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Blue_Bird · Aug 22, 2022 at 04:59 PM

Sorry Desoxyn, didn’t mean to thank your post, meant to add hugs

Desoxyn · Aug 22, 2022 at 05:51 PM

I feel happy and sad

Edit: Wait.. this happens sometimes. I've said this before.

Blue_Bird · Aug 22, 2022 at 06:45 PM

Does anyone else feel like crying when they don’t get enough sleep and then having to be busy the following day? Like feel really emotional by the ending of the day?

Like I’m overtired or something. I woke up at 5am and am so exhausted right now, it’s almost 8pm.
I’m not really upset, I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

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Blue_Bird · Aug 22, 2022 at 06:50 PM

Like my first day doing a temp job when I was 18, was working at a factory, working from 5am , having to get up at 4:00am to get there till 5 or 6pm, on my feet the entire time except for a lunch break. Anyway, I remember coming home from that the first night and crying until I fell asleep.

This isn’t anything like that, just doing 2 hours of volunteer work here and there. It’s just pretty much stress of any kind even if it’s not equal amount of stress, affects me in the same time way especially when I don’t get enough sleep

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Desoxyn · Aug 22, 2022 at 07:13 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Does anyone else feel like crying when they don’t get enough sleep and then having to be busy the following day? Like feel really emotional by the ending of the day?

Like I’m overtired or something. I woke up at 5am and am so exhausted right now, it’s almost 8pm.
I’m not really upset, I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

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You've been through a lot of **** BB. It happens + Stress is like squeezing an egg. All of a sudden, your hand is wet. The egg is crying. Keep chin up, strong, amazing wonder of this life, you! (:

WastingAsparagus · Aug 22, 2022 at 08:25 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Like my first day doing a temp job when I was 18, was working at a factory, working from 5am , having to get up at 4:00am to get there till 5 or 6pm, on my feet the entire time except for a lunch break. Anyway, I remember coming home from that the first night and crying until I fell asleep.

This isn’t anything like that, just doing 2 hours of volunteer work here and there. It’s just pretty much stress of any kind even if it’s not equal amount of stress, affects me in the same time way especially when I don’t get enough sleep

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If it's any consolation, I got up at like 2 a.m. today, and I took a one-hour nap. But I was still tearful multiple times today. Anyway, probably doesn't help you to hear that except for the fact that I can empathize. I guess I was crying about everything. I don't know...

Edit: I think it's probably somewhat due to listening to Slowdive on repeat, but hey, sometimes tears are tears.

WastingAsparagus · Aug 22, 2022 at 08:30 PM

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If it's any consolation, I got up at like 2 a.m. today, and I took a one-hour nap. But I was still tearful multiple times today. Anyway, probably doesn't help you to hear that except for the fact that I can empathize. I guess I was crying about everything. I don't know...

Edit: I think it's probably somewhat due to listening to Slowdive on repeat, but hey, sometimes tears are tears.

I also wrote some music at like 3:30 a.m. this morning.

WastingAsparagus · Aug 22, 2022 at 08:33 PM

Also I planned so much **** for tomorrow. Why???

downandlonely · Aug 22, 2022 at 08:38 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Does anyone else feel like crying when they don’t get enough sleep and then having to be busy the following day? Like feel really emotional by the ending of the day?

Like I’m overtired or something. I woke up at 5am and am so exhausted right now, it’s almost 8pm.
I’m not really upset, I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

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Yes, I get very emotional if I don't get enough sleep.

Hohumdude · Aug 23, 2022 at 04:49 AM

I don’t know what to say right now but I just wanted to say hello to everyone. Have a wonderful day ✌️

Blue_Bird · Aug 23, 2022 at 09:26 AM

Thanks everyone,I feel better today after getting a good amount of sleep

Walked to the library to pick up some of my requests. Getting on the treadmill in a little while. The after that I’ll do my weights and resistance bands exercises

Have the rest of the day to mostly relax. Have to shower tonight so I’m ready for volunteering tomorrow.

Plan on spending most of the day reading books and watching stuff on Amazon Prime/Netflix

On Sunday I’m spending time with one of my friends. Probably play the Digimon TCG (trading card game) and the Pokémon TCG

I’m really excited about my appointment with my therapist next Thursday on the 1st, by then I’ll have volunteered 5 times (10 hours total), will be happy to report that I’m accomplishing something

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SlumberKitty · Aug 23, 2022 at 09:27 AM

Glad you feel better today, Blue_Bird.

I frequently am emotional when I don't get enough sleep or if I have been exceedingly busy. HUGS Kit

Angelique67 · Aug 23, 2022 at 03:29 PM

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Anxiety. I should have went for the hike with my mom - and not drink alcohol when my psychiatrist told me to take clonazepam for these cases.

I know I'm making things worse for myself. I'll try harder.

I took olanzepine and I'll see if that helps before taking benzo (Angelica I think told me this) - Not to just take both.

Edit: I'll build myself up to trying therapy again. Every time I want to call the clinic, it's the weekend or too late in the day.

Edit: I'll make some effort to meditate too. This song I'm listening to.. It was a song I listened to on the computer when I was like 10 years old - I felt completely elated, first time ever using a computer, listening to songs before anyone came home.

Is my life worthless.. Or why had it to be like this. It's for sure a good thing. And I'll continue to laugh at absurdity, have good morals etc.. And just be a soul, floating throughout dissociating dimensions.

I don't think I told you that. I used to combine meds to enhance their effects. I can't remember what all I used to combine. Tizanidine with an antihistamine I think, benadryl with benzos, and I forget what else. I'm away from all my belongings of course so I can't look at my collections.

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Angelique67 · Aug 23, 2022 at 03:44 PM

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Like my first day doing a temp job when I was 18, was working at a factory, working from 5am , having to get up at 4:00am to get there till 5 or 6pm, on my feet the entire time except for a lunch break. Anyway, I remember coming home from that the first night and crying until I fell asleep.

This isn’t anything like that, just doing 2 hours of volunteer work here and there. It’s just pretty much stress of any kind even if it’s not equal amount of stress, affects me in the same time way especially when I don’t get enough sleep

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I had a bunch of those types of jobs when I was 16 through 18. I didn't cry but I felt very motivated to do my best and try never to have those jobs later in life.

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Angelique67 · Aug 23, 2022 at 03:57 PM

When I'm Sixty Four (Remastered 2009) - YouTube

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Blue_Bird · Aug 23, 2022 at 03:58 PM

I put on another/ new glass privacy screen protector on my phone, it looks like a brand new phone now. The old one was so worn out, I had it for two years.

SlumberKitty · Aug 23, 2022 at 05:19 PM

I have had so much trouble with my Schizoaffective symptoms this month at work. I have asked for accomodation and stuff and today I was having trouble doing a task because it wasn't really clear. Anyway my difficult colleague got frustrated with me and was not too nice. She said she wasn't unkind but her tone was unkind. Anyway I mea culpa'd all over the place but I don't think it mattered to her. So I have to figure out how to do better tomorrow and the next day and the next day. Etc. So she can see that.

It's frustrating because she always says she will help me and then when I ask her for help she doesn't help me. I must be a moron because I haven't figured out not to ask her for help. I got overwhelmed today by a lot of tasks getting thrown at me and I did my best I think but it wasn't good enough. I talked to the owner and she soothed me some but it was a very messy day at work.

I wish someone that I work with could understand what it is like to work while having hallucinations, delusions, paranoia etc. Like I am really doing my best. I'm just not enough.

SlumberKitty · Aug 23, 2022 at 05:19 PM

I am wearing my new red boots though, so yay for that!

bpforever1 · Aug 23, 2022 at 10:10 PM

I was psychotic for a few months and thought I was ok during this episode. But, now that I am on the monthly shot I realize I was very impaired. I am doing well again. I was overwhelmed with stress and lost track of my daily pills. So, I am better off on the monthly shot. I am taking classes and helping my mother recuperate. I feel good about myself again. I was very incoherent for awhile. Now, I feel my head has cleared. It was scary since I was in another country and did everything on my own. No one was there to help me. I am blessed to be home again. I want to remain healthy and stay out of trouble.

Blue_Bird · Aug 24, 2022 at 06:47 AM

Good morning, doing some laundry. Woke up at 4am and couldn't get back to sleep so just stayed up. Had a very peaceful morning, didn't get oline at all until now (7:47am) Did some cleaning. Drank some coffee, spent time with the cats and read some of one of my books. Going to volunteer in a few hours from now. Still a little nervous even though I did it on Monday. Have an appointment with my case manager when I get home from volunteering in the afternoon. Hope everyone has a good day

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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,745 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Aug 22, 2022 at 04:59 PM #221 Sorry Desoxyn, didn’t mean to thank your post, meant to add hugs __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Aug 23, 2022 at 09:27 AM #232 Glad you feel better today, Blue_Bird. I frequently am emotional when I don't get enough sleep or if I have been exceedingly busy. HUGS Kit __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Aug 23, 2022 at 05:19 PM #238 I am wearing my new red boots though, so yay for that! __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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