Can you help with schizophrenia question

PLEASE HELP! I'M NEW HERE!!! I think I have paranoid schizophrenia. I was so ill I thought my local care team e.g. nurse/doc etc were putting all these tests out for me IN THE COMMUNITY to see if I was independent or not.

I was so convinced I was a secret agent that I believed it was my job to protect my local area. I was picking up rubbish on the streets, reporting abandoned tv sets, calling up the council, bus company, energy companies, the police, fire brigade and ambulance service of any potential disasters.

I ended up sweeping lots of broken glass in a greenery/park area convinced my nurse and social worker etc had deliberately got people to put it there so i would see it and if i was independent i would report it and if I didn't i was not and would be considered a risk. all this was logical at the time.

It was so bad that after my night time three hour clean up of glass a man in a car approached me saying he had noticed me sweeping up the glass and offered me a ride home. I WAS SO CONVINCED HE'D BEEN SENT BY MY NURSE AND SOCIAL WORKER I ALMOST TOOK HIM UP ON HIS OFFER. NOW I CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY EVEN SPOKE TO HIM. I WAS A DANGER TO MYSELF BIG TIME!!!

I felt i couldn't tell my doc , nurse etc because it was them setting me up with these tests. Even if told them and they told me my beliefs were unfounded I wouldn't have believed them.

My dillemma is NOW THAT I AM TELLING THEM THIS THEY REALLY COME ACROSS AS IF THEY DON'T BELIEVE ME BECAUSE I KEPT QUIET FOR SO LONG. THEY THINK I'M PUTTING IT ON BUT I'M NOT. In the past I had on one occasion lied to them and they know this because I TOLD THEM BUT THIS IS THE WHOLE TRUTH.

The reason I lied was because I couldn't cope with the paronoia e.g being followed, people talking behind my back, there being cameras everywhere, the house being bugged etc but i felt if i told them they would make the tests more difficult to detect.

I had a better chance of passing if i kept quiet. How can I get them to understand? I get into a nervous sweat any time I have to see them because they don't believe me AND I'M FRIGHTENED TO TELL THEM ABOUT ALL THE OTHER DELUSIONAL THOUGHT I'VE HAD OVER THE YEARS.

Miss H,

If my doctor didn't believe me I think I would get a different doctor and start out by being completely honest about all your symptoms.

Hope this helps,

Love and Hugs,
Tara