[yumzone]

Hi there

I am currently in hospital on a section 3 for hearing voices to hurt my daughter and partner. Im hospital i have been hearing voices to hurt staff and so was collecting cutlery but i never did hurt anybody nor did i in my right mind have any intent on hurting somebody. The thing is i have stopped hearing these voices for the past six weeks and feel fab. I have a tribunal coming up on the 8th april but i think im going to loose because I cant explain whats changed?? i just think the voices were a figment of my imagination where as before i thought i had an illness the DRS just dont get it. Ive been put under the Forensic team as they thought I was such a risk. But ive never hurt anybody nor will.

Does anybody have any reasons why this might have happened i think the dr is scared they may come back as quickly as they disappeared which im sure there not as i dont believe there real anymore. I believe them to be a figment of my imagination but why that has happened I just cant think.

Please advise

yumzone

[deliquesce]

hi yumzone,

welcome to PC. i hope you'll find some answers and support here .

did they change any of the medication you were on whilst you were in hospital? this could be a big reason some of the voices stopped.

actually - just to clarify - have the voices stopped, or have you changed your thoughts about them (e.g., believe they are your imagination now, instead of 'real' voices)?

[yumzone]

Originally Posted by deliquesce

hi yumzone,

welcome to PC. i hope you'll find some answers and support here .

did they change any of the medication you were on whilst you were in hospital? this could be a big reason some of the voices stopped.

actually - just to clarify - have the voices stopped, or have you changed your thoughts about them (e.g., believe they are your imagination now, instead of 'real' voices)?

The took me of a Haldol Depot and upped my arirpiprrazole to 25mg per day from 20mg. They have stopped i was hearing 3 voices telling me to do things, talking about what i was doing, being nasty etc - my perception of the voices has also changed i beleive them to be a figment of my imagination rather than being real which i did believe for a long time.

[kaytibear]

I am glad to hear you are feeling better. It could very well be the medication changes helping the voices stop. Also some forms of mental illness have periods of times symptoms abate or lesson. It shows good insight to know the voices aren't real. I hope you continue to feel well and that your tribunal goes well.
I would ask your doctor what they think is wrong with you. It might give some insight as to what is happening with you.

[deliquesce]

i dont know where you are but in australia they can't continue to hold you if you are better, which it sounds that you are.

when i hear voices they typically only last a maximum of 2 weeks, so it is possible to get better that quickly.

good luck with the tribunal, yumzone .

[spiritual_emergency]

yumzone: I am currently in hospital on a section 3 for hearing voices to hurt my daughter and partner. Im hospital i have been hearing voices to hurt staff and so was collecting cutlery but i never did hurt anybody nor did i in my right mind have any intent on hurting somebody. The thing is i have stopped hearing these voices for the past six weeks and feel fab. I have a tribunal coming up on the 8th april but i think im going to loose because I cant explain whats changed??

A related story...

A "schizophrenic" I once knew told me the following story. He wanted a hamburger so he drove to the nearest take-out. As he was paying the cashier, her face suddenly turned into the face of "the devil" and he became enormously frightened; he wondered if he needed to take any action to protect himself.

It would take a bit of knowledge of that man's personal history to know that his first wife had cheated on him and later dissolved the marriage. This was something that had been deeply humiliating and traumatic to him and in his mind, she was the equivalent of "the devil". The hapless cashier had unknowingly triggered a projection as a result of some common ground she shared with his first wife. Maybe the name on her name tag was the same as his first wife's, maybe she styled her hair in a similar manner... Whatever it was, with that common ground in place she presented the "hook" for him to hang his projection upon. An illusion was created and he stopped relating to who she really was and instead, began to relate to his projection.

For the man to unravel that particular "hallucination" he needed to accept that the cashier was not his wife. She wasn't going to leave him, or shame him, or break his heart -- she was just a college student in a part-time job who was hoping for a tip. Ideally, he would also work through any remaining grief or shame as related to the demise of his first marriage so he would no longer be at risk of becoming "hooked" again.

Source: Psychosis: An Introduction to a Jungian Perspective

Can you identify why you initially wanted to hurt those other people?

As to what's happened, I suspect that the medication has knocked the psychosis down. If you come off the medication, or it ceases to be effective, psychosis is going to rise back up again. Obviously, the doctors won't want to release you if they have any moral or legal concerns that you might hurt yourself or someone else. One possible means of appeasing them might be to convince them you will never go off your medication but since you might, or since the medication might lose its effectiveness over time I suspect it will be to your greater benefit to unravel the underlying fears, concerns, projections and anxieties that initially motivated your actions. The key isn't so much making the doctors understand you as it is for you to understand your self -- then, you can explain that to the doctors.

Meantime, since you have access to a computer it will be to your benefit to locate a copy of any pertinent mental health acts in your jurisdiction and to study them -- you need to understand exactly what the legalities are and what you're up against. It might also be to your benefit to think about what you're going to do when you are released. Will you be continuing to see your current doctors? Will you pursue any form of therapy? Can you get those relationships in place before you leave the hospital? Do you intend to return to work? How do your daughter and partner feel about your relationship with them as a result of what has happened? What can you do to reassure them that you will not hurt them and repair whatever harm has been done?

Thinking through all of the above might help better equip you for meeting with the tribunal and for continuing recovery for yourself and all concerned parties at the point you are released.

Best of luck to you.

~ Namaste