[LixTetrax1397]

It's been a while since i posted onto here, but i need serious help. Lately, I've been falling into dream worlds believing that i'm a ninja with super jump abilities even though i'm awake. When i do this i usually have a dream about it the night before. I've been hallucinating a little girl standing over my toilet seat and at night i here people telling me that they want to shake my hand even though I'm alone. At hollywood video, sometimes i fall into a rabbit's hole and get scared and just freeze there for a few seconds, but in my head i'm falling down a hole. Dinner plates sometimes fall on my lap even though it's not really happening. I'm slowly developing a very violent nature with friends and especially family. When i'm under anxiety i tend to copy the movements and the things people next to me are saying. I keep telling my parents to take me to a doctor, but they keep telling me i'm letting Satan use me and that I'm losing faith in God. The problem is I'm a very religious person inside even though I don't show it to my parents. My uncles don't believe me. The problem is I know everything I see is not real. The thing i hate the most is that I'm starting to make up memories that never existed. I've been like this since this past June and my family still don't want to help me and friends just say it's a load of fooney. It's just that all of this happens when I'm alone. I'm surprised it hasn't gotten worse. Though the things in my first post have disappered, I develop new hallucinations every few months. What should i do and how can i get help? Sometimes i feel i should just walk into the hospital three blocks away from me and tell them what's wrong with me.

[kimmydawn]

hi and welcome back.

since you have no familial support, i think the e.r. is a great place to start. copy your post here and walk in with that and go from there? i feel you have reason to seek attention. i'm sorry you have to do it on your own and without support

please let us know what you decide?

be safe,

kd

[misty]

Glad you are here posting.

[cat_eye]

I'm sorry your family is behaving like this, it must be very frustrating. I think that going to the hospital would be a good idea for ya.

*hugs* (if you want them of course)