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Legendary Wise Elder
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#281
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Legendary Wise Elder
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Location: Chicago
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#282
I’m feeling ok but still feel people are talking about me at work….
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Desoxyn
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Member Since Jul 2015
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#283
Doing good! Had fun at the football game last night.
At the gym now. Almost done. Here’s a gym selfie: Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk |
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
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#284
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Sorry SP, I struggle with this a lot everywhere I go I feel like people are talking about me, whispering and laughing at me. I’m trying to work on it with my therapist, if anything we talk about or any therapy stuff helps me I’ll let you know some tips. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
Posts: 36,743
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#285
I like both your shirt and leggings Cogladaid
I’ve been looking for some galaxy type leggings for awhile, more purplish though, I’m probably getting some soon. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
Posts: 36,743
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#286
I’m back on metformin my psychiatrist prescribed to help with the AP related weight gain. Hoping it helps with my weight. It has in the past, when in combo with eating balanced and exercising. Since diabetes or pre-diabetes isn’t something I have (that was ruled out with bloodwork and my blood sugar is fine, not too low or too high) it’s safe to take, the throwing up regularly the past year was more than likely from anxiety since my bloodwork was basically perfect.
Anyway, I’ve been back on it for about 4 days now. Not having any problems with it. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, Sometimes psychotic
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Monster on the Hill
Member Since Sep 2020
Location: by the river
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#287
Had my injection today, got an emergency appt with the pdoc. Some med changes. She told me to stop being a slut for the next eight days.
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#288
Mango spinach smoothie I made
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#289
It’s so weird the random things that will improve my mood. Like today I could not get out of bed most of the day and none of the self care type coping stuff was helping with my mood which was really low. Well I randomly got a craving for a smoothie so I made one and was so happy with how it looked and it tasted amazing and was super refreshing especially since it’s hot today, idk it just improved my mood quite a bit lol
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, cogladaid, Sometimes psychotic
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#290
Also I cut caffeine out, so I have had none today. And don’t plan on having any until I go to a diner with my sister next Sunday for brunch. So my mood will probably be low somewhat for the next week since my body is used to tons of caffeine and I’m having none now. Except on special occasions.
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since May 2013
Location: Chicago
Posts: 26,409
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#291
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#292
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Legendary Wise Elder
Member Since Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
Posts: 36,743
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#293
I wish I could fast forward to Christmas, I always feel so excited and I’m a really high mood around the holidays, baking etc I hate summer. I always feel like crap in the summer
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Elder
Member Since Jul 2015
Location: Nowhere
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#294
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I don’t like winter. It gets snowy and like -40. Around Christmas time is nice, but when it gets into January I’m just blah. I like spring-summer-fall. Going out for walks with the dogs. The sunshine. My mood gets low during the winter all shut in at home. I need to get out of the house a lot. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk |
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Blue_Bird, Sometimes psychotic
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#295
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I understand that. I think it’s different for everyone e. I need to get out a lot too but I can’t deal with the heat. And the people, there’s too many of them, too many cars, noises, people , bright sunlight. It’s just overwhelming to me and makes my anxiety and dissociation bad. I don’t deal well with it. I do better in fall and winter when I can go out without getting overwhelmed by the chaos around me Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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cogladaid
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#296
I’m listening to Christmas music now. Going to a diner with my sister next Sunday (Dennys) to have brunch. So that should be nice. I’m not sure what food I’m getting. I’m thinking some kind of pancakes. And coffee.
I’m currently saving money towards going back to college. I need to save $250. In order to register for spring (January) $222 for what I owe and about $35 for a new student ID card. I keep debating on whether or not to go back but I think it would be good for me. I should have enough saved by august. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67, Desoxyn, Sometimes psychotic
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Elder
Member Since Jul 2015
Location: Nowhere
Posts: 5,565
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#297
Tonight I was watching TV and looking at this website with workout plans. Searched through a bunch of workouts to get ideas. Going to follow this eight week plan to build strength.
I mean, I want to do it. But it’s going to be hard because the gym I go to closes next week so I’ll have to find another gym. I’ve checked out a couple gyms but I gotta decide on one. One of them is moving to another location and opening July 9th. One doesn’t have a squat rack. One does have everything I need but it’s smaller. And one is perfect but further away. The one I want to go to the most is the furthest away. So I’m a little sad because travel time will be a pain. I’m really wanting to build strength. Powerlifting strength. I’ve become a total gym rat again. I got into exercising and then the gym years ago when I was suffering from anorexia and wanted to use it as a tool to lose weight. I transformed that after a while into strength training. I lost a bunch of strength by not going to the gym during COVID. I’m quickly regaining it, and I want to get even better. Like precovid —> now Deadlift 260lb —> 185lb Bench press 160lb —> 90lb Leg press 550lb —> 315lb Back row 120lb —> 90lb Bicep curl 40lb —> 30lb Overhead press 90lb —> 60lb So I’m not toooo bad. Even in the last two months I’ve noticed that my strength is improving. I started focusing more on protein intake and also taking some good simple supplements to help promote muscle recovery and growth and I notice it’s all helping. Anyway, I could talk about it all day. Most people don’t really care so I feel self conscious when I start getting on a roll talking about it. Edit: ugh now I’m sad because I have a busy day tomorrow and might not be able to go to the gym. Got chiropractor, massage, and going to the local fair for rides. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk |
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Metaphysic
Member Since Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
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#298
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Metaphysic
Member Since Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
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#299
DP/DR is by far the worst thing that has ever happened to me. It destroyed me.
I feel like death is soon. I give up. I will die one night while trying to sleep. My story will be left in my notes, and my song playlists. I tried. I really really tried. |
Metaphysic
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#300
Only now... My mom checks, to ask if I'm okay (Regularly). So I'm grateful for that. Even though she caused all of this. It's all because she feels guilty. She didn't kick me out, but I had to threaten suicide (With legit suicidal thoughts), when I wanted to quit my welding job (Cuz everyone never wanted to teach me - They just wanted me to do mindless stuff, again. Just like the mechanics job - They didn't want to teach me, cuz I was too young).
I wanted to make as much money, as fast as possible. If only people didn't get in my way, and judge me. I had unlimited motivation (At that time). My mom got really mad and frustrated that I was suicidal. She didn't even raise me. All she cared about was about stupid things, cuz she's a control freak *****. And she wanted to compete with my dad. She got what she wanted. She's alone. And I should leave. But I can't even comprehend, or work full time. And for what? I'd make pennies, not able to afford **** all. So there's a sweet part of life, that I should just let go of the past, the OCD thoughts, adjust the convictions. But I'm so beaten and wronged. I've had learned helplessness and disappointment, whole life. In 2020? With the parties.. that was nonsense.. I threatened a guy with a plastic shovel. And wanted to knock out my moms last ex (If he came out of the door - But he didn't). I had great times, it's a matter of perspective I guess. I'll feel better.. But I blocked the autistic speed addict friend. We talked every day for over a year (Sometimes all day). But she/he brought up his looks, and since the start, I said I didn't want sex. But she's a complete weirdo - And my mom is listening to propaganda on Netflix in the background, about gender. I can't stand it. I don't know whether or what is politically correct, I just don't want to be grinded in this machine. The conspiracies - People warn me, others agree.. What with schizophrenia is the CIA doing... What about the people complaining about "Gangstalkers". In the Truman Show I am. And it's interdimensional. All I need to do is learn, but the information is at warp speed. I wish I didn't care. I care so much, and was thrown into this shape shifting, geometric patterned mess. And what is love? During the trip, I said "Love is fake" over and over, and had millions of thoughts (Per second - I swear to God. It was neurons, connecting so fast, and so complex/dynamic, that the feelings, intuition, hell, supernovae .. Just.. idk). I need rest. Maybe I need to lower the stimulant - But I was feeling happy and good for 3 weeks. I'm just scared of hypnotic heart palps. They put me down more than anything that I can imagine. Anyway, enough of a rant for now.. |
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