll call.

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Blue_Bird · May 29, 2022 at 06:08 PM

Possible trigger:

I hate my body so much. I've been eating healthier and exercising but I still despise my body

Blue_Bird · May 29, 2022 at 06:09 PM

I don't know if it's from sugar withdrawal or what but I feel very agitated tonight, and emotional for some reason

Maybe it's lack of good sleep. I've only been able to sleep 4-5 hours a night, sometimes less, the past several days.

Desoxyn · May 29, 2022 at 06:41 PM

I was OK for an hour - Then I started feeling anxious. I'm only taking 1x Dexedrine instead of 2x from now on (I said that yesterday but was feeling better today so I thought it would be okay) + the phenibut withdrawal could be potentiating it. I took olanzepine, atenolol, clonazepam.

Christ I messed up. I just wanted to focus more and read etc.. Can't do that while anxious.

Desoxyn · May 29, 2022 at 06:43 PM

I would love to be pessimistic and that say I'lll never be able to ****ing do anything - Constant panic attack for life and that no one knows what I'm talking about, never will and neither will I.

Desoxyn · May 29, 2022 at 07:42 PM

Everyone has their own reality and I'm stuck in this one..

If anyone wants, you can build upon this thought..

Desoxyn · May 29, 2022 at 08:01 PM

Desoxyn · May 29, 2022 at 08:25 PM

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Blue_Bird · 04:51 AM

Fire alarm went off at 4:30am woke me up out of a dead sleep. grabbed my keys, phone, emergency go-bag and evacuated and stood outside, someone burned something they were cooking, it was all smoky in the hallway. Fire department came and took care of the smoke.

Blue_Bird · May 30, 2022 at 05:55 AM

Buying a fitbit so I can track my steps and help motivate myself to walk a lot

Desoxyn · May 30, 2022 at 12:52 PM

Mixture of sadness and happiness

Desoxyn · May 30, 2022 at 12:54 PM

But this morning is good. Vyvanse, nicotine, coffee - Managed to wake up at 11am, got ready..

I'm thinking of starting a chemistry course - To understand molecules/pharmacology.. My mom said that it's a good idea.

I did good at it in high school but during grade 12, I was brought to the psych hospital and didn't finish.

Desoxyn · May 30, 2022 at 02:08 PM

I can't get started on anything. I drank a rum.

Sometimes psychotic · May 30, 2022 at 02:34 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I can't get started on anything. I drank a rum.

I know it’s kinda you to reach for a substance but I feel like there are always long term consequences….exercise generally helps with motivation without any negative consequences. Have you tried it?

Desoxyn · May 30, 2022 at 02:49 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

I know it’s kinda you to reach for a substance but I feel like there are always long term consequences….exercise generally helps with motivation without any negative consequences. Have you tried it?

It's always been.. Visiting, working lately. I'm going on a hike tomorrow so I'll look forward to that ^-; I hike 1-2 times a week usually in the summer and skiing 1-2 times a week in the winter..

I wish I had someone to go mountain biking with.. There's a lot of bears out right now.. I took this picture just recently (In the car)..

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Sometimes psychotic · May 30, 2022 at 02:52 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

It's always been.. Visiting, working lately. I'm going on a hike tomorrow so I'll look forward to that ^-; I hike 1-2 times a week usually in the summer and skiing 1-2 times a week in the winter..

I wish I had someone to go mountain biking with.. There's a lot of bears out right now.. I took this picture just recently (In the car)..

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Cool bear. I don’t mean you need a four hour hike, just take 15 mins to walk around the block….it works for me if I really can’t get started.

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WastingAsparagus · May 30, 2022 at 03:53 PM

I am probably going back down to 10 mg olanzapine. The 15 mg olanzapine makes me so tired. It's ridiculous. And I don't know how to cope with such tiredness.

WastingAsparagus · May 30, 2022 at 03:56 PM

And I feel like **** for the fact that I'm going to skip dinner at my aunt and uncle's house for Memorial Day. Anyway.

Desoxyn · May 30, 2022 at 04:24 PM

Sitting outside in the sun. 1x Dexedrine is perfectly OK. Idk how my MacBook can handle the heat.. We'll find out..

I was gonna go for a walk but idek know where to walk. Would be nice to walk around town but I'm still a little paranoid of people after what happened in 2020 (The group of people that ganged up on me and I threatened one with a plastic shovel)..

@WA, Have you tried modafinil while on a higher dose of olanzepine? I forget why you stopped the modafinil - If it was cuz of anxiety/psychosis, then it could work. Just an idea.

It's crazy that I'm on AP and stim. Benefits of both and reduced side effects of both. Modafinil doesn't last 16 hours for me - I think 4 hours? idk

I'm gonna try and get onto the chemistry course.. It's so nice outside! Idk if I should smoke Indica... I seem mentally content right now except for that something seems to be missing.. Something is always missing.. That's why I take chems to fill the void ;-;

WastingAsparagus · May 30, 2022 at 04:26 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

Sitting outside in the sun. 1x Dexedrine is perfectly OK. Idk how my MacBook can handle the heat.. We'll find out..

I was gonna go for a walk but idek know where to walk. Would be nice to walk around town but I'm still a little paranoid of people after what happened in 2020 (The group of people that ganged up on me and I threatened one with a plastic shovel)..

@WA, Have you tried modafinil while on a higher dose of olanzepine? I forget why you stopped the modafinil - If it was cuz of anxiety/psychosis, then it could work. Just an idea.

It's crazy that I'm on AP and stim. Benefits of both and reduced side effects of both. Modafinil doesn't last 16 hours for me - I think 4 hours? idk

I'm gonna try and get onto the chemistry course.. It's so nice outside! Idk if I should smoke Indica... I seem mentally content right now except for that something seems to be missing.. Something is always missing.. That's why I take chems to fill the void ;-;

Yeah I'm still on modafinil 200 mg. Maybe pdoc could increase the modafinil.

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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,743 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	May 29, 2022 at 06:08 PM #322 Possible trigger: I hate my body so much. I've been eating healthier and exercising but I still despise my body __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	May 29, 2022 at 06:43 PM #325 I would love to be pessimistic and that say I'lll never be able to ****ing do anything - Constant panic attack for life and that no one knows what I'm talking about, never will and neither will I.

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	May 29, 2022 at 07:42 PM #326 Everyone has their own reality and I'm stuck in this one.. If anyone wants, you can build upon this thought..

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	May 29, 2022 at 08:01 PM #327

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	May 29, 2022 at 08:25 PM #328 The Psychological Impact of Uncertainty: Why a Bigger IQ Isn'''t the Answer

Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,743 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	May 30, 2022 at 05:55 AM #330 Buying a fitbit so I can track my steps and help motivate myself to walk a lot __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	May 30, 2022 at 12:52 PM #331 Mixture of sadness and happiness

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	May 30, 2022 at 12:54 PM #332 But this morning is good. Vyvanse, nicotine, coffee - Managed to wake up at 11am, got ready.. I'm thinking of starting a chemistry course - To understand molecules/pharmacology.. My mom said that it's a good idea. I did good at it in high school but during grade 12, I was brought to the psych hospital and didn't finish.

Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	May 30, 2022 at 02:08 PM #333 I can't get started on anything. I drank a rum.

WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	May 30, 2022 at 03:53 PM #337 I am probably going back down to 10 mg olanzapine. The 15 mg olanzapine makes me so tired. It's ridiculous. And I don't know how to cope with such tiredness. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”

WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	May 30, 2022 at 03:56 PM #338 And I feel like **** for the fact that I'm going to skip dinner at my aunt and uncle's house for Memorial Day. Anyway. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”