Roll Call 202

I applied to Taco Bell, Burger King, Petsmart, and Walmart so hopefully I hear something soon

I have an interview with Taco Bell on Friday

Thank you for responding! Yes his schizophrenia started when he was 19. It was when he was introduced to weed by his lower of a dad. He was in and out of the hospital like probably 12 times. When he would smoke weed he would quit his meds and wind up back in the hospital. He hears insulting voices.

Yes I have a sister that helps with him. I have bipolar, ptsd, generalized anxiety disorder, and panic disorder as well as agoraphobia. I'm going to start working on the agoraphobia with my therapist soon. My son is in a very different part of town than I am in and I get so anxious driving out there.

My nephews have kinda disowned him and I have another sister that helps but she just had a stroke 3 months ago and she needs to have surgery done. She had the surgery 2 days before her brain surgery. She has a tumor on her brain and on the bottom of her spine.

But yeah, I'll run things by you regarding meds he's on even meds I am on, lol. Thanks for your support @

I woke up with aches all over my body.

I feel depressed.. meds need to kick in.

I'm overwhelmed. I had a dream that my mom told me to go to work anyways after I was to wake up cuz "We have a government to topple and overthrow" - I wish it were like that tbf. I have good dreams.

The meds kicked in =]

I feel awesome =]

The days are long now, almost Summer. I want to do a lot of studying.

I'm really really hoping that I get it this job and that I actually keep it and don't impulsively quit. I can't really afford to quit this time though so that may be a good thing. My boyfriend and I are still together. He said he can help me out with my rent if it becomes necessary and even if things got to the point where I couldn't afford it at all he would pay for a ticket for me and both the cats to move down there with him. That was the plan anyway for me to move down there eventually. If I have to do it a little earlier than planned that's okay, I will have a place to live no matter what may happen. But my hope is that this job works out and I can work for 6-8 months then move down there with my savings.

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow. Things are going better than they were. I feel more in control and optimistic now that I have a possible job lined up and also a solid backup plan if things do go poorly

In other news I'm trying to learn how to play chess.. I'm really abysmally bad at it. But that's okay because I never played it or learned to play until recently. But I really love strategy games so I am determined to get better at it. That's the cool thing about strategy games, you can learn them and get better and improve at them. That's why I love trading card games like yugioh, pokemon, magic the gathering, and tabletop boardgames like DnD, and other RPG's

Still practicing violin, and ukulele and piano. Mostly violin. But still messing around with the other two as well. Music is amazing

Glad you're doing well What kinds of things are you studying? Lately I've been studying music theory and working through my music theory workbook. Studying is fun

Spirituality, religions, mystical, esoteric, philosophical, shamanistic things..

and sociology/conspiracies =/

But I'd like to legit study neuroscience, math and pharmacology.. That's just a side thing that I want to do, and only do rarely

I tried to learn coding but it's incredibly boring to me...

I have my appointment with my psychiatrist today in 2 hours from now

I have an interview tomorrow at a clothing place. They called me today. I was surprised because it’s been awhile since I put my application in. Anyway I’m hoping to get it since that’s what I have experience in. Would be better than Taco Bell for sure. It’s still retail so it’ll still suck but it will be better than fast food for my mental health.

Also my psychiatrist increased the abilify to 30mg, is decreasing and stopping the Thorazine and eventually replacing the trileptal with lamictal.

He also said he’s glad I stopped the THC and that it can cause psychosis especially for me when I told him about my bad experiences with it.

He did kind of crush my hopes at being on one med only though. He’s like the best we can do is maybe get you down to two and ideally it would be one but because of my history he said that’s definitely not possible.

I guess I just have to accept that I’ll need meds forever

Desoxyn, I did reply to you a couple of pages back. I was just in moderation and it got buried I think. I'm out of moderation now.

My son is doing much better. They went to a place that makes really good strawberry milkshakes and so they had a nice time out.

In his old group home they didn't do any outings like that.

He's going to be coming for a visit next weekend and I can already feel my anxiety going up. I just have horrible anxiety about going to new places I haven't drove often.

Can’t sleep, have a feeling I won’t be sleeping at all tonight. I’m too nervously excited about the interview tomorrow to sleep. It’s about 11pm now. My interview is at 12pm tomorrow so I have to leave around 10:45am to get to the bus stop.