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#351
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I'm 12 days binge/purge free! The longest I've gone since August!
I finished up a journal yesterday too. Started a new one at some point when night turns to morning. I always put a quote on the front page from a song or a poem and on the front I misspelled "poisonous" as "poisoinus" (I was a little drunk) and now I'm going to have to deal with seeing that for the next couple months. Oh well.
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"I don't know what I'm looking for." "Why not?" "Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them." "What, are you crazy?" "It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet," |
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#352
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Remember what happened last time you went off your meds? Do you really want that to happen again?
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"I don't know what I'm looking for." "Why not?" "Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them." "What, are you crazy?" "It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet," |
![]() Angelique67, Blue_Bird, cogladaid, Sometimes psychotic
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#353
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No I don’t want it to happen again, I guess I just get frustrated with them sometimes and get impulsive. I need to stay on them though. Yeah last time I went off them I barely slept for days at a time and posted nude pics on a adult website and was talking with a bunch of random people and exchanging pics, so not a great thing, and spent ridiculous amounts of money which I’m still trying to recover from financially. I guess I should just remind myself of those things sometimes. Really out of character for me and I ended up mortified telling my therapist all of what went on. I definitely don’t want to do that again Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#354
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So today's plans/to do are:
-My volunteer shift -Treadmill, 30 minutes with the incline on and then some weights and squats with resistance bands -Clean some -Practice ukulele for an hour and a half -read -shower -Watch anime with my boyfriend when he gets off work tonight
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Angelique67, MuddyBoots, Sometimes psychotic
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#355
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One of the DBT skills I learned was making a pros and cons chart (not just a list). Maybe you could do that with taking your meds?
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"I don't know what I'm looking for." "Why not?" "Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them." "What, are you crazy?" "It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet," |
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![]() Angelique67, Blue_Bird, Sometimes psychotic
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#356
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Yeah when I was on injections it helped me not mess with my meds. But the meds I'm on now help me a lot and they don't come in injection form, one of them does but the other three of them don't
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#357
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Volunteering went well today. There were only 4 cats today. Two of them were tiny tiny kittens. Like super itty bitty.
There was a notice saying to text this person to get a volunteer shirt to wear when volunteering so I texted her and am waiting to hear back. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Angelique67, cogladaid
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#358
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The kitties were all so sweet. The little kittens were purring constantly and Sammel and Ella (older cats) were also love bugs
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Angelique67, cogladaid
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#359
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Here’s one of the kittens from today
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Angelique67, cogladaid, Sometimes psychotic
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#360
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Oh I almost forgot when I was getting on the bus today, the lady driving stopped me and said “before you pay, name a song by that band (I was wearing a Nirvana shirt) and I’ll let you on for free so I did and I got on for free lol that was a cool surprise
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Angelique67, cogladaid, Sometimes psychotic
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#361
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Getting a haircut and my eyebrows done this weekend. After brunch with my sister.
Sorry for posting so much. I’ve been up since 2:30am. It’s 3pm now. Tired and having a million thoughts so I keep posting. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Angelique67, cogladaid, Desoxyn, MuddyBoots, Sometimes psychotic
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#362
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#363
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I took my shower so I feel very accomplished. I didn't think I could do it today because of anxiety, but I pushed myself and got it done. I'm famished. The more I eat the hungrier I get.
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#364
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I've been having terrible anxiety attacks when I go outside to vape and then when I go back inside. I feel anxiety, like my legs are hard to move and like I need to sit down asap. I shake, and then I continue on to my room, and it gets a little better. What is it I'm feeling, Blue_Bird and Des? Am I dissociating?
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#365
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I'm sorry though.. The more you go outside, the easier it should get (Like agoraphobia) - Talking to people, and having nice conversations help, finding meaning.. In a quite terrible place. But if you have a phone (Or some technology), to connect to the internet, talk with people, watch movies and such, that's an awesome thing. I remember (In the psych ward), I smuggled in a "weed vape" - I walked in, and had a panic attack. My legs were shaking so bad (I've never experienced that before). They gave me a drug test, and Seroquel. I felt better (Although they complained about the "THC", and locked me down). That was in 2017 (A few months after my bad trip) - At one moment, I was dissociating (DPDR), and they didn't know what was wrong with me.. I said "It's like psychosis or anxiety, but it's not that..) - Usually, psychiatric teams don't know what depersonalization/derealization (Dissociation) is. It happens from trauma and stress. They put me on Lexapro, and it made it sooo much worse - I stopped the next day. Same thing happened with Prozac (When I got out). I spent years and years, having episodes of dissociation, not knowing what it was, and WHY. It was a long road/process. What else was I gonna say.. Something important.. Oh yeah, the benzo dependency (In the past) - Can contribute to dissociation. It would be nice if they gave you something relaxing, Tizanidine, something at least.. Good job, on having the shower though! =] |
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#366
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#367
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#368
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#369
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I’m so tired and wired at the same time and feel like my brain is melting and have been texting way too much and messaging people and posting on here too much like I can’t slow down. Lack of sleep combined with not taking my meds is a really bad combo for me. I feel hyped as **** and excited and euphoric but I also feel like crying for no reason. I’m taking my meds later because I feel like my brain won’t slow down and I’m driving myself crazy
I feel like I’m in a bad trip if that makes sense. The only thing I’ve ever tripped on many many many years ago (like 10 years ago) I used to “robotrip” on DXM Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#370
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I hope the anxiety improves Angelique
![]() And great job on the shower, that can be very difficult to do when not feeling well Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#371
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#372
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#373
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I took my night meds. I’m gonna watch some anime with my bf then try to sleep
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Angelique67, cogladaid, Desoxyn, MuddyBoots
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#374
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I have a dentist appointment in August 30th to get one of my crowns replaced. Once that’s taken care of (it might take more than one appointment) I’ll be done with dental work. Hoping to keep up with good dental hygiene.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Angelique67, cogladaid, MuddyBoots
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#375
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Hey what do you guys do when you start to have negative thoughts, and they start to spiral out of control. I had all this in check but a group of toxic people did something unconscionable to me and it pisses me off. I wont get an apology either. I resolved my ptsd, but I have to deal with this again because of them. I start to get angry, and I think about the injustice and it gets out of control, and by bed time my head is spiraling and my internal dialogue is uncontrollable. I talked with my psychologist and he really didn't offer advice. He said to try to stop it early on, but i need better advice, something that works better. Any advice?
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