satan's hangout

I get my second monthly anti-psychotic shot (prolixin) tomorrow.

Sometimes Satan hangs out in my gut and sometimes in the back right hand corner of my brain and says stuff or plants stuff in my brain. Kind of inspires my thoughts, rather than talks to me. And I can see him, but not with my eyes.

Satan is so happy about getting the shot, cuz he thinks that this particular med is going to be BAD for me.

So, he is jumping up and down for joy in my brain.

But everyone says he lies and that I should not listen to him.
But everyone also says--take the shots.

What do I do??????

best thing is to talk with your doctor. I tend to ignore my man in the corner, and do things that he doesn't want, or I know he lies sometimes to make me nervous about things or paranoid. I would go ahead and get the shot. Satan might be trying to confuse you, too - isn't that the nature of Satan?

That depends entirely upon the nature of your relationship with Him. Your personal experience happens to be your own, you know, and not subject to what others have to say. Personally, Malady does not approve of people basing their judgments of others upon hearsay, gossip, and slander. If you and Satan have a relationship and an understanding ... don't let other people's input screw with that. It'd be like any other relationship, it'd be YOUR business and between the two of you, not up to someone else to say "listen to Him" or "DON'T listen to Him".

Satan often likes to teach us things through the creative use of fabricated and exploratory realities. It does not matter so much whether what He presents equates to factual truth as it does that what he presents affords us an opportunity to learn about ourselves and our responses in ways we would not otherwise. If you can wrap your mind around this kind of approach it could help you in the future to make more sense of what Satan may really be trying to accomplish with you rather than just what things seem like on the surface. Does that make sense to you?

If you would like to discuss these kinds of things from a more objective and experiential standpoint than you might get from others here who have been preprogrammed with fixed and unyielding associations concerning the name "Satan", feel free to PM or join Mal's group Cosmic Conflicts. If not, no big deal. Your call.

I see the dilemma you are in. I agree you probably have some sort of relationship with Satan. Being a devil I would not necessarily believe what he says however you do need to at least say I hear what you are saying. The shots may or may not help you but the only way to know for sure is to try them. It can be hard to weigh the benefits and risks of meds but it is an important thing to do.
I hope you find success in your treatment

Kayti