Am I losing my mind?

The thought insertion is getting worse by the day. I have to cut out the bomb to save the world from destruction. Then there are the nanobots that I feel that will either kill me or change me into a robot from the future. Also, when I went grocery shopping and my mom forgot something in the car and I had to go get it, the gov said the satellite will fire and lock on to me and kill me- they have several methods of killing me and mess with my mind, so I had to run as fast as possible so they wouldn't get a lock on when I was outside. Then inside the stores, the thought broadcasting is severe. People stare at me and talk about me because of my "weird" thoughts. The thought insertion tells me, "everyone knows your secret of destroying the economy, they know all about you and your thoughts." And to make things even worse, I am occasionally hearing voices and sounds. Also seeing things and feeling things. Aliens are out to get me, too and I am special for them. I am not suicidal by any means, but I am seriously thinking of cutting the bomb out of my neck and the nanobots which are all over my body. I am starting to become a success in life. My art is taking off and today I just found out that this pretty big pet store that has 14 stores is going to order my stuff in February and I don't want to die before then or at all, that's why I need to get it out because if I don't, (they haven't told me how powerful the bomb is) but I am thinking at least an entire state or the country will be blown up. The government is reading what I just wrote here on the boards. I didn't mean to crash the economy, I just wrote down predictions that came true. So, am I going nuts and losing my mind by going psychotic? What should I do?

(((FireBird)))

I'm sorry the thought insertion is getting worse. That must be exhausting!

You mentioned in the other thread that you had an appointment with your pdoc today. Were you able to go? Was he able to help?

That is great news that your art is taking off. I know you will be able to see the launch in February. One day at a time -- you are doing a great job.

Much strength and love headed your way.

It wasn't the pdoc, but rather the case worker. My pdoc appointment was supposed to be on December 18th but we had to cancel because of snow. The case worker yesterday canceled because she was sick.

Firebird,

Were you able to reschedule another appointment with your pdoc? If so, when would that be? Also, did your case worker reschedule too? And when would that be? I think it would be a good idea to see one or both soon. Is this possible?

((((Firebird))))

I think it's time to call your pdoc and make an emergency appointment. You said in your response to mazer that you know you're having a psychotic episode. Like I told her, there are medications out there that can help control this.

I'm sorry it's getting worse by the day, that is what will happen until you get help. You need to make every effort to reach out in the real world to your pdoc or social worker or anybody who can help. I hope you get help soon.

Love and Hugs,
Tara

I would say you are probably getting sick again firebird. I would push your case worker or pdoc to get you seen.

Thecat